24 Years

We arent doing this again.

Taehyung POV

I sat in my bed as I went through everything in my head. Yoongi and Jungkook are finally going to get married huh? I'm happy for them... sorta. I laid back on my bed, listening to everyone out in the living space having a good time. They sound so happy, i thought. I sat up and ran my fingers through my hair and kicked my feet over the side of my bed and stood up. Gotta get this off of my chest before I regret it.

I opened the bedroom door and tapped Yoongi on the shoulder to catch his attention, "Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked him and nodded. I hadn't actually noticed that he was sitting next to Jungkook. And before he got up I noticed he hand to untangle his hand with Jungkook's.

We went back into the dorms and I closed the door, "Yoongi, you remember before right? When I... when I practically played you... and everyone?"

"Tae why are you bringing this up? Today's been such a great day I don't think I want to discuss this."

"Please just listen to me Yoongi."

"Okay, fine." He sat cross legged on one of the beds, looking at me expectantly, "I'm listening."

I stared at him, unable to find the right words to say. For s moment I paced in front of him before sitting next to him and taking a deep breath in, I brought it up because.... when I did it it was because I had actual feelings for you. And.... I didn't mean to make you feel used or played and I know I was lying the entire time I know what I did was messed up. But I just didn't know any other way because I really wanted you. I..."

"Tae, I'm going to cut you off right there. If you're bringing all of this up to apologize again it was all forgiven already. There's no need for you to-"

I Connected my lips with his, cutting him off. I pushed him back and climbed on top of him, pinning his arms down so that he is unable to push me off. But he wasn't really struggling. I deepened the kiss, parting when the both of us were out of breath.

"I'm sorry. I'm not trying to ruin your day or interrupt your plans or anything like that Yoongi... I Just... I'm in love you I can't help it."

Yoongi looked at me in shock for a moment before I let him up. He finally pushed me like I was expecting before, "Tae for Christ sakes we are not doing this again! You have a girlfriend. I'm to be married in a couple months, I am not putting myself through anymore stress because of this."

"I know and I am not asking you too. I just need to get this off my chest. I'm in love with you Yoongi, have been before you and Jungkook started dating and since you and I had that thing. I'm a human okay. I tried to get rid of the feelings multiple times. And when I thought I did I fell for her. But I never got rid of them I just came to terms with the fact that you will never be mine. I realized that and I accept that."

"But what about your girlfriend? You can't love her if you're so in love with me as you do claim."

"I know. And I realized that. Four months after we started dating I realized that but I still tried to get rid of the feelings and I used her to do it. Took me till two months ago to finally quit it and break up with her. I just couldn't stand myself anymore. And it's breaking my heart that my two basically ex's are getting married and are happier together than either one of them were with me. And maybe that's what I need, a heart break... but before that happens I just.... I needed to kiss you one more time, hold you one more time like I did during that week.. I'm sorry."

Yoongi's face went from angry to pained. He looked sad, like his heart was breaking and it made me feel like shit. I put him and everyone else through so much shit back then. I don't deserve to call these guys my friends. I don't deserve this moment.

Yoongi slowly walked closer to me, pressing his body against mine and wrapping his arms around my neck, he kissed me gently yet passionately. Instinctively I wrapped my arms around his waist and held his body close to me. My heart raced as i reveled in this moment. Disappointment filled me when Yoongi pulled away, resting his forehead against mine.

"When we were together I couldn't decide if I loved you or what. I felt something but I couldn't identify it. But that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy being with you. I was happy with you, just like I am with Jungkook, no more, no less. Jungkook and I just, I guess lasted longer. You made me happy while we were together despite the fact of what was happening. You helped me forget but that's in the past." Yoongi moved his arms, placing his hands against my chest, "I'm with Jungkook again and I love him, with all my heart and I'm going to marry him on the first."

"I know, but Yoongi, I'm sorry. But I'm not going to your wedding. I wouldn't be able to handle it. It'll too much for me to handle and I'm a coward. I'm better at running away from painful things than facing them."

Yoongi sighed and wrapped his arms a round himself, " It's okay... I understand. If the person I was in love with was getting married I wouldn't want to be there either. That doesn't make you a coward though."

"Thank you for saying so... Doesn't make me feel any different."

"Jungkook wont be happy."

"Neither will any one else and i know its unfair to think about myself on my two best friend's are about to get married, but i can help but be selfish right now."

"How are you going to get out of it?"

"Well, considering I'm moving out, I'll be able to pass with bullshit excuses now."

"Wait, you're moving out?"

"Yeah, non of us can stay in these dorms forever. I'm just getting a head start. After your birthday I'll be packing my things and leaving to live with my roommate from college. We've both got a job opportunity in the town over that fit our majors so. Since we are in the same town I figured I'd move in with him."

"I see..." Yoongi mumbled, "Okay.."

My heart was breaking seeing him so sad. I pinched his chin between my index and thumb, lifting his head so that he'd look at me, "I love you Yoongi." I placed my lips against his one more time, to get it out of my system. Reluctantly I removed my arms from around him and put a space between us, "Pretty sure I always will." I left out of the room without another word.

As I passed the living room to leave  front door, I told everyone that I was going to meet someone and hangout for a bit. A lie but, I needed to get out of the house and away from everyone and find somewhere to cry alone. I love you Yoongi. I wish i was the one marrying you instead of Jungkook. But I hope you stay happy.

I got into my car and drove away from the house, tears finally falling from my eyes and I sniffed. As I wiped my eyes while simultaneously watching the road still I chuckled softly, "Man this hurts."

Yoongi POV

I sat on the bed after Tae left. I felt like a part of my life was leaving and it didn't feel good. Knowing that he was going to move out and most likely separate himself from us hurt. I loved him. As both a friend and more. It hurt. I felt like i was going through a heartbreak and I couldn't help but cry. I was losing someone. It felt no better than losing Jungkook.

I brought my knees up to my chest and sniffed quietly. Tears spilled from my eyes in gross globs. My heart ached and I placed my hand over my chest as if it would stop it. Clenching my shirt when it didn't I began to cry harder.

"Taehyung... please come back."

A/n: Lukonarokie you're welcome, hate me if you want ♥️ ♥️ ♥️