Finding Myself

Chapter 4

Tris P.O.V

I pull up outside of the woods. When I hop out of my car, I grab my guitar because it always seems to calm me. As I'm walking, I find a chasm and sit down right in front of it. My way to become free of everything, the drama mostly, is through music. I know I'm probably not that good of a singer but still.

I start playing a song that I wrote after the Robert thing.

"If I Die Young"

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh,
And life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand,
There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by...

...the sharp knife of a short life, oh well?
I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh, no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (oh, uh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save 'em for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls.

When I finish, I hear clapping from behind me. I turn around and see Four. "Oh...hey." I say. "Hi." he responds and sits down next to me. "Sorry about earlier." he says. I shake my head, "It was my fault. I was just upset."

"Well," he says. "I understand. If it makes you feel any better, you're not the only one with an emotional life. Everyone does, if you really think about it."

"Thanks but I think I have way more problems than you." I say. "How so?" he asks. Does he ever stop? "Don't want to talk about it." I mutter. "I understand."

"Could you stop saying that." I say calmly. "You don't understand. No one will ever understand. Okay? You have no clue what I went through."

"Sorry." he says looking down. I stand up getting ready to leave because if I don't, I'll just burst into tears right here. "Goodbye." I say. "See you tomorrow." he responds.

Four P.O.V

Something about this girl is so intriguing. I just met her, yet I want to know all about her--what she's been through. I know she probably won't tell me, considering the fact that we just met but I want her to open up to me. It's weird, I know.

I take out my phone and call the one person I know will give me good advice, Zeke. He's like a brother to me.

(Bold is Zeke regular is Four and italics is Uriah)

Hello?

Hey man I need some advice.

Yeah sure. What do ya need?

It's about a girl.

AHHHH OH MY GOD! FOUR FINALLY HAS A CRUSH!!!

Is that Uriah on the line too?

URIAH SHUT THE FUCK UP! Okay, he's gone.

Well there's this girl-

Who is it!?!

I'm going to fucking kill you! Hold on Four.

I'm..back...keep...going.

Okay I kinda like...Tris. But I don't know how to get her to like me.

Make a bold move.

No no no. She's not that type of girl. You can't just throw one of your famous candor or dauntless parties, dare her to kiss me and then bam! She falls for me.

Oh...well in that case, get closer to her. Start hanging out with her more and then slowly, she will start to trust you. Does that solve your problem?

Yeah, it really does. Thanks bro.

Anytime.