SWitched

Deal

I look at him, this is unfair. He’s talking to everybody, one by one everyone started to leave the van.

“Don’t be too upset!” He told me, holding my shoulders like everything will be fine. “My favor is not that hard to do!” He said, smiling, he grabbed my left hand and let me sat on the couch.

“Leenna, my favor is simple.” He paused. I’m afraid for what will he going to say, I still want to be with them, with him. I don’t want to leave, I don’t want to leave them, I want to be with Gerard everyday, I don’t care if he look like me, I don’t care if he looks a helpless girl. I love this man. I put my head down and avoid to look at him. I love him and he’s the only one made me feel so happy, not Mom, not Dad, not even Anna.

“Would you be my Girl Friend, I mean Boy Friend?”

Those words echoed in my ear, I faced him and saw his smiling face. I gave him my confused face, I don’t understand, is he the one who spoke or I’m just Imagining things? “Sorry if I surprised you, but I don’t want to loose you to anybody not even to Frank, I want you to be mine.” He told me, “Wha…?”

“I could repeat it again if you want to?” He told me, holding both of my shoulders, I nod to make everything clear.

He smiled and nod.

“Will you be my Girl Friend Leenna Miller?”

I smiled as I realized that I’m not dreaming. A single drop of tear fell over my cheek , I nod as I smile, while he gave me a really tight hug, I hug him back. “I’ll bake you cookies everyday, we’ll play PokeWars everyday, we’ll go at the gigs and concerts together, and I will never let other person hurt you!, I will sacrifice everything for you, I’ll take care of you, everyday!” he told me, saying all those things into my ear.

“I love you Leenna!”

Those words made me feel so happy. I didn’t mind for what we look now, all I can imagine is it’s Gerard I’m hugging and not my body, I didn’t had a chance to tell him that I love him too, he cupped my head as we kissed each other, I closed my eyes avoiding to see my self kissing me, I felt his kiss is different than the first time we’ve kissed. This kiss is more passionate than the one before. Gerard started to pull me closer to him, as I felt nothing but him.

I want to tell him I love him too. I pushed him a bit away from me, I opened my eyes, pretend that it’s Gerard in front of me, “Why?” he asked, real confused. “I just want to tell you that I love you Gerard, since the first day I fell in-love in your voice until now.” I told him, crying, he wiped my tears away and hug me again.

But I felt sadness, I feel, I’m a burden on Gerard’s life.

I don’t understand myself, but I’m happy that he’s my boy friend now.

It’s just I have this feeling that I could be a burden on Gerard’s life.

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Gerard’s POV

I hug her for all the words she told me, I want to hug her forever, I want to wrap my arms around her until we both die, I don’t want to loose her, I don’t want her to end up like Ella. I kissed her again, every time I look at her, all I see is Leenna’s face. I don’t know what this means but I ignore it, but every time I kiss her, I feel weaker, I don’t know why and I don’t care if we’re switching back again. The only thing in my mind is Leenna is my girl friend now. And all I wished now is to stuck my lips on her lips forever. I decided to pull her shirt up, my heart beat fast as I pull it up, it seems that my body is feeling really weak, but then a hand blocked me from pulling it off her, “Leenna?” I saw her hands holding my hand. Why? Doesn’t she want it? Isn’t this what all girls want?

“I can’t… I don’t know how!” she told me, I felt her hands shiver, I’m afraid I might scare her. I don’t want that to happen. I put down her shirt and decided to just kiss her, from her neck to her face. “Tell me if you’re ready, I’ll wait.” I told her, she’s still young and I don’t want to scare her for what I desire. I’ll wait even if it’s the end of the world.

“I’m sorry Gerard.” She started to say those things again, I cupped her head again, placed my hand on her jaw line and started to kiss her again. I don’t want to hear her “sorry”s. I kissed her more to avoid her from saying anything. She pushed me away and I look into her crying eyes, “I’m sorry if you need to wait for me” I wipe her tears and hug her.

“Please don’t cry, please don’t say sorry to me, everything will be fine.” I told her just to make her calm.

“I understand why you don’t want to do it.” I continued as I hold her both shoulders. “We can do it anytime you want, I won’t force you.” I said, smiling, she smiled back at me.

“You want cookies right?” I asked her as I wipe her tears on her face –seriously, I don’t know if I’m just hallucinating but she don’t look like Gerard Way. “Yeah!” she said as she smile at me.

We both stood up as I slowly realize that I’m still on her body, I rub my eyes and saw that she’s still on my body.

“Your blood need to get bond so you can get back”

Yeah, does that mean we need have to sex with each other just to bring our bodies back?.

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“Ahh… that’s delicious!” Leenna said to me, I know she’ll like the cookies I made for her. “I’m glad you love it!” I said as I sip a coffee, she smiled at me and did a really big sigh, she hold my hand and look me closer in the eye. “I trust you Gerard.” She told me while she smile.

“I’m ready now!” she continued. She grabbed my hands and pulled me out of the chair, I locked the doors and closed the window. She sat beside me in the bed and faced me. “Are you sure about this?” I asked her, she place my hands on her waist as she nod, I slowly pulled her shirt off of her, she shivered a bit, I know she’s not ready yet, she’s just pretending because she doesn’t want to disappoint me.

She trust me, and I don’t want to disappoint her, I’ll help her. I know she want to get back in her own body too, and I’ll do it for her.

I could stay like this forever, but if it’s what she want I’ll give it to her.

My heart started to beat so fast again, my body went weaker, but I ignored it, I didn’t want to stop this time. I want to do this now.