A/N continuation of hesitation and loss that no one wanted
"it's a new year," jimin reminded himself." it's a new year with new people," he continued in his head,but a pesky little voice remained, constantly reminding him that he didn't want new. he wanted yoongi.
" well yoongi can fuck off,"jimin thought, furrowing his brows in anger.
"what?" a voice said, a familiar one at that.
jimin's eyes flew open and there was yoongi with flowers at his hospital bed. " did i say that out loud? shit .wait, what are you doing here ?" jimin hissed, trying to sound mad but he felt his resolve breaking when he saw the state yoongi was in.
yoongi's hair was a mess and the bags under his eye seemed darker than ever. jimin tried to quell down the rising pity in his stomach. no, this man didn't deserve anything, he reminded himself. " you look terrible,"jimin said offhandedly.
" well after they called saying my boyfriend-"
"not your boyfriend"
" sorry. after they called and said someone i deeply cared about-"
" ya sure about that?"
"oh my god, jimin , let me finish."
"fine"
" anyway after they did, i've spent the past week off work waiting in the ER waiting room and begging to be let in. today , they finally said you were well enough that i could see you"
" would it be bad if i sad i wish i could go into a coma again so i didn't have to see you"
"JIMIN! don't say that"
" so now you care ?"
" jimin, baby, i'm sorry"
jimin turned in the bed to face away from yoongi pouting and staring out the window. the view outside the hospital was beautiful and his pout soon turned into a wistful stare. " i can take you outside if you want ," yoongi said, jolting jimin out of his dreamlike trance. jimin grunted unhappily but didn't resist when yoongi helped him into the wheelchair and wheeled him out.
five minutes later, they sat on a bench staring at the sunset. " it's beautiful," jimin whispered. "not as beautiful as you," replied yoongi, in a similar hushed tone. "if i was so beautiful, why'd you cheat on me?" jimin asked, trying to sound harsh but coming off as hurt instead. " i'm so sorry. i regret it so much and it eats away at me every day ," yoongi said ,suddenly sounding close to tears. " you hurt me. what you did hurt more than losing my best friend and my job. hell, it hurt more than overdosing," jimin said, losing the battle to keep his tears from overflowing." i know i hurt you , baby. but please give me a chance ," yoongi pleaded, almost begging." i'm not letting you hurt me again,"jimin said, sounding tired and resigned,"no, never again."
and as jimin fell asleep, head on yoongi's shoulder, yoongi quietly whispered," doesn't mean i'm not gonna try , sweetheart."
and as night fell, yoongi's tears fell with it .
A/N so i'm not dead. yah sorry this sucks. also quick question if I posted a full length yoonmin story, would anyone want to read it?
