If I Could Fly

Chapter 6

Louis' P.O.V

"I have no idea what happened Niall, we didn't even do anything. I put my boxers on and turned to look at him before telling him I loved him." Niall and Zayn were both on the floor beside me while I held Harry while I was crying. "I-I don't know what happened Nia-" I was cut off when Niall took Harry's hand and rubbed the top of it with his thumb. "Louis, you may know harry and a few things about him, but you don't know everything like Zayn and I." I look up at Niall and then to Zayn, confused on what my brother had meant. I knew a lot about Harry from what Niall and our parents have told me, I knew a few things about him from school, and I knew some things from watching and observing him over the years. I never recall anything like him passing out before though and it kinda upsets me. Wait I take that back, I do remember Zayn rushing over and running to Niall's room. I remember walking near Niall's room and hearing Zayn tell talking about how Harry had passed out after a fight with one of his mums boyfriends. Zayn had no clue what to do, just like I have no clue what to do. How is it that Niall knows how to help and now Zayn knows what to do now too, but I'm left in the dust. "I know quite a bit Niall, but you're right. I don't know everything... I-I didn't even know what to do but to yell for you. I-is he gonna be okay?" I couldn't stop the shaking in my voice, I'm that scared. I love Harry and seeing this happen has honestly broke my heart, especially since I have no idea how to help him.

"He's going to be fine Louis," Zayn said as he patted my shoulder. I looked at him with a sad but warm smile. Just knowing that my Hazza is going to be okay makes me feel a little bit better. I still don't know how to help or what to do or even what to say. All I know is I'm not letting of harry at all until he wakes up and I know that he is for sure okay. "Will one of you guys tell me what's wrong with him and why he just passed out. P-please... I wanna know what's wrong and how to help and be there for him. I-I love him..." I looked over to Niall and then Zayn, Niall had seemed to grow sad and I could tell that Zayn was at a lost of words. I sighed just as Niall went to speak, "Louis... Harry has schizoaffective disorder," Niall looked even more sad after telling me that. Zayn just sat there and brung his knees up to rest his head on them. "He's had it ever since he was little and basically it will never go away and there will be times he acts differently. Like his anger will take over or his sadness or even his happiness. There will be days that he is the sweetest, kindest, funniest guy you could hang out with." Niall was telling me so much that I barely noticed Harry twitch a little in my arms. Before Niall went to speak again, Zayn spoke up, "But there will be days when he's the coldest, meanest, cruelest, asshole you'll ever meet. He's not all in his head when he has those days..."

I noticed that Zayn was shaking a little, man what has him all shook up. "U-um, Louis you see... Harry needs to be protected at all costs. Even when he's a complete dick. He'll says things he doesn't mean or even start yelling at nothing because he thinks that it's his mums first boyfriend." Zayn froze at those last few words and got up to walk out. I looked over at Niall confused and lost more than I have ever been. "Niall, I don't know what that disorder you said he has is, and why is Zayn so upset?" He shook his head and I noticed he had a tear that was sliding down his cheek. "You two are so upset and I'm here in the dark confused and sad that I have no idea what's wrong with my hazza. I-I have no idea how to help him or what to do, a-and-" Niall cut me off with two words that I dreaded, "not now." I had no idea why he wouldn't tell me until I noticed that Harry was slowly waking up. "Oh Harry. You don't understand how much I love you." I said as I held the younger boy close to me, scared that I might lose him. Niall looked at me and mouthed the words 'when he's asleep, come to me room, Zayn and I will tell you everything' I nodded and smiled a little smile. "Heyo little buddy, I went and got you a cup of water," Zayn said entering the room again. I looked at him and you could tell that he had been crying. All I wanna know is why my hazza blacked out, what's wrong with him, and what happened with his mums firs boyfriend that made Niall and Zayn so upset that they cry. They honestly seem quite scared actually.

"Thanks Zayn, d-did it happen again?!" Zayn handed the glass to my hazza and nodded. "Harry, have you stopped taking your medicine?!, this hasn't happened for awhile and I wonder if it's the medicine." Harry looked at my brother for a few seconds and still hadn't answered. "Harry Edward, tell us damn it," that's the first time I've ever heard Zayn sound so desperate. Harry went to stand up, so I stood and helped him. "Yes I've been taking my medicine, but this has been happening here recently and I have no clue why." Harry went to walk out of the room and without thinking I wrapped my arms around him and held him. "I love you Harr, never ever forget that," He turned around and I couldn't help but admire how beautiful his eyes are. God damn they're beautiful. "I love you too Louis, always and forever. I-I'm sorry for you having to deal with me and what just happened." He started crying and watching him made me cry. Before I could say anything or do anything Niall came and took Harry's hand. "Come on lad, it's okay." Harry wiped his eyes and hugged Niall. "You'll always have us Harry, you know that babes," Niall said as Zayn joined the hug. I looked at them and cried more. I don't know what's wrong with the boy I'm truly, madly, deeply in love with. I just wanna hold him in my arms everyday for the rest of my life. I joined the hug and continued to cry. When we all pulled away and looked at each other, I noticed that both Niall and Zayn were crying too.

"Guys, I'm sorry for this. But since this happened I think I want to go home and be by myself for a little bit." I don't know why, but it feels like my heart just shattered to the words of him insinuating that he was leaving. I didn't want him to leave, I didn't want him to be by himself either. I was fixing to blurt out the word 'no' but Zayn had started to speak. "I really don't want you to Harry, but if you insist then I will take you home. There's just one thing, you must answer your phone whenever one of us texts or calls you. Promise?!" I looked at Harry who had nodded in agreement and Niall who seemed like he could kill Zayn for even letting Harry go home. Harry looked at the floor and wiped his eyes, he looked up at me, and practically ran towards me and hugged me so tightly. I hugged him and didn't want to let go. "I will be here tomorrow morning no later then 9am boo bear, I promise." My heart never fluttered this fast, I feel like it's fixing to burst any minute now. Harry just called me boo bear. "Alright baby, I will be waiting." I was smiling which made Harry giggle and smile. Damn I love his smile. Harry leaned in to kiss me and I smiled as we kissed, which made him smile to. "I love you," we both said at the same exact time making us both laugh. "Aweeeeeee," Niall said making Zayn laugh at how girly he just sounded. "Alright lad, lets go" and with that my heart shattered again as I watch my love walk out of the room.

*** Sorry if this chapter and or the other chapters suck...

Well lovelies, here lies chapter 6. I'm terribly sorry that it took me forever to post.... I went through some problems and couldn't find the time to write. I also suffer with depression and suicidal thoughts, so I finally scared myself and had to get back into counseling.... But I'm good now, I'm getting the help I need. I'll try and update as much as I can. Hope you guys enjoy and I'm sorry if it sucks.... Much Love <3