Fight or Flight?

Chapter 3

Roses pov

*4 months later*

Mother and Cal left me at home with all servants. They never have taken me out. We all would be shamed upon. A baby out of wedlock. If the word got out we would all be in trouble in first class society and cause quite a stir, not to mention Cals business getting into trouble.

"Right I'll be off Rose. Me and your mother will be home late. So make sure you and the baby make yourselves get into bed at a reasonable hour before I get home", he kissed me and felt Jacks unborn baby kick him and punch him like it should, "ooooo. We've got a strong boy in there Rose. Just make sure you get mummy the rest she deserves", he kissed Jacks child that he thought was his.

"Rose you stay put and get to bed. You only have three months to go till this boy arrives. And I don't want anything going wrong at the birth. So you keep up your diet and eat right. And he'll be here in no time", my mother was all dressed up fancy and happy that she was going to the ball to meet up with her boring friends bragging about anything. She gave me a kiss goodbye and that was it. That was the love I received from everyone in this house. Anyone but what me and the baby shared.

"Come on let's get some ice cream and go up to our room", I rubbed my bloated belly before going to the kitchen to snack on a tub of ice cream, "god you're kicking up a storm", it kept kicking and punching me like I was it's punching bag, "and it's making me feel really comfortable", I tried to somewhat move it but with all the padding and dressing I couldn't making it more uncomfortable than it already was, "oh", I tried giving up. I then slowly waddled very slowly up the stair case alone and stayed in my room. I sat by my window looking out to the night sky that had millions of stars all shining back at me. Like it was Jack looking down at me from the heavens above.

"Look at shooting star"

"Yeah that was a long one. You know my Pops used to tell me. Each time you saw one it was soul going to heaven"

"I like that. Aren't you supposed to wish on it"

"Why? What did you wish for?"

"Something I can't have"

I thought of that memory. That time when nothing was wrong and it was all that it seemed. No Cal, no Ruth, no Lovejoy chasing after us. It was just us and our love. The love that created our child that I was carrying. The love I have to give it cause no one else will. The love that is enough to live on like Jack.

"I wish you could of met your father", I started to cry, "or at least seen him", I broke down in tears as I watched it move and wriggle about kicking me letting me know I'm not alone, "he was so beautiful", I smiled through the pain and agony on my heart, "but for what's it's worth. He let us live. Now that love is undeniably...", I lost my train of thought of words to say about him, "that love is so so hard to find. And it's up mostly true. He loved us so much that he died for us. He sacrificed himself for us. Either though he didn't have too. That's why it's important. And that's why I'm thankful everyday to have a life worth living because of him. That's why I love him", I stroked my ginormous belly, "he is our saviour", I placed my whole hand on my belly where the baby kicked, "I love you so much. And your daddy loves you too", I blew a kiss to it before I looked at the thousands of stars placed in the sky by God the creator of the universe. My 7 o'clock pm alam went off that my mother set for me to get to bed and to get the right amount of sleep, "time to get some sleep", I got to my feet and waddled over to my bed. No servants came to tuck me in like I told them too.

When Cal, mother, and Lovejoy are out I give them nights off. When just Lovejoy is here they pretend to work but they swap in and out so he doesn't notice that so many are missing. Quite smart if you ask me. I am a strong independent women. No one else besides the servants see that. And that burns me to do more.

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Authors note

All that bold underlined bit is about Jesus and the cross. I am a Christian. And writing that about Jack it just really stuck out to me. Even in Making It Count Part 2 I have written about heaven and to me what I think it's gonna be like. I don't know what's heaven like. But I just wrote it so easily and it just kept flowing. Same with this one thinking about Jacks sacrifice and what his undying love meant to her.

That's what Jesus did upon the cross for us.

No matter who you are. Black, White, Asian, straight, gay, transgender. JESUS! DID THAT FOR YOU!

In the garden of Gethsemane. Jesus got on his knees and talked to God with Blood sweating down from him. And it's true! it's in Luke 22:44 so go check it out.

He was scared. He didn't want to do this. But he love us so much that he had too. Just like Jack did to Rose.

I remember my dad telling me about stories and Hollywood and he said that they follow the same path (structure) Jesus took all the way to Jerusalem to his death in the cross. Then to have the happy fairytale ending or cliffhanger.

One of the examples he gave me was Star Wars (another huge fandom of mine) and it really made think.

Listen. I'm not turning you into a Christian. Sometimes I can't even spell Christian right. I spell it as in the name!

But you may not be perfect. NOTHING IS!
But know this...

"For God so love the world so much that he gave his only son. That whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life", John 3:16.

Now I know this verse off by heart. Probably because it's often the most quoted and over used verse in the whole bible. But...

"All of us have fallen short of Gods glory", Romans 3:23.

Now I learnt that verse in 2014 and I still know that one. No one is perfect. God is perfect.

If you were perfect enough would you save all the people in the world? (Think about that one for a moment)

If you think you could, would you save the molesters, pedophiles, murders, rapists, and any other bad disgusting thing humans have done to on another?? It's a tough question to answer. But who would?

God would. And he did. And he will do again!

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And if anyone wants to talk to me about this or anything in general. I'm always open to hear and listen.