Fight or Flight?

Chapter 14

Roses pov

I left with Jack Jr safely in my arms from Jacks house. He still didn't want to let me go but he had to. I told him that's "it's the only way to see each other. To be with baby Jack. To be a family' he let me slip out the door after that, remaining silent and still with his hands in his pockets and head down. I'm sorry Jack.

We both know Cal is the doorman with my key. He can keep the door open or he can slam and lock it shut. With me screaming in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up! I remembered how I felt aboard Titanic before I went off with Jack. Something that I will never forget or regret. But every time I enter the same area as Cal and Mother, I just want to scream and run out from them and everything in first class.

"Do you love him?", Jacks voice kept circling round in my head in a constant loop, "Well it's a simple question. Do you love the guy or not?", his voice continued to speak to me.

"No. I mean yes. But only you Jack. Only you", I spoke aloud to myself that I haven't done since I had found Jack once again. I then looked back to see the pier ablaze in colours. From orange to red to gold. It was the most beautiful creation of lightening I've ever seen. Even more beautiful than a luxurious ten thousand dollar chandelier. But this was far better than a crystal ball hanging from the ceiling.

But all I want to do is run down there back into Jacks safe, kind warm, loving arms and be with him forever. No matter what the consequences are back at the house. But as I look back up the hill and to Jack Jr I know I can't. I can't run away from my fears. I have to fight them. I can't flee now. Fleeing now won't do us much good. It will only cause trouble for myself and baby Jack. With Cal coming after us in pursuit putting us all in danger. Jack may think he can save all of us but he can't, he isn't a superhero. Sure it almost happened before but to one person. Well maybe two at the end. But it will still bring massive complications in the future. We both don't want that.

"I'm sorry Jack. But I have to do this. For all of us", so I took all in the fresh air and strength that he gave me. And walked my way up to the 'house of horrors'.

Please don't be there. Please. PLEASE! I twisted the door knob and opened the door peeping round to see if anyone, especially Cal was there. Thank god he isn't. I sneaked passed the smoking room unnoticed where Cal was reading the paper while smoking a cigarette. Well at least I won't be getting beaten tonight. I quickly scurried up to my room before anyone else could see me and report me to mother or Cal. I shut the door and locked it up letting out a sigh of relief that I had made it 'home' safely and undetected.

The curtains were wide open giving me the glimpse of where Jack and the pier at Santa Monica is. It gave me one more good look at freedom before I shut them close to make it dark for Jack Jr to sleep. Click. I completely stood still and froze with my muscles tightening bring Jack Jr closer and closer to me. Please not be Cal. Please be a maid. Or even mother perhaps. Just not Cal. Just not.. him.

"Hello sweet pea", Cal lent and the shut the door behind him, "enjoy your day and evening out?", he gave me the devils smile. You can do it Rose. Just stay strong and be calm. Don't do anything rash. He will beat you harder for that. You also have Jack Jr in your arms. And no matter what he does to you, he does not get hurt.

"Yes. We had great weather. The stars are quite beautiful tonight", I began with a simple introduction that Cal can understand.

"We?", Cal tilted his head to the side looking directly at me. Making myself shrivel up even more. Retreating slowly back back into my shell.