(its been a looooong time guys, my apologies. ive legit just come up with this chapter so sorry if its rushed, love you all and i hope you enjoy! xo) (also a lot of swearing)
WinWin's pov:
Me and Yuta.. we haven't spent time together that much. We are too busy helping other people into relationships, that we haven't had time to focus on our own. I've had sleepless nights by myself, wondering the worst case scenarios. Does he love me? Is there someone else? I have to talk to him..
I dragged myself off my bed and stood opposite Yuta's door. I softly knock, wanting to sort this out calmly. 'Who is it?', Yuta said happily, which made me smile, but I'm still left unloved none the less. The door creaked open, revealing me on the other side, with a blank expression. 'Babe, what's wrong?' he shuffles over to me while saying. 'Huh, now you care..'
Yuta's face dropped- 'Excuse me? I've.. I always ca-'. 'Not recently. Ive tried and tried my best to ignore this feeling but its eating me alive Yuta. The amount of times I've come in here to spend time with you, you ignore me and go on your phone. How do you think that makes me feel? We are acting like fucking Cupid, going around helping everyone when in reality, we need help Yuta. Please tell me you still love me, I want to sort this out, I love you..'
Yuta stood there in disbelief, as if this is all new information. I've felt like this for months, but of course he wouldn't know. Anger started bubbling up inside me as my heart pounded rapidly. I didn't want to settle it this way, but I can't pretend to be calm about this situation.
'Of course I love you WinWin, I always will-'
'You say that. People can say many things. I've been alone in my room for how many nights now? Not once did you come in and see if I was okay. But here I am, coming to you to sort things out when you should be the one to come and see me.'
'I didn't want to disturb you..' Yuta said strongly. All I could do is laugh. Does he really think I believe that? 'Don't act brain dead Yuta. Why are you trying to get out of this? I mean, you're not doing yourself any favours. You don't come near me at all. When the whole of NCT are together, you talk to others. Am I fucking invisible? Even if I am, you still glance at me, but block me out. I mean what the actual fuck? You even look at others the way you used to look at me. And don't even try to deny it, cause I know full well.'
Silence.
I scoffed. Turning around to leave, he piped up. 'I've seen you with the other members-' 'THATS BECAUSE I HAVE NOBODY ELSE. YOU DONT APPROACH ME AT ALL, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? SIT BY MYSELF? IM SO UNLOVED IM TURNING TO MY FRIENDS FOR COMFORT WHEN YOU SHOULD BE THE FUCKING ONE TO COMFORT ME. IM FRAGILE YUTA, YOU KNOW THAT!'
I lashed out. I know I shouldn't of done it but I've been holding it in for so long..
Taeyong barged through the door, and as soon as I saw him, I cried my eyes out and ran. I sat in my room, crying alone. I was sobbing so loud that I didn't hear the door open. With blurry eyes, I looked up. It was Jaehyun. 'I don't want to loose him', I whined as Jaehyun pulled me in for a hug.
What have I done?
