(sorry it's taken so long for me to do this but i hope you like it!! (swearing!!))
Yuta's pov:
He was a mess. His eyes were puffy, his hair was messy and his room was a dump. I felt so bad, all we have been through, I have never seen him like this, ever. He wasn't looking after himself, and it hurt me.
'Come on then, what do you wanna say?' WinWin said bluntly. I looked at him emotionally, but he just stared at me blankly, what have i done? 'Before I start, please tell me how you feel..' I suggested, wanting to know if he was coping okay and how i can fix him. Silence. 'Fine, I'll start..' I took a big deep breath in, 'I was trying to make you jealous..' WinWin chuckled at my remark, I could tell he wasn't impressed. 'Are you fucking serious? What the fuck went through your mind? Actually no don't worry I've given up trying to care, but carry on, this is funny!!' He really didn't care, he was just laughing at me, it hurt me so much. 'I wanted to see if you still loved me or not..'
'HA!!' A loud laugh erupted out his mouth. 'Well know you know don't you babe!! Fucking congratulations!! I love you so much, I wanna make things work, but what you just told me is ridiculous..' His toned suddenly changed, he wasn't being such an asshole towards me.. 'I know it was stupid, I didn't know what to do. I was scared you liked someone else' 'So you ignored me for weeks and left me to my own thoughts cause you wanted to see if I still loved you. You are some fucked up man to do that Yuta, don't even disagree with that..' My heart ripped, It was surely over after this..
'I totally agree with you, it was fucked up and I regret it with all my hea-' 'No Yuta, how the fuck did you think that was gonna work? You seriously are fucked in the head, you are so heartless to do that to your boyfr-'
I snapped.
'SHUT THE FUCK UP!! HOW MANY TIMES DO I NEED TO SAY SORRY, I WANT YOU BACK. I DONT WANNA GIVE UP ON YOU. DONT YOU DARE CALL ME HEARTLESS CAUSE ODDLY ENOUGH I DID THIS ALL FOR YOU!! AS STUPID AS IT WAS AND HOW HURTFUL IT WAS, IM HERE TRYING TO MEND THINGS. Please WinWin. This is my first relationship and I have never been this in love. It was so difficult not to be with you everyday during them weeks, but I stuck with it cause I wanted to know if you still loved me. You have been such an asshole about this situation when we could have done this sooner.'
He listened to every word, but I got a totally different response to what I expected.. 'Wow Yuta. I have been the asshole have I? One problem with you is that you don't care about other peoples feelings. You literally tried to turn this all on me. YOU ignored me. YOU flirted with the other members. I HAVE DONE FUCK ALL. I TURNED TO MY FRIENDS WHEN YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE. YOU KNOW WHAT, GO FUCK TAEYONG, I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!'
'Real mature WinWin, he is in a happy relationship with Jaehyun, I'm not ruining that!'
'But you ruined ours.. That just shows how important I am to you..'
His eyes watered, and so did mine. I cant believe I had said that about him and done that to him. I'm a monster.. 'Get out..' WinWin quietly ordered '..please' 'I love you WinWin..' 'Well you have a fucking funny way of showing it...' his broken voice breathlessly whispered..
I had to show him I loved him. I grabbed his face and pushed my lips onto his passionately. His hands went to my hair as the kiss deepened. 'Am I forgiven baby? I will never ever isolate you and say such rude things to you ever again.. I will love you forever, you are the only person I have feelings for-'
'Just shut up and kiss me idiot.. '
(this is so fucking bad i apologise so much!! i have another sad chapter to do but i feel like there has been too sadness so i'll do it further into the book. please feel free to comment chapter suggestions in the comments, they will help me know what you guys wanna see cause i cant come up with shit!! also, 3k reads????? boiii thank you all so so so much you have no idea how much it means to me!! anyways, c you in the next one!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!)
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