The Heart in Blue Flames

The Nightmare

Bon's Pov

I got up from my bed and started to get ready for the day. This was it, I'm going to tell Rin how I feel. Several different outcomes were running through my head, mostly bad. I took a deep breathe and cleared my thoughts. I began to think of how I was going to tell him. I'll catch him when he's alone, this way if things go wrong no one will see. I'll just be straight forward and tell him. My heart began to race just thinking about it. I threw the nervousness away for a moment and finished getting ready.

I went to leave the room and my hand paused at the handle. My heart won't stop beating so fast, and my hands are starting to get sweaty. No, I have to tell him. I'm going to tell him. I need to stop being so nervous and just do it. I opened the door and finally left my room. As soon as I stepped out of my room I looked over to see Rin walking in my direction. No one was around so I guess now will as good a time as any. "Hey Rin," I said to get his attention. He looked up and walked up to me. " what's up Bon," he replied. "I-I need to tell you something, Rin," I told him. My heart was pounding in my chest, I felt like it was going to explode. "What is it," he replied. "W-well I have feelings for y-you, I- " he cut me off before I could finish. "Stop there Bon," he began to chuckle," I don't like you Bon, I definitely don't have any feelings for you either."

The words he just said shot through my heart. Out of nowhere, a whole crowd surrounded me, pointing at me, laughing. Everything around me turned black. It felt like I was falling indefinitely into a pit of darkness and despair that I'd never be able to escape. The hands of depression grasping for me as I fell into nothingness.

My eyes shot open. I was having a nightmare. A twisted, unforgiving nightmare. It was all so vivid. With my heart pounding and my body covered in sweat I jumped off my bed and ran outside of my room. I ran to the boys showers and ran to a sink. With tears dripping down my cheeks, I splashed cold water over my face, took a few deep breaths, and stared endlessly at my reflection in the mirror. Maybe I shouldn't tell Rin, maybe that was a sign telling me to forget about it all. If only it was that easy. No matter how hard it may be, I should just forget about him. This way, my nightmare won't become a reality. I dried my face off and started back to my room.

I look up from the ground and see Rin walking my way. He stopped when he saw me. "Hey Bon," he said. I was still shook from my dream, and the images popped in my head. "Don't talk to me idiot," I replied, it pained me to say those words. "B-Bon, what's wrong," he replied. "Forget about it, it's none of your damn business, stop talking to me, Rin," I said. Saying the words tore me into pieces. I was breaking my own heart. Not like it matters to him anyways. I turned away and ran back to my room, my eyes full with tears. I opened the door and threw myself on the bed. This is it, I have to forget about him. No matter how much it breaks me, I have too. Somewhere in my self loathing I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.

Rins Pov

What the hell was that. My heart felt broken, my chest so heavy. Why is he treating me like that. Maybe I shouldn't tell him how I feel. To think I was actually going to tell him how I felt just then. There's no doubt he doesn't like me. I should just forget about it. No matter how bad it hurts, I have to forget him and let him go. Everything will be much better that way. I'll just ignore him, and hope he ignores me too.

I wiped the tears off that streamed down my face. I thought of ways to occupy my mind. The only thing I could keep thinking about were the words that Bon told me. This is going to be a lot harder than I thought. Whatever, I'll just have to be strong. Depressing thoughts crowded my mind. I closed my eyes. No matter what, I will get through this, even if it takes awhile. Even though I think I can let him go, I think I'll always like Bon, always. My thoughts went blank and I fell asleep.

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