The Heart in Blue Flames

Serious Talk

Rins pov

After class I went to my new room to get a nap in before talking to Yukio later tonight. It's nice having a room of my own now. I'm totally glad I requested that before class today. Especially with yukio being so upset with me. I woke up from my nap and started out of my room. I'm so nervous to talk to yukio about why I've been gone so long. What do I say? Should I tell him the truth or come up with a good excuse. Yeah right, Yukio always knows when I'm lying to him. As I drew closer to Yukio's room my heart began racing faster and faster. Am I really going to tell him? I mean I've already told Shiemi, but this is my brother. What if he hates me after I tell him? What if he doesn't keep it a secret? I'm gunna have to tell him, he won't accept any excuse. I reached his door and hesitated on knocking for a second, but I knocked anyway. Yukio opened the door " hey Rin come in, its time to talk," he said.

I walked into the room and yukio gestured toward a chair. I took a seat and stayed quite for a minute. "Well Rin, let's hear it. Why the hell have you been gone so long. We may always fight and argue, but you are my brother and I was worried about you," Yukio said to my surprise. "I'm afraid to tell you Yukio. I don't want you to hate me," I told him. "Rin, you can tell me anything, I don't think anything can surprise as much as finding out you were the son of Satan. Whatever you need to say stays here," he replied, reassuring me. "Okay, but I'm going to be really pissed off if you don't like what I have to say. It's not going to be easy for me," I said.

I hesitated for another few seconds. " Wellll, remember when you had Bon tutor me," I asked. "Yeah, what about it," he asked. "Well, I don't know why or how it even happened for that matter, but I started catching feelings for him that day. My feelings grow stronger and stronger every time I see him or hang out with him. Well anyway, one day right before I was about to tell him how I really felt about him, he called me an idiot and to leave him alone. It hurt me so much to hear that it broke my heart. I didn't want anyone see me cry or acting weird, so I stayed away," I told him. "I felt like if people saw me acting different around him after he said that, that they would find out," I added.

It took everything of me to confess that to Yukio. I look up to Yukio staring blankly and then he started to giggle. "Rin, I told you that you could tell me anything. I don't care who you choose to love, you're my brother," he said in a caring tone. His face then got serious. "I am also sorry that you went through all of that. I wish I would've known so that I could talk to you and help you out," he told me. "Yukio, thank you for being so accepting of my feelings and talking to me. It means a lot to me that my brother cares about how I feel and isn't judging me for liking Bon. However, I need you to keep it a secret. You and Shiemi are the only ones who know." "Rin, I won't tell anybody, you're secret is safe with me. So are you guys okay now," he asked. "Yeah he apologized for how he treated me so we're all good now. I just wish I could tell him how I feel," I replied. "I feel like you should get the courage to do that Rin. You never know what could happen unless you actually give it a go," he told me. "Well, that's enough serious talk for the day, I think I'm gunna get some rest and I think you should do the same Rin," he added. "Yeah, you're right, thanks again yukio I'm feeling even better now," I said as I left the room.

That went a lot better than I had expected. It was so different seeing Yukio being so caring for once. I look up from the ground and snapped out of my thoughts when I see Bon walking my way. "Hey Rin," he said. "Hey Bon what are you up too," I asked. "I'm just headed back to my room, I'm gunna get some sleep. It's been a long day for everyone," he replied. "Yeahhhh, I know the feeling. That's actually what I'm going to be doing too," I told him. "Hey Rin, do you want to uhh hang out tomorrow or something ," he asked.

I forced myself to not smile when he asked me that. "Yeah, I don't have any plans and it's been awhile since we've hung out. What do you wanna do Bon," I asked. "I don't know. Do you wanna maybe come over to my place and play some video games or something," he replied. "Yeah that sounds great, so I'll see you tomorrow. I'll shoot you a text when I'm up and around alright," I said, still trying to not let a huge smile on my face. "Okay sounds good, goodnight Rin," he said. "Goodnight Bon," I replied. I went to my room and instantly started smiling and got super excited to be able to hang out with Bon tomorrow.

I changed into my pajamas and crawled into to bed. The only thing on my mind was Bon. He's so perfect to me. His smile drives me absolutely insane. I hope that I can get him to smile a lot tomorrow. I just wish I could kiss those lips that give such an amazing smile. I want it so bad that I dream about kissing him in my dreams quite often. I'd give anything to be able to hold him close and call him mine. I will make that happen someday, I swear it. I closed my eyes and began to drift off.

Bons Pov

After I got done saying goodnight to Rin I headed for my room. It took everything I had not to let out a huge smile on my face. However, now that he can't see my face I can smile all I want. I'm so excited that I'm going to be able to hang out with Rin tomorrow.

"What are you smiling all big about," I heard a voice from behind that sounded all to familiar. I turn around to find Shima. "Oh uhh nothing, it's nothing Shima I was just thinking about some old fun memories we had from growing up," I lied. "Oh, okay that makes sense. We did have a lot of fun growing up together, didn't we," he replied. "Anyway, Bon, do you wanna hang out tomorrow with Koneko and me tomorrow," he asked. "Sorry Shima, but I already made plans to hang out with Rin tomorrow," I told him. "Ohhh okay. You know you've been acting kindve different since you and Rin started hanging out you know. What's up with that," he asked. "Nothings up Shima, I- I'm just glad to be making new friends now is all," I lied again. "For some reason I'm not sure you're telling the truth. We're supposed to be best friends Bon, so c'mon, really what's going on," he pushed. "Okay, okay fine. Come to my room in about 20 minutes, I'll explain everything there alright," I told him. "Alright, but you better not give me some lame ass excuse Bon," he said as he walked away.

I can't believe I'm actually going to tell Shima. I'd come up with an excuse, but I know damn well he'd catch my lie. I mean we have been friends since we were young. I really hope he doesn't think different of me. I paced back and forth for what seemed like an eternity until I heard a knock at the door. I opened my door to find Shima. "Hey Shima, come in," I said. He came in and I had him take a seat. "Alright Bon, so what's been with you lately," he asked. I hesitated on telling him and finally let it all out. I confessed to him my feelings for Rin, how it started and how much my feelings developed from hanging out and talking to him. I told him how I'm so afraid of telling him how I feel and of course about my nightmare.

Shima took a second to speak. "Bon, I'm sorry that you're going through this. It must hurt not being able to tell him. Just know that I don't think any less of you. You're my best friend Bon and I'll always be here to talk about things like that," he said, comforting me. "Thanks Shima, it means a lot to me to hear you say that," I replied. "I just wish I could get the nerves up to tell him how I really feel. I just want to get it off my chest, but it's to scary for me right now," I added. "Bon, I know it must be scary for you, but I think it would be healthy and good for you to find away to get your confidence up to tell him sooner or later. Maybe wait until you guys have hung out for a little bit so your friendship grows more," he said. "You know what Shima you're right, thank you for your advice," I said.

"Speaking of Rin, do you know why he was gone for so long," Shima asked. "No, I've actually been wandering the same thing myself, but when I asked he just gave me an excuse, so I just let it be," I replied. "Hmm, weird," he said. "Well he seems to be doing a lot better now though," I reassured him. "Well that's good, I bet you're excited to hang out with him tomorrow," Shima said with a wink as he playfully punched my arm. Before I could reply he added," well that's enough serious talk for today, I'm tired and I'm going to go to sleep. You should get some rest for tomorrow too Bon." "You're right I'm pretty tired myself," I replied.

We said our goodnights and he left. I changed into my sleeping clothes and got into bed. Rin is so handsome. Everything about him is so perfect to me. His smile is one of the best things I've ever seen. His smell is nothing short of sweet ecstasy to me. What I'd do to be able to kiss those lips. I really can't wait to be able to be with him all day tomorrow. I just wish that I could hold his hand and hold him close to me. Hopefully one day I can make that happen. No, one day I will make that happen. It has to happen. I shut my eyes excited to get to sleep so that tomorrow could be here already.

/// alright guys that's it for part 9. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Sorry for being away for so long. As always, all criticism and ideas are welcome. Happy thanksgiving everyone!! Thanks for reading :).\\\