The Heart in Blue Flames

Forever, Period

Rins Pov

It's been 6 days since he stopped talking to me. 6 days of the last words he spoke to me buzzing through my head on repeat, like a song eternally etched in my mind . 6 days of constant heartache. 6 days of tears, self doubt, and emptiness. 6 days that I've been hiding away from everyone because I'm a complete mess.

I haven't even gone to school, nobody probably cares anyways right? I wish I could actually believe that nobody cares, but the endless missed calls and text messages from the others wandering "where the hell have you been" or "are you okay, were all worried about you", speak otherwise. Running away would be a lot easier if no one cared. However, I'm selfish. I don't care if the other care if I'm okay. The one person I want to care and worry hates me. I still can't wrap my head around why. What did I do? Did I say something wrong? Did he some how find out about my secret love for him? Thousands of questions run through my head daily only to find no answers.

I've been staying in a hidden room at the school to insure no one finds me. I'm going to have to come out of hiding eventually and face my demons. How ironic is that. I should probably go to school today so everyone stops freaking out. I will ALWAYS love Bon. It doesn't matter how hard I try to stop, it won't work. Everything about him to me is something to love. His hair, his eyes, and especially his warm smile. Loving Bon is something I'll always do Forever, period.

Bons pov

It's been 6 days since I've stopped talking to him. 6 days of self hatred. 6 days of endless worry of Rin since he's been missing. 6 days of heartache, emptiness, and tears. I shouldn't have been so rude to him. I'm the reason he's missing, there is no doubt about it. I can't stop replaying what I said to him. It tears me apart every time I think about it.

The one question I can't shake is "why"? Why did he go missing after we talked. Why is he so hurt, he shouldn't even care about me. It's not like he even loves me the way I wish he could. I thought I was doing him a favor. I thought he would be happy not having to be friends with me.

Even I know that's not true, we became good friends in a matter of weeks. I could even see the hurt in his eyes, the look of betrayal. I thought I was only hurting myself and was too selfish to see that he too was in pain by my action.

No matter what I have to find Rin and apologize. I can't take this pain anymore, and even if I can't confess my true love to him, I have to make things right. I have to try and be his friend again no matter how bad I want more than that. My love for Rin will never die, even when I do. Everything about him is something that I love. The way he talks, the way way he smiles, and the way he looks so damn good everyday. Loving Rin is something that I will do always. Loving Rin isn't just I chose, it's something that I'm going to live with for the rest of my life. I looked up from the ground to the ceiling in my room. Rin, I'll love you forever, period.

I left my room and began walking to class, out of the corner of my eye I saw Rin walking to the same location. Am I dreaming? Is this all in my head? "R-Rin" I shot out. He turned his head and looked at me, and almost instantly turned his head away and continued to walk, but faster. I started sprinting towards him. "Rin, wait up I have to talk to you" I yelled as I got closer. He went to start running as well, but I snatched his hand. How warm it felt.

"Rin will you just talk to me", I said. " Why would I talk to you, you told me to leave you alone", he replied. It hurt hearing that, even more than thinking about it or saying it, but to hear him repeat it with such hurt. "I know I did Rin, but I was making a HUGE mistake, I was just upset and took it out on you. I don't want you to stop talking to me, or to leave me alone, ever", i replied. "B-Bon, do you really mean it", he asked. "Of course I mean that, I love having you as a friend Rin, I was just in a bad mood", I replied. He started to smile real big, the hurt from his face almost instantly disappeared. "I'm so glad to hear that Bon, I thought I had just lost the Lo-, lost a really good friend. Does this mean we can start hanging out again", he asked. "Definitely", I replied. I thought for a second. "Wait one damn minute Rin, where in the hell have you been, are you okay? Everyone's been freaking out about you going missing", I told him. "Err, Umm, I was just going through some stuff, I don't really want to talk about it. I'm a lot better now though and that's all that matters right?" He told me. "That's a pretty lame excuse Rin, but I guess it's good enough for me", I replied.

We both entered class. Everyone's eyes got real big. They almost all tackled Rin in effort to hug him and welcome him back. Except for Yukio of course, who seemed to be one pissed off teacher at the moment.

"Where the hell have you been Rin", Yukio yelled at Rin. Of course, Rin gave everyone, including Yukio, the same lame excuse. "That's not a good enough explanation to me Rin, we were all worried sick about you, do you realize how you made everyone feel", he said. He continued to give Rin a lecture for the next few minutes and he finished with a "you're going to explain what actually happened later, in our room". Rin only replied with a nod. After Yukio finished tearing Rin apart with his lecture, he started giving us our actual school lecture.

I'm happy me and Rin are okay now. Even though I want to be more than just his friend, I will never treat him bad again. I can't lose him, ever. I'll just live with the weight of loving him on my shoulders, just to be able to be around him. Who knows, maybe I'll confess my love for him soon. Maybe. I'm definitely excited to hang out with him tomorrow.

/// Alright guys that's it for part 8. Hope you guys enjoyed it. I apologize for any grammatical errors. I've had A LOT going on lol. Hope you forgive me. Annnnd as always, if you guys have ANY ideas or criticism, you're welcome to drop them in the comment box. Thanks guys!!!! 3-23-18////