forbidden • auston matthews

sixteen.

her stomach dropped. bella doesn't know who that girl is or why she's literally making out with auston, but she wasn't about to stick around and ask questions. auston finally noticed her and immediately got up and started to walk towards her bella turned on her heels and started to leave the penthouse-like place.

"babe it's not what you think-"

"are you fucking kidding me? i didn't know that my boyfriend sucking faces with a stranger could mean anything other than i think it does. " auston was silent. "i fucking trusted you, aus. i trusted you with everything in me."

"bells, baby can we please just talk this through?" auston says with a tear in his eye.

"she's being so dramatic." bella looks around for the voice, seeing the girl that was literally just on top of her boyfriend standing next to auston, grabbing his arm. to be a little bit fair, auston looks quite uncomfortable and shrugs the girl off.

"you need to get the fuck out of my sight before i throw you down the fucking fire escape." bella snaps at the fake blonde who is soon rushing by. bella now has tears streaming down her face, and auston is looking at his feet. "i hope you're fucking happy with yourself." bella turns around and heads for the door before being stopped by auston grabbing her arm, spinning her around and kissing her. bella pushes him off.

"oh my god." bella is honestly baffled. "you think you can cheat on me and then just literally kiss it better? this isn't a fucking chick flick, aus." bella finally leaves for real, the image of a puffy-eyed auston in her mind. she sits in the elevator for a second before pressing any buttons. she sits there and just sobs for a solid 5 minutes before finally pulling out her phone to call someone.

"hello?"

"hey freddie?" bella says through the phone, her voice cracking.

"bella? whats wrong? where are you? are you safe?"  

"i'm at austons, i-i just need you to come pick me up." bella says in between sobs.

"oh angel, i'll be there in 10 minutes."  bella then just hangs up the phone and waits in the elevator for freddie to get there. she hobbles into the car silently and doesn't say a word for the whole ride to freddies. freddie doesn't say anything either, he just keeps a comforting hand on her knee.

they get back to freddie's house, and once they're in the door, freddie opens his arms and bella collapses into them, sobbing even more. freddie just holds her, rubbing circles on her back and rocking back and forth. bella finally calms down and composes herself enough to stand on her own.

"do you want to talk about it?" freddie asks, resting his chin on her head. bella nods. "do you want me to call brownie?" bella thinks for a second.

"yes please." freddie just nods and leads bella to the couch and calls connor. after a relatively long time and one and a half episodes of real housewives, connor brown busts through the door.

"i heard there was an emergency, i came prepared." bella doesnt move, but connor comes over and puts a bag full of food on the table.

"did you bring bagels?" bella asks quietly. connor smiles and pulls out a bag of homemade blueberry bagels. 

"mama brown made them just for you." connor smiles and tosses them to bella. "so, what happened?" 

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"-and then he turned me around and he fucking kissed me. just kissed me! after all that!"

"what a fucking asshole! i can't believe he did that!" freddie was now eating just as much ice cream as bella, and connor was just listening quietly... a little too quietly. when bella finally finished her story from start to finish, she looked over at connor to see his jaw clenched and his leg shaking. 

"you good there brownie?" freddie asks him with a mouthful of ice cream. connor took a deep breath before speaking.

"this has happened before." bella's shoulders dropped. 

"the fuck do you mean this has happened before?" freddie said, sitting up a little straighter.

"i mean-" connor sighed. "i mean he's cheated on you before. the preseason road trip you were scratched for. i went back to our hotel room after being at zach's, and he was fucking some rando from the club. when i confronted him about it, he said you two were going through a rough time, and he was really really drunk. he said it would never happen again and begged me not tell you." connor rubbed his face and put his head in his hands."i should've told you. or done something, i dont know." bella just sat there staring at her lap, soaking it all in. she didn't even notice she was crying until she saw the tears landing on her leg, soaking into the bandage on her leg. bella stood up and got a jacket, putting it on and grabbing the least expensive set of keys she could see.

"bells, where are you going?" connor asked her as she limped out the door.

"out."

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bella can't say she even remembers how she got to the rink. she drove, and now shes standing at the players entrance at the acc. she made her way inside and grabbed some mats from the gym and some blankets that were laying around and dragged them out to centre ice. at this point, her leg was screaming in pain with every step she took. she was allowed to walk, but not this much.

bella finally laid down right in the middle of the acc. she didn't cry. she was done crying. she didn't see a point in crying anymore. she can't go back in time. nothing will change if she cries. so bella laid there silently, feeling the emptiest she's felt in a long time.

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what is this??? a quick update????? by whomst??? i dont know her

once again not proofread - i know what i wrote  (if theres any mistakes lmk please lol)