The Here And After

Prologue

Songs:

Oblivion - Bastille

Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Lorde

The Here and After - Jun Miyake

PROLOGUE

I wonder how another person's actions easily changes what you see in them. It's unbelievable, how wrong you can be about a person. My vision blurs as I stare into those ocean blue eyes that I once knew.

"Jace?"

Her words shaky, she cups my face in her hands and whispers

"I'm sorry Jace. Ca-can you hear me?"

I blink a few times, she wipes away a tear. I didn't notice that tears were rushing down my face. Why does this always happen to me? Why do I always have to fall in love with someone who's going to take me for granted? Why do we love someone that we know we'll never love us back. I try to speak but I was too stunned.

"Jace please talk to me. I, I didn't want to do that Jace, bu-but you were too busy. You didn't gi-give enough time for me that I, I resorted to someone else. Someone who'll give me love the way that you used to."

After a few seconds I didn't know what happened but she was crying, I was standing, the apartment was trashed. Her favorite painting fell off the wall. Her pots of flowers were lying on the floor, broken.

"Jace st-stop please!"

I took a deep breath, relaxed myself. I need to talk to her, tell her what I had in plan.

"Cath" I whispered.

"Yes Jace?" she said softly, I could still hear the regret in her voice.

"I wish you knew what I did when I was away. I wish you knew that being apart from you was the greatest sacrifice I have ever done for our relationship. I planned everything, it was going to be alright, but I was so stupid! SO STUPID THAT I BELIEVED THAT YOU WERE GOING TO UNDERSTAND. BUT YOU DIDN'T KNOW DID YOU?!"

She looked at her feet, tears falling down her cheeks, I wanted to take her in my arms and tell her it's okay, that I forgive her. This has gone far enough. This is too much.

"Cath, this day was going to be so special. I planned this for years. We were about to go to Paris just like you have always dreamt of. I was going to ask you to marry me under the tower."

My words were softly spoken, my silent tears falling down my chin. I stood there staring at her. She jumped in my arms and shouted

"YES JACE, I WILL MARRY YOU!"

I stood there, my hands at my sides while anger grew in the pit of my stomach.

"NO CATH!"

I pushed her away from me. This was unbelievable!

"CATH YOU CHEATED ON ME WITH MY BROTHER HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO ASK YOU TO MARRY ME KNOW?!"

She retreated quickly and hugged herself with her own arms.

"I don't blame you for not feeling loved, that was my biggest mistake. This was supposed to be the day that you and I were going to be together. But that doesn't mean you could replace me with someone else while I was away! Was it just about sex Cath?! Or do you love him?!"

She raised her head, her eyes glassy while she bit her lip.

"You do love him. God! You're so selfish! YOU DIDN'T THINK THAT YOU WOULD RUIN MY FAMILY'S RELATIONSHIP?! IS RUINING OUR OWN RELATIONSHIP NOT GOOD ENOUGH? YOU NEED TO RUIN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BROTHER?! GOD CATH. I want you out. "

I looked at her my eyebrows knit together and my stance brave and strong while my insides were being broken and torn apart.

"You wha-at?" she asked, her eyes wide open.

"I want you out, now. Come back for your things when I'm not here."

I turned around, I walked briskly towards my room. I shut the door, I sat on the floor, my back against the wall. My tears made my vision blurry, but against the blur I still saw our picture. God Cath, I expected this in my life but not with her. I wanted to feel something, I wanted to be furious, I wanted to feel the agonizing pain, but instead I felt nothing. I was numb. For the first time in my life I wanted to feel hurt, anger rather than emptiness. The darkness was as empty as I was, and it was swallowing me alive.

I woke up at dawn. With my eyes closed, I try to get up. My whole body was numb, I can't move an inch. Something was weighing me down, I feel it sitting on top of my chest, is it because I got fat or got dead drunk? I should work out more, now that I have enough time for myself. Shit. I hear breathing inside the room, I try to stir and move. I finally understand that someone was sitting on my chest. I try to kick my feet and move, my feet were bound to something. I hear whispers nearing my ear.

"Welcome to your life..."

That voice, it was her. No! It couldn't be! Was it the same person who I had loved and tore my heart apart? Two fingers creep up my neck towards my eyes, her touch lingering on my body. Her fingertips rest on top of my lids, she jerked my eyelids open.

"There's no turning back Jace"

her smile so wide, her teeth as sharp as knives.

"Ca-cath?"

I stuttered the words out of my mouth. Her palms rest against the side of my cheek.

"Happily ever after, with kisses and curses..."

she was singing a song, I knew this song. She massaged the skin between my eyebrows,

"Don't think too much Jace. You do remember this song?"

she murmured against my skin while her lips rested against my neck.

"CATH WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!"

I shouted loud and clear to startle her, but she was anything but startled. She made a throaty laugh and smiled a strange smile.

"I'm singing you a song honey, it's The Here And After, do you remember it now honey?"

Of course, how could have he forgotten, the song by Jun Miyake. But still he doesn't understand what the song meant. He watched her stand up and light red candles inside the room. The smell of smoke rose inside the room.

"CATH! WHAT THE FUCK!"

She slowly turned around, her lopsided smile was unnerving.

"HOLY SHIT!"

He saw her eyes that once was blue turned into three black dots surrounded by the whites of her eyes. He jerked up, his muscles straining against the chains the he was bound to.

"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!"

"Nobody you want to know."

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