Handsome and the Hideous

Chapter 10

I felt at lost with my feelings for Cody. Deep down, I knew it was hopeless to love someone as beautiful as Cody. He could find someone much more beautiful than me and with his kind heart, he deserved to. It was wrong of me to feel the way I did for him, but I couldn't control how I felt.

Feeling upset, I decided to let my feelings out by playing my violin. Going to my closet, I grabbed my violin case and placed it onto my bed. Getting my violin, I then positioned it onto my shoulder and tucked it beneath my chin. I closed my eyes then, wanting to let out everything.

Immediately, I began to play a song my mom taught me to play. It was a sad, but beautiful song and I got lost in it as I played my heart out. As I played I found myself getting less upset and eventually, I felt at ease. I felt like I could handle everything, which made me smile to myself.

Finishing the song, I pulled the violin away from me. But suddenly, I heard a knock on the door. Surprised, I wondered what was going on.

"Hey, come in," I said.

The door opened and Cody appeared. I stared at him, wondering what was going on. Cody rarely came to me, I usually came to him.

"Hey," Cody said, standing at the door way. "I heard you play and... I was wondering if I could watch."

Blushing, I was lost for words. No one but my mom had ever heard me play. Playing the violin was personal and I wasn't sure of how to respond.

But staring at Cody and seeing how eager he looked, I knew I couldn't disappoint him. I didn't have the heart to.

"Sure," I said, gesturing to my bed. "You can sit."

Cody smiled warmly and walked over to my bed. He sat down and I moved away, holding my violin tightly. My hands were shaking and I took a deep breath and reminded myself that Cody enjoyed my music. He wasn't going to judge.

Turning to face him, I became surprised when I saw that Cody was closing his eyes. He looked peaceful and staring at him, I smiled to myself. Cody wanted to feel the music and I became excited to deliver.

Resting my violin on my shoulder and tucking it beneath my chin, I immediately began to play. I played one of my favourite songs for him and I watched as Cody smiled to himself. My heart was racing as I watched him enjoy the music I was creating.

As I played the song as perfectly as I could, I couldn't help but stare at Cody the entire time. He looked like he was lost in the music as well and it was beautiful. The was his features had softened up and seemed like they were at peace was stunning. Smiling, I thought Cody was just as beautiful as the sounds the violin produced.

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I was in the kitchen, making myself a sandwich. The house was quiet and I was at peace as I kept replaying what happened in the morning. Cody had kept asking me to play another song. He seemed addicted to my music and the thought made me happy. All he did was sit there and close his eyes, but I had never been happier to have company.

The front door opened and I realized Rosalie had come over. Hearing footsteps make their way to the kitchen, I immediately smiled when Rosalie entered the room. She smiled back and walked over to me.

"You seem happy," Rosalie commented. "Did Cody like the makeup?"

"No, he didn't," I said.

Rosalie frowned. "Oh, really. Then... shouldn't you be sad?"

I laughed lightly and Rosalie smiled. Everything that happened with Cody in the past few days had made me so happy. I realized this was why everyone thought love was such a beautiful feeling. It left you feeling happy over the smallest things.

"Cody said that he likes the real me, the natural me," I said, smiling. "And today... He wanted to hear me play my violin and I did. We spent the entire morning together."

"That's wonderful," Rosalie commented, her eyes softening. "I'm glad to hear that."

I was glad, too. Although Cody and I could never be, these small moments were enough for me. Maybe I would wish for more at times, but at the end of the day I enjoyed just being Cody's friend.

"Are you going to confess your feelings?" Rosalie asked. "I think you should."

"No," I said honestly. "We're friends and I don't think I should risk anything. He is living with me for the next three months."

Rosalie looked disappointed. She seemed to deflate and I smiled as I shook my head. I never thought I could have someone support my feelings like Rosalie did.

"Maybe one day," I said, even though I doubt I ever would. "My feelings are pretty new, so I'm going to wait. Cody and I are still getting closer, so I'll see how things go."

"That sounds perfect," Rosalie said, grinning. "I am so happy for you Charlotte."

I smiled widely at that and Rosalie went to the sink. There were a bunch of utensils in the sink and I blushed as she went to clean them. Although Rosalie was my maid and I didn't have to do any chores, I still chose to. I didn't like the idea of someone cleaning after me.

Rosalie began to clean and I watched her for a moment. She seemed deep in thought, but slowly, she seemed to deflate. Something seemed to be eating away at her and confused, I opened my mouth to ask her if she was okay. But before I could say something, she spoke.

"You and Cody are good kids," Rosalie said, looking at me with eyes filled with sadness. "I really like you two."

Guilt was written across Rosalie's face and I stared at her, surprised by her sudden words and expression. Her words came out of nowhere and I didn't know how to respond. A part of me wanted to ask her what was going on, but Rosalie seemed upset and I didn't want to make her more upset, so I let things be. Staring at her, however, I couldn't help but wonder what was going on.