Rekindling Love

Chapter 12

Kartik’s POV

I woke up to one of the most beautiful views. Naira in my arm, her hair splayed over my chest, a small smile playing on her face, her cocooned next to me. I pulled her closer to me, and pecked her forehead, smiling.

It was then I realised the dishonour in my actions. I was laid across a woman who wasn’t mine. I didn’t recall anything of yesterday’s night. I don’t know what happened, of how far we reached. Looking at her dishevelled state my heart went out. Did I really? Did I, without her consent?

His heart broke, yes she was technically his wife, but this woman wouldn’t have wanted it. And if he did something without consent it would qualify to... he didn’t name the word but it was what it was. He was ready to berate himself, ready to apologise how much ever times it was required to defile her like that.

He could still ask for her apologies, but would he be able to forgive himself I’d this indeed were true? The answer was no. He didn’t know what to do, or say. “Kartik” she murmured still sleepy.

Her hand reached out to pull him. How would he face her? Ever? He wanted to run away, to hide, to never face her again. How could he look in her eyes when they screamed, betrayal? He was scared to his bits.

She blinked. He didn’t try to cheer himself. He didn’t think this could be subdued. He waited for her to realise what had happened, what were it’s implications, and how was she going to tackle it. He was afraid, he had broken that small little thread that roped them together.

She just snuggled closer to him, “I keep searching, but you always run away” she mumbled. I have no clue what she meant. Me something else.

“Kartik?” she said, finally the shock taking over her.

She rubbed her eyes, probably trying to ward the sleep away. “Kartik?? You? Here?” she said again.

Her shock put me over, I couldn’t, I couldn’t wait for her to understand. I climes down the bed, and bowed my head in submission. “I am sorry Tina. I don’t know what has surpassed between us last night. I’m sorry for being so careless. I am sorry for letting my senses get better of me. I am sorry for defiling you. I am so so sorry!” I apologised to her. Begged, so that she could understand I didn’t mean to. It was an accident. More than that I wanted myself to understand that it was indeed a mistake. That I really didn’t mean it, I didn’t mean to force myself on her. I didn’t.

She finally understood what I meant and asked, “Did we?”

“I don’t know. I don’t remember anything. I remember strolling on the shores of Ganga, then nothing. How did we get here, what happened. I just remember waking up next to you.” He replied. His voice devoid of every emotion. Grief, rage, sadness, anger, hatred. Everything was missing. It was blank, robotic. As if only answering, because the question were asked.

“I know.” She replied.

He looked up at her, hoping against odds that may be, just may be she was sane. May be that, she had stopped him from doing something unforgiveable, that may be he didn’t do an act as vile as that.

“WE DIDN’T. We didn’t have sex.” She said. With a firm tone.

Naira’s POV

When I woke up, I saw he was a mess. Before I could understand anything, before I could tell or ask anything, he started with the apologies. One thing was sure, if we indeed had done something then it would have been me, demanding or forcing him. He cannot do anything, not only with me, with any other woman.

Such was the man he was. Had he simply left the room, once he figured what could have happened. I was sleeping, I would never know if he would have just left the room. I don’t remember what transpired last night. But I know he wasn’t to blamed

“Kartik, listen to me. Look at the facts, we are both clothed. Completely wearing the same outfits, that I last remember.” His eyes went down again. He probably was in no mood to understand without real proofs, which I didn’t have.

Him on his knees, eyes downcast, at my mercy? It wasn’t a thing I could look at, I’m alive because of this man. And him not even looking at me, him being guilt to look in my eyes, I couldn’t take this. I went down on my knees and told him to look up, he failed to oblige.

I pushed his chin up, forcing him to look at me, “You didn’t do anything! Do you understand? We both are fully clothed, in the same outfit we remember wearing last night. Think Kartik, use your pretty brain.” He just looked at me. Not giving resistance, just stared in my eyes, and I tried to explain that whatever was his state, he wouldn’t that, not to me, not to anyone else.

He was gazing into my eyes, trying to detect, if I was lying only to make him feel better. Though it was my objective, I was not lying to him. I believed that he didn’t exploit me. I believed that he wouldn’t do anything. I gazed back into his eyes, hot holding back anything, not holding back on my trust in him.

After a long time, he said, “Nothing happened, I didn’t force myself on you. You are safe.” That was all needed for him to hold me again. To assure himself that I was safe.

He hugged me desperately, as if I would disappear, I hugged him back, giving him the reassurance he needed, so that he could breathe. He was still trying on hold back on histears, though some had managed to defy him. To expose his vulnerability to me. And I was afraid, if I could take care of this side? Or will he ever even show this to me, ever?

“Kartik I’m safe. Nothing would happen to me, until you stand by my side, until you are with me, nothing can harm me. Not even yourself.” I told him, dropping a kiss on his head, holding him close. What kind of mess was I in love with? I didn’t know, but I couldn’t bear him in distress anymore.

Precap-

“Tina” there he was Chandu. How much I missed this guy, he was a bother, but he was a good man.

I smiled at him. “Do not smile Tina, what I’m going to tell you would be the worst truth of your life. Kartik is cheating you, using you.”

Authors notes-

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