My Joy, My Love

Chapter 7

I woke quickly covered in sweat and pains in my body. I sat up abruptly looking around then looked to see who woke me up. The nurse stared back at me looking concerned. "Sir! I'm sorry to wake you but you seem to be moving around very violently in your sleep."  She said. I looked at her before It settled in. I quickly checked my body for any bruises or wounds or anything to indicate what just happened actually happened. I looked at the nurse. "Um did any guest come visit me since I've been here?" I asked indirectly not wanting to ask her  'Um did I jumped out the window?' Because I didn't want her to think I'm insane. "Well a teen boy visited you not too long ago but you said you didn't want him to come in. Besides him, no one else has come to visit," the nurse said looking at me strangely. I looked at her for a second before looking away. "Thank you for waking me up," I said looking down at my lap and zoning out. "Um here is your breakfast, if your feeling okay you can go home today." She said looking at me. I just nodded not paying much attention to her. She placed to tray on my lap then waited a second seemingly to see if  had any questions and left. I continued looking at my lap wondering why or how that dream felt so real. I looked at my arm where the Iv was. It was red around where the needle entered my arm but it wasn't bruised enough for it to have been pulled out. I looked at my ankle seeing it was also slightly redder than usual but not bruised or bleeding. Lastly, I looked at the window to see it wasn't broken at all and looked exactly the same. I held my head confused. If it was a dream why did I feel pain? Was it really all in my head? I sighed and laid back down not wanting to think about it too much. I looked at the food the nurse gave me. It definitely didn't look very appetizing. I picked up the small fruit cup instead and started to eat the fruits out of it.  I looked around a little trying to pass the time. I saw the T.V. remote near me and grabbed it. I turned the T.V. on and switched to the Soap Oprea I always watched. I am going to miss this show a little when I leave though I never usually watch much T.V anyway. I finished the fruits the nurse left for me and drank the juice she left that tasted absolutely disgusted but I drank it anyway because I really needed something to drink. A few minutes later the doctor came in. I was glad the show was on commercial because I would be embarrassed for him to see me watching it. "Mr. Komaeda how are you doing today?" The doctor asked smiling at me. "I'm fine," I replied not looking at him as I talked. "That's great! In case you weren't told you are allowed to go home today. You'll need to be given something like a cast that we will need to put in your nose to make sure everything heals correctly." He said giving a very fake smile that most people give. It's like the one most employes give when they try to act like they like their job. I just nodded not looking at his face. He whispered something to the nurse that I hadn't seen come in, she nodded and left to follow whatever his command was. She came back pushing in a tray with a few utensils on it.  "We will have to put another, stronger cast on before you leave and  you will need to come back in about a month or so to get it removed." The doctor said. I nod and the nurse slightly grabs my face. I flinched and hit her hand on instinct from her suddenly touching me. The nurse and doctor looked at me strangely. I turned red and looked away. "Sorry," I said. She shook her head. "It's fine, I shouldn't have surprised you like that." She said surprisingly smiling at me. She grabbed my face much slower gentler than the first time. "Take a deep breath and try to flare your nose bit and tell me if I push too far, okay?" She said holding what seemed to be a cone-shaped sponge between her fingers. I nodded and took a deep breath through my mouth and tried to flare my nose but I wasn't that good at it. She shoved the sponge in my nose and pushed it far into my nose. I winced from the pain, I probably needed more pain meds before this. "Is that okay?" She asked gentely tapping my nostril, my nostril not caving from her touch. I nodded, I'd get used to it eventually. She put the other one into my other nostril after we went through the same thing. She got a bandage and placed it across my nose. She stood up straight and smilled down at me. Her teeth were a bit yellow but it still almost seemed genuine. "Okay, Mr. Komaeda! You're all patched up and ready to go!" She said happily. The more I stared at her the more I realized her golden brown hair seemed to frame her face perfectly. I seem to have stared too long because after a while she seems to give me a confused look. "Is something wrong?" She asked. I felt embarrassed and looked away my face feeling grossly warm, almost uncomfortably so. I shook my head no as I heard to heart monitor beep quicker and I gently placed my hand on my chest. The doctor laughed, forcing me to remember he was there. "Well, like I said you will be going home today! So I'll get nurse Sato to bring you your clothes in a few minutes." The doctor said before walking out, the nurse smiled again and nodded towards me, then left. I tightened my hand on my chest a little and looked back at the TV to continue watching the Soap Opera and to save me from my thoughts. 

The nurse came back and help me change back int my clothes though it was very embarrassing I couldn't help but purposely rely on her a bit more than I needed, on purpose. Her hands were warm and soft compared to my gross, bony ones. Once I was dressed she walked with me to the front of the hospital and handed me a bottle of pills. "Here, these are for when your nose starts to ache. We have a ride prepared for you outside. Have a safe trip Mr. Komadea!" She smiled, nodded at me, and left. My face felt warm again as I grabbed my chest. I didn't want this to be the last time I saw her smile. I turned around and started walking toward the car with my name on the window. 

I wouldn't let that be the last time I saw her smile. 

I couldn't.