Our Broken Hearts | Lauren Cimorelli

One

Lauren's POV:

Flashback

"Ms Cimorelli, we have your test results back," The doctor announces as he walks into the room, big envelopes in both of his hands. He looks around the room, I follow his eyes and see my whole family scattered around everywhere, now looking at the doctor anxiously.

"The results of your CT scan show a mass on your pancreas. I'm sorry but, Lauren you do indeed have pancreatic cancer, stage two," He tells us, giving my parents a sympathetic smile and then me. Cancer? I can't have cancer! I'm only 17!

"Oh Lauren," My mom says quietly and reaches for my hand across from my hospital bed. I grab her hand and squeeze it tight.

"So, w-what can you do?" My dad asks from across the room. The whole room is silent, full of shock. I haven't said anything yet, I don't know what to think. My sisters are staring at me, their gaze burning wholes into my head as I look down and play with the sheets on the bed.

"Well, since its stage two, Lauren can go relax and stay at home. She will need to come back for treatments, we will give you more details on that later. What we can do is start her on Chemo and Radiation therapy. I can't promise that it will minimise the mass but we have high hopes. Normally with Pancreatic cancer, surgery is too risky and there's a high chance you'll bleed out on the table. Let's try Chemo first, Okay?" The doctor says and opens an envelope he was holding.

"Lauren, you will experience pain in your abdomen or back, much worse than what you felt before you knew you had this, you may be feeling weak or tired a lot but that is completely normal. Just take it easy and rest a lot, Okay?" The doctor asks me and I nod my head.

"When can Lauren leave?" Alex, my brother asks, he's sitting on the blue chair next to my bed, holding a glass of water. He looks sad, or disappointed. Disappointed that I do have cancer and it's not nothing like we thought it was.

"Well I can get her discharge forms soon and give you some pamphlets on support groups and how to deal with this. I'll give you a list of all medications we will be doing and when Lauren needs to come in. Best of luck, Lauren. We're all rooting for you!" He says and gives me a small smile. He then leaves the room, giving us time to talk about what just happened.

"Is Lauren going to d-die?" Little Joey asks and runs up to my side, hugging me tightly, like if he lets go I'll be gone.

"No Joey, stay positive Okay?" Mike comes over and ruffles his hair, then ruffles mine. I'm grateful my hair hasn't fallen out yet, it's just got a lot thinner, I'm scared it will fall out and I'll be left with people staring at me from right to left, feeling sorry for me all the time.

Loud sobs pull me out of my thoughts, I look around to match the face with the crying. Just who I thought it would be,

"Dan," I say calling out her name quietly. Her head snaps in my direction and I can properly see her red swollen eyes and red face.

"It's okay. Come here," I say and open my arms to let her in. She comes over to me, jumping into my arms, squeezing me tightly.

"Laur, I really didn't think this would happen. When you said you were in pain, I thought it was nothing. How could I be so wrong?" She says, whispering into my ear, crying into my shoulder. Everyone's eyes are on us. My parents start crying, soon followed by Joey and Nick, then Lisa, followed by Christina and then Kath, then Amy and Christian and then Mike and Alex burst into tears. I follow suit, and cry with them.

"It's okay Dani. No one could've known," I tell her reassuringly while I rub her back softly.

Why God, Why me?! Why my family? Why freaking Cancer? Please. Don't let me go.

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One month later,

"Laur! Let's go," My mom shouts from the bottom of the stairs for me, I quickly grab my phone and walk down the stairs.

"Here," I say suddenly feeling weak and tired, my legs don't want to move anymore. I grab onto the staircase railing and catch my breath.

"You okay?" Lisa asks me, she's standing next to our mom looking at me with a concerned expression.

"Mhm," I say and nod.

"Lisa wants to come with us, that Okay Lo?" Mom says and I nod. Lisa smiles at me and we make our way to the car.

Lisa grabs my hand and leads me to the back seat. Mom starts the car and we start driving to the hospital.

"You nervous?" Lisa asks me while rubbing my arm.

"Not really. I just finished my third round of Chemo last week and I was more nervous for that," I say truthfully. Lisa nods and pulls me into a side hug.

"I hope it worked. I hope you don't have the mass anymore," Lisa tells me and I look down.

"Yea. I guess today's the day," I say back. Before we know it, we've pulled up at the hospital and are making our way to the reception area.

"I'll check in. Take a seat guys," Mom says and we nod. We go to sit in the waiting area, facing the wall.

"All done," My mom comes back and takes her seat next to us. I nod and stare at the wall anxiously. I run a sweaty hand through my, now, very thin hair and try to calm myself down. I wasn't nervous until we walked through the door but now I'm petrified. If the mass hasn't gone, then what happens? I still have cancer and more chemo therapy in my future. If it has gone? I'll be, hopefully, cancer free right?

"Ms Cimorelli, Lauren Cimorelli?" A familiar voice comes out from the door leading out of the waiting room. I stand up and am greeted by my doctor.

"Nervous?" He asks me as we walk side by side, until we reach the CT scan room.

"Not a bit," I say, putting on a brave face. He nods and smiles at me. I walk into the room to put on the gown and then walk to the familiar scan room.

"Let's do this," I whisper to myself as I lie down onto the scan machine. Bracing myself for the worst but hoping for the best.

Please God, make the cancer go away.

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