Reckless love

Seungyoon

-Its actually good Seungyoon ah... I think it will become a hit. I like that beat a lot.

-But...Yeah I hope so. But Im still working on the lyric and the rapping part werent added yet. Still need to do a lot.. and Taehyun, he doesnt want to work on this kind of music so I have to do it alone. Absolutely everything.

-Im sorry, I cant help at all. Seungyoon....

-Dont say that. Just keep being yourself, you are good, and goodlooking, innocent too.

-Dont say that.. its not like that, people doesnt need me for those. Haha.

He laughs, sadly.

-Isnt it, I mean noone needs me. Im just somebody. I have no friend, you guys are my only friends I guess. But how and when will it last, we're not gonna do this together forever... I feel this world is pretty empty and fake, I have the idea about them in my head but I just cant say it out, cant draw it cant tell it cant make it into a melody.

-Hey dude, you are very moody now, why so suddenly...

-I dont know, I feel hopeless.

-You have me, I will always be here.

-No you cant.

-Yes I do.

-Even the people who said they love me a lot, they cant live without me, has already move one with their new things. I... its not bad, its not a bad thing, like Mino I told him to, and I think everything will be good because we arent like that anymore. But.. Im so lonely.

-You really did... love him. Right?

- I do.

-I dont know how to help you, but I know how much you loved everyone you've loved.

-With all my heart.

-You cant move on?

-I tried. I just become sober because of that. No feeling left in me.

-You should let him know.

-Isnt it gonna be another mistake?

Like that time I told him I like him....

-You were the one who confessed?

-Hmm.

-I was surprised....

-Dont laugh..

-Okay... what did you say..

-...."I like you".

-Really?

-That's what he said.

-Really?

-Yes it was really really like that. And...... when we did it for the first time, he keeps saying sorry. I thought that was because I was hurted, but it wasnt.

-.........

-He just didnt tell me about her. He didnt lie at all.

-I can understand that.

-I was too obsessed. And stupid. I dont blame anyone.. I just got angry with him coz he didnt tell me about her... but.... maybe, he just didnt want to hurt me.....

-But it hurted, and...

-I was.... Its not his fault. Its mine.

-Because you confessed?

-If I didnt...

-Fine. You should forget about it. You're not wrong to be hurted, not wrong to tell him what is true.

-Its not true. It wasnt love.

-If it wasnt, why do you still feel guilty and admit everything was your fault? You didnt blame anyone but you. Sorry but.. you fool.. you little foolish hyung of mine. How do I protect you?

-I... I should apologize. Im sorry. I shouldnt be a burden like this.

He crys.

-No no no dont, dont cry.... I cant stand it. Oh my ...

He grabs his shoulders.

-Dont cry, you love him and its not wrong. Just tell him the truth. Fuck it.

He puts a finger on his nose, feeling like he's gonna cry too but he couldnt.

Jinwoo grasps his knee, buries his face in it, feeling embarassed.

-Just tell him everything you told me, fool. Tell him.

-I dont know. I laughed at myself many times. Why I couldnt resist them. Mino, Seunghoon and...

-And?? Who, dont tell me...

-And Taehyun too.

-Why? All of them?

-Im stupid, right?

-NOPE. They cant resist you isnt it, everyone who did came close to you.. its not your fault.

-Look at me. You can resist, right. I think, I somehow seduced them..
I was drunk and emotional and lonely...

-Even all of it happened, I know its not your fault.

-I dont know why. Maybe I was so lonely and I felt into them, to satisfy myself.

-Forget what you've said. You are nice and kind and beautiful, your talking voice can sooth every soul, and many others things I cant tell, but that's why.

-If you were them, would you do that to me?

-No. Honestly, I'm straight. But I would give away everything I had to have you, if you were a girl. But its too good to be true.

-Thank you. Now I know what I've been wrong at.

-What? No, not at all.

-Yes. It was. I was .... born wrong. Hahaha. I hate myself. I was wrong from the start, since I was born. Nothing can change it.

-That's why you're not confident about yourself? Let me tell you that, even if its wrong, your love is right, the world isnt all about the right things. Just get over it because he does love you back as you wanted, its not your fault.

-Hmmmm. I appologize... I was.... I'm fine now. Forget what I've said.. Just dont wanna get home now. Are you finished?

-Yes dude, its 2am now dont you wanna go home with me?