Reckless love

Masquerade

Why did you want to meet here... Its not like usual.. you often stay at home or at the gym.. why, all in a sudden Jinu hyung wants to meet me at the basketball yard...

He looks around, no one was there, its pretty late, Minho tries to hold Jinwoo by both hands but it seems he doesnt feel comfortable about it.

What's wrong Jinu, my dear?

I love you. Like never before.

Minho holds him tighter. There's something not right.

Now You should leave me. Minho..

No listen to me...

Jinwoo crosses his arms, stand still in the arms of Minho, feeling determined and cold.

I did everything I could to be here, now I dont wanna go back, the feeling of losing is like drowning, or falling into an abyss scared me the most. Jinwoo. You always know me the most, but.. there is the one was with me in those days, please give me some time, I love you.

I dont understand.... you can continue with her, not me, what are we even trying to do? Im bored. I will go back to the dorm, I shouldnt be here so long.

Minho pulls him closer, put his hand around Jinwoo's waist, pushes him against the wall and holds him even more passionately.

I dont know, I dont wanna know if this is right or wrong, I may have been thinking too much, but you are too good to me, you are the best I've ever found in my life, just like Winner. I never want to lose you... but I need time.. I must prepare for this.

How about her?

We broke-up...

How? When you still stay with her and she still rely on you like that...

Jinwoo, please, if I choose to do it all in a sudden, she might get angry, and if she knows anything about us, it would be dangerous.... to you, to our career... I know I am selfish but.... I've almost broken up with her since I was in the MB but we still keep in touch, like close friends, until I met you.. it was... we were together for so long. But I didnt even touch her, I swear. There's only you in my mind.

Let me gooooo

Jinwoo lost his temper, he strives hard to escape, but Minho just tightens his grip.

Dont make me hurts you. SongMinho

Just do it, I never let anyone do it but you. Come on, do whatever you want.

As you wish.

Jinwoo turns around, keeps punching unloading all his anger onto Minho's chest until Minho looses his grip, staggers back and leans on the wall.

Do you feel better now?

Do you know what is love? Its not love. You just love yourself. Fuck it. You twofaced bastard, I dont need you.

Dont lie.. I know you love me , that's why you got angry...

Hah, whatever. Fine. Fine. Im going back.

You havent truly loved anyone, havent you, Im sorry I walked into your life as a crime.. I didnt realize what I've done...until you confessed to me.. I will never hurt you anymore, Jinwoo.. I promise.

Stop it.. Jinwoo tries not to scream too loud, turns away to hides his face, but cant hold his tears back, then keeps wiping it away by both hands and quickly goes back to the dorm.

Minho runs after him, but Jinwoo starts to run too, tears falling down on his cheek, and his eyes become red.

Jinwoo doesnt want to go home in that situation. He doesn't want the others to see him cry. Embarrassed and lonely, he turns left to the garden near the building and sits on a bench, wipes his tears and looks up at the sky, closes his eyes again feeling like being drowned in his own tears.

He was the first one I've ever confessed to, the only one I devoted myself to, the first one who I believed with all my heart, his smiles cleared all my doubts, but.. now.. it was just a dream. He's just like the others, flirting with me while having a girlfriend and acts like its nothing, he even asked me to wait. Wait? I just wanna dies, peacefully.

What am I doing now, father. All my fears has became reality, what do I do with my face. Father!!!!!!

He babbles alone in desperate and depressed.

What are you saying....

I miss my father.

You punched me, you had me run...

You told me to, fool.

Yes, I am. I am a fool for you.

I was a fool.

No. You are beautiful...

Remember when you did the scene in Kpop survival.... you picked up the soap naked in front of another guy. Me and Taehyun laughed hard when we watched it and he said you might be gay.

Its embarrassed. I admit that I did so manything that I have been told, I would make living doing a designer's job, but I love to be a rapper too much.

Its fine. I dont care. We can be friends from now. Until our comeback, you'd better focus on composing and writing lyrics, I wont bother you. Let's forget this.

Jinwoo.. give me a month. Please.

I dont know.

Minho tried to get closer but Jinwoo insisted, he stands up, sighs and quickly walks away.

Leave me alone.

Minho doesnt follow. Jinwoo rarely cry, and almost never get angry, he's pure and careless, but he loves him. Minho has never met anyone like that, showbiz to him was always a mess, with people who are jealousy, petty and mean. Its all different when he got to know people like Jinwoo and Taehyun.

He may have much more experiences in this world, but he still doesnt know how to keep his mind unchangeable and a kind heart. He did think about himself might be changed into a fraud, a liar, a twofaced fuckery or anything like that in this complicated society of artists and fake artists.

Jinwoo is the most speacial one he has met since he was 18.
The most beautiful man he has ever met in his life, too.

He might be too excited, he forgot about her existence. but he must move on, he cant go back.

Honestly, he doesnt want to lose him, at all cost. It worths. For all he has been through.

He slowly walks home, Jinwoo slept in Seungyoon's room, his cat are playing with Seunghoon and Taehyun's busy recomposing a track.

Taehyun, are you still working on the songs for our upcoming new album?

Yeah.

I wanna go to the studio to record some part of my rap.

Ok, fine. I currently need your voice in some of my progressing record, so, Im coming too if it wont bother you.

Fine.

They go to the studio together, at mid-night.