Matters of the Heart (Rucas Adult AU)

Chapter 5 - There's so much hidden there, so much you don't know about

The soft feeling of Lucas's tear stained lips was imprinted into her mind as she had held onto him while he cried. She wanted to know what had caused him to breakdown because she needed to find a way to make him feel better, but she couldn't bring herself to say anything. The hurt in his eyes, the shaking in his shoulders, the way he held onto her so tightly like she was the one thing anchoring him through the rocky waves of his emotional breakdown.

She didn't know how long they had been sitting there in each other's arms until she heard the soft breathing from Lucas's mouth. He had passed out from crying, which meant that whatever had happened had been building for a long time. Moving his head from her shoulder, she positioned it on his lap and started to run her fingers though his hair. At first the move had caused Lucas to tense but he didn't wake up, once her hands had slowly started running through his hair he relaxes into the touch and fell into a deep sleep.

There was no way that she would have been able to move without waking him, and she wanted him to be able to relax until he was ready to talk about what had happened. She watched the sun change the colors of the buildings outside the office window but didn't move. She hadn't realized that she had fallen asleep until Lucas shifted in her lap and wrapped his arms around her legs like they were a pillow. She tried not to move too much until he had settled once again, it seemed as if he hadn't slept in a long time. So she let him sleep while she ran her fingers through his hair yet again. It felt relaxing to her in so many ways even if she was just trying to comfort him.

It isn't until her bladder screams at her for not using the bathroom that she realizes how long they had been on that couch. Then she hears Lucas's stomach rumble and she couldn't help but giggle which only made her own problem worse. She slowly moved his head high enough to slip a pillow underneath just so she could walk to the in-suite bathroom. The relief of using the bathroom was enough of reward but her own stomach started to rumble. She hadn't really eaten much at lunch and when she looked at her watch she realized it was already late.

Sighing as she walked out of the bathroom she was startled to see Lucas sitting up on the couch with his head in his hands. The bandage on his left hand was still on but it looked like Lucas had taken it off at some point and tried to put if back on haphazardly.

"Feeling better?" she asked as she walked out of the bathroom, only to see his head shot up and look at her. His eyes were back to their normal color, but in the darkness of his office it looked as if something was haunting them. She couldn't help but wonder what had gotten him so angry that he had to punch a wall, but it wasn't her place to ask.

Lucas let out a frustrated huff before running his hands through his hair only to unravel the bandages completely. Riley walked over and helped him re-bandage his hand without saying another word to him, being careful so that it wouldn't hurt him.

"You don't have to say anything," she started once she grabbed the tape. "I don't need to know anything about what happened, I just want to make sure you're alright especially since when I found out your hand was bleeding because you punched a brick wall. I should have taken you to a hospital because who knows what was on that wall but I didn't know if it would have been the right thing to do in your state of mind."

"I don't need a hospital," he said with a grunt.

"Well you should see your doctor and ask to a tetanus shot or something because honestly this is a big city and punch walls can lead to all kinds of infections."

Lucas smiled at her as she worried over him, which only brought back memories of the kiss making her blush furiously. The memory of the kiss, the softness of his tear stained lips, the smoothness of his hair under her hand. These were things that she was sure she would never get over, especially with all of the time they spent together.