Wishful Thinking

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It has been two days since Namjoon was bought to the hospital. Aeryn still hadn't moved from the position she had sat in originally except to check the time or charge her phone. Every once in a while she would also stand up to check if Namjoon was warm enough but never get a response, so instead she would just pull the blanket up a bit higher. Sometimes she would go and lie next to the older and ask him if he could hear her or if he was having bad dreams, but of course no answer came. Aeryn was just about to reach and stroke Namjoon's tangled hair again when there was a knock at the door. Wishfully she looked towards the source of the noise, although she wasn't quite sure she knew what she was wishing for. After a overly prolonged silence Aeryn saw Milly walk through the door, a ruksak flung over her shoulder and a plastic bag of what Aeryn assumed was food in her hand.

Cautiously Milly put the bags on a table, that was placed in the corner, and made her way over. "How's he doing ?" The girl asked sheepishly. Aeryn let out a rather loud sigh, not because of the question but more to the fact that everyone already knew the answer to the question. "Not great. The doctor said he will still be on that machine for a few days, unless he wakes up before." Aeryn recited the default answer she had given anyone who had asked that question. Every few hours one of the group of friends would come in tell Aeryn to go 'home' and get some rest, add to the pile of takeout and food that was slowing building in the corner, and once they finally noticed she wasn't going to move they asked the same question. In fact she had been asked that question so many times she had been becoming numb and automatically disliked human contact or communication. "Umm, I bought you some Chinese food and some more clothes. I guess I'll see you later." Milly replied careful choosing her words and began to make her way towards the door, but before she could open it she felt a small bony hand wrap around her wrist. Feeling the cold flesh against hers she turned to see Aeryn, a blank expression overlaying her normally joyful one. "Milly, do you think you could ask one of the boys to drive me to the apartment ?" Aeryn mumbled, her voice cracking in different places. "I'm sure they will be happy to take you." Milly have the other girl a sad smile as she left.

Around 15 minutes later Aeryn was sat in the passenger seat of Namjoon's car waiting for the traffic lights to turn green. Jimin gave the younger a sad smile, almost identical to the one she was given by Milly earlier. Quickly his eyes noted the change in colour of the light and pulled away. Soon enough they were pulling up to the apartment complex that Namjoon and Aeryn stayed in. After trudging up the stairs with jimin not far behind she was at the door. The girl reached under the mat for the spare key and forced it into the lock. The door gave way with an audible click and allowed the pair to enter front room. Aeryn looked around the room, her eyes landing on a framed picture of Namjoon and her holding a teddy bear that Namjoon had won her at the fair. Violently she shook her head, breaking her out of her trance. "Erm Jimin you can just watch the TV if you want I'm just gonna take a quick shower. Is that okay ?" The girl questioned before being pulled into a tight embrace by the older. "Of course that is okay. Take as long as you need." Jimin replied stroking her hair. Giving a single nod as thanks, Aeryn made her way to the bathroom.

After Namjoon had been admitted to the hospital the boys had come back and cleaned everything. All the blood and pills from the floor were gone. The clothes that had been stained with blood and tears had been washed and neatly folded, now residing on the bed. Slowly Aeryn collected some clothes to wear after her shower. These consisted of the Ryan hoodie originally for Namjoon, a pair of loose black ripped jeans Namjoon had bought her about a week earlier and white and black pumas. After stripping down to nothing she, stepped into the stream of water and let it engulf her body. Only then did she notice how skinny she had become although it had only been 2 days since the indecent, it had also been 2 days since the girl had eaten anything.

Disgusted with her self she showered as quickly as possible. Rather than blow dry her hair she decided to just put it in to 2 braids. She got changed, having to grab a belt for her jeans because they no longer fit her and rolling the sleeves of the hoodie up so she could see her hands. For a second Aeryn looked at her self in the mirror and saw the dark that encircled her eyes, coming to the conclusion that she would need to put make up there. Around an hour later, the younger made her way to the living room where she saw jimin with his feet propped up on the coffee table. "Jimin get your feet - actually nevermind." She sighed throwing a ruksak of Namjoon's stuff over her shoulder. Standing up shyly, jimin started to walk towards the younger. "You ready to go ?" He said brushing his thumb over Aeryn's cheekbone. Lightly pushing it away Aeryn stepped back, "Yeah. Let's just go." Jimin gave the girl and apologetic look and made his way to the door.

Aeryn nudged the double doors of the hospital open, after what had felt like the longest car journey of her entire life. The group outside of Namjoon's room scrambled off the floor and surrounding chairs to greet the pair. The group watched them walk up the corridor and if Aeryn was going to run towards them and jump into their arms. Holly glanced towards Aeryn with a hopeful look, that was soon replaced with a sad one, as she noticed the clothes Aeryn was wearing. It was all stuff Namjoon had given her or stuff that was ment for him. Noticing the change in Hollys mood, Jungkook tangled his fingers in hers; giving them a reassuring squeeze. Giving the group a small nod Aeryn went into the room, swiftly shutting the door behind her.

Yesterday the nurse had told her that she was allowed to change Namjoon in to some different clothes, as long as it didn't disrupt any of the machines or wires attached to his body. Remembering this, Aeryn began fishing through the bag that she had bought with her. Finally she found a pair of light grey sweatpants she had taken form Namjoon's drawers earlier, but before she could change Namjoon into them the nurse entered. "Good afternoon, Miss Minsu. I've come to tell you that it is safe for us to take Namjoon off of the respirator. I can do it now if you would like." The nurse relayed the information in a soft tone and ended with a big smile that made here eyes wrinkle at the corners. To shocked to reply Aeryn just nodded and the nurse went to work. 10 minutes later the nurse moved away from the bed. "He isn't awake yet but that's okay. I'll be back to check up later." With that the nurse excused herself and left the room. A few seconds later there was a knock at the door and Jungkook entered, giving Aeryn a hopeful smile. "What was that about ?" Jungkook asked slightly suspicious of why the nurse was in the room so long. "She took Namjoon's breathing thingy away because he can breath by himself now. They said he should wake up in the next few days." Aeryn answered trying not to squeal with happiness. "I'm happy for you. I'll go tell the others nothing is wrong." Jungkook mumbled and left the room with a smile.

Suddenly Aeryn shook her head, noticing she had been staring at Namjoon. Glancing at the clock she also notice she had been staring at him for 3 hours, unknowingly rubbing his hand in the process. Her thought was interrupted by her stomach growling as if it was having a temper tantrum. Remembering that the bag in the corner contained food she good up and made her way over to it. Digging through the bag she found some noodles that were now cold but she didn't care and ate them any way. She contently ate the noodle he back facing Namjoon as she look out the window at the sunset.

"Don't leave me any then." She heard a deep voice say from behind here. With out even looking behind her she replied. "Fuck off Tae." The person gasped. "So I lie unconscious for 3 days and that is the first thing you say to me ! How rude." Dropping here noodles Aeryn ran to him. The boy she had been waiting days for. The boy she called his. Kim Namjoon.

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