Love Me, Hate Me, I Don't Care (Bully!America x Bullied!Reader)

Strictly 'Platonic'

(Y/N) P.O.V

My mind is still in the state of slight shock, even as I am dragging Alfred by the wrist to god knows where. I don't know where, I just take random turns and ignore Alfred who is questioning my intentions with a shaky nervous voice. Eventually I lead him to the back of the school, there is no people here, neither are there cameras, so I use whatever strength I have within me to slam him against a wall and watch as he descends to the ground in a daze.

"H-hey Dudette wait-Let me explain!" He puts his hands before him and stares up at my looming figure. I sigh and roll my eyes, though I still continue to grit my teeth in an attempt to surpress the blush that just refuses to leave my face.

"Alright." I say flatly. I then bend down to sit on my knees before him, being patient before I jump to conclusions about his motives, a misunderstanding is probably the last thing I need right now. "Explain."

"You know. These one word sentances are kinda scary." He's trying to awkwardly avoid the topic.

I sigh with irritation written all over my face and cross my arms. "Just get to the point."

I listen to his story, he admits everything. About how his friends teased him into it and how it was recorded. I almost left a vein pop when he told me that it was all caught on camera. "But you know...." He suddenly lowers his voice and averts my gaze. "He's not wrong, we aren't exactly acting couple-like."

"Of course not. Afterall we are only pretending to date." I deadpan.

"Exactly!" He looks back up to me and gets a little too close to my face. "It's suspicious! People are starting to daupt it and the next thing you know this will become the next big school scandal!"

"You're thinking too much into this." I bring him back to earth by flicking his nose.

"Maybe but..." He admits while holding his nose.

"But...?" I tilt my head and expect him to expand.

"I think we should start acting more couple-like... Like you know... Holding hands, hugging, kissing..." He starts listing all the things that couples usually do off his fingers. My face flaires up again when he mentions kissing. He notices this and suddenly falls silent, I don't look at him straight away but after a while I notice him staring at my face.

"What?" I demand in a cold attempt to hide my lingering embarrassment.

"Nothing it's just..." His voice lowers and he seems to be in a daze, then again suddenly so am I. "I need to test something... Can I kiss you again?"

I am speechless, I want to refuse but something is stopping me. "OK.... Go ahead." I shut my eyes in anticipation. After a short yet uncomfortable silence I feel his lips roughly land on mine. Just like last time I don't kiss back, I just let him do whatever he wanted to do, to 'test' whatever it was he wanted to test. That may, or may not have, been a mistake because when he pulled away and I looked into his vibrant blue irises, they looked a tad bit hurt.

"As I thought..." He murmured out and put some distance between us. Then out of nowhere he got a hold of himself and beamed up onto his feet. "There is nothing there! I don't have any romantic feelings for you whatsoever, Nuh-uh." He crossed his arms and quite obviously feined confidance.

"Uuuuuh Thanks?" I nsay that and yet I feel my chest tighten. I get to my feet as well. "That's a good thing because I have no romantic feelings for you either." Once again his eyes flash with hurt, yet it was so brief that it could've been missed with a blink. "Though I agree that it may seem suspicious if we atleast don't hold hands."

"Yup!" His eyes brighten up again with actual unfeigned childlike joy. He points to me in a comedic way and announces in his usual loud voice. "From now on, every hug, kiss and any intimate gesture is strictly platonic!"

"Agreed!"

Timeskip: After school, Natalia's room.

I regretted that decision almost instantly, especially after Alfred sauntered into the classroom holding onto my hand, then urged me into another public kiss. I managed to hold my flustered feeling in for most of the day, up until now when I was at my friends' house and spilling all of my emotions onto them.

"And then he was being all persistant, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a death grip and then like, he glared at the guys and said stupid stuff like 'she's mine' and 'hands off my girl'!" I bury my face into a nearby pillow and let out a long annoyed groan.

"Wow (N/N), If we didn't know the real circumstances of this, it would've sounded like you're describing your actual boyfriend." Katayusha teases from her spot next to me on the large queen size bed. Whereas Natalia growls quietly to herself from opposite me.

"Don't you think he's being a little too affectionate? That better not have been your first kiss because I swear-"

"It wasn't" I cut her off before she can begin to start describing in graphic detail how she would murder Alfred. "You know I would've got super pissed if it was."

Both Katayusha and Natalia pirk up. "Wait, it wasn't?" Kata tilts her head.

"What is this? I haven't heard of this, why didn't you tell me?" Natalia gets into my face and Katayusha has to pull her back.

"You never asked." I smile sheepishly. The two get into a position and look to me expectantly. I give in instantly and explain. "Well, when I moved back to (Country/State) I met this guy on my first day of school, his name was (EX/N) (Ex's name), we kinda hit it off quickly and we dated like a year later." My face suddenly darkens, as do my memories of him, I shiver.

"Hm? What's up (N/N)?" Katayusha questions.

"Did it end badly?" Natalia hits the nail on the head.

"Yeah... Sorta... He started being really possessive all of a sudden and got jealous of the smallest, stupidest of things..." I scowl when I remember some of the more horrible things (EX/N) pulled off, like beating up a close guy friend of mine who never talked to me again after that. "I broke up with him a few months before moving back here."

"Yikes." Katayusha curls up a little bit then continued the conversation. "I've tried dating three guys before, but I broke up with all of them because I found out they were only after my boobs." She looks dejected and I give her a comforting pat on the back. "What about you Nat?"

"I'm saving myself for my one and only." She replies cryptically and both me and Katayusha decide not to question it.

We spend the rest of the afternoon talking over other random unrelated stuff, occasionally I'd throw a pillow at one of them after they'd tease about something trivial. Though I could never quite completly stop my mind from wondering.

I'd think about how weird Alfred has been acting, yeah sure we did agree to start acting more couple-like though in truth it was only platonic, not even that, we are pretending. I squeeze my heart every time I remind myself of that, it's stupid. How is it that my chest hurts every time I think about it? I know that we are pretending, I know, I remember the things he did to me... Yet with each passing day those things become more and more faded.

I know I don't like him.... I can't.

So just stop hurting already!

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Once again I am split between what name I should give this chapter. I was origiannly going to name is 'couple-like' but that one seemed a little too obvious. I think I finally have a direction in which I want this book to end, I'm just not sure how long that'll take, so I'm not gonna make any promises or assumptions.

Hope you enjoyed.

Baiiiii~~~