I looked at him blankly. I don't know what to say to him. He grabbed my hand. I know you didn't think me like that but I can't hide my feelings like that that's why I told you he explained. Can you give me some time to think about it? I asked him softly. He agreed. Are you hungry? he asked me, I nodded. We went inside the ice cream parlour. We ordered some ice cream. I looked at him without blinking my eyes he was looking out the window. He looked back at me I turned. I again saw him. He was also looking at me. Our eyes were locked at each other for a second. I never noticed him like this. I can't believe all this time he is in love with me. I started the conversation. Anto I have some trust issues. After my breakup, I started not believing people's. You know how much I loved him. He just left like that. Still, now I can't believe that we broke up. Even though I didn't love him anymore but I didn't forget him. Still, now I used to cry for him. I don't think I am not ready for another relationship. I don't want to break my heart again. I am so afraid that you will also do the same I said. He grabbed my hand. Sheerin, I know you more than anything. I know that you loved him so much. I feel like killing him. You the best thing ever happened to me, Sheerin. You are my first love. I promise I will never leave you. Take your time. I will wait for you. I will be always your best friend Sheerin he said looking into my eyes. I smiled. He smiled back. After that, he dropped me at my house. I went inside and headed towards my room. I know he is the best guy but I am just so afraid. I hugged my pillow and drifted off to sleep.
Next day morning I woke up. The first thing flashed through my mind is Antony. I thought to call Ayesha. I called her number. After two rings she picked up. Hello dear, I said. Hello sunshine what's up? she asked me. Can you come over? I asked her. Yes, she said without any second thought. I will be there in 10 minutes she said and hung up. By that time I had my breakfast and waited for her. At morning I always text but today I didn't. I don't know why. But I am not angry at him I don't understand my feelings right now towards him I went someone to guide me so I want Ayesha's advise.
Someone knocked the door I know it's her. Come in I invited her. I gave her a wide smile. Are you okay she asked me? Yeah, I replied. Good, she said. Actually, I have something to tell you I started the conversation.
Yes, dear go ahead she said seriously. Yesterday anto proposed me I said. I know that from very first. What? Are you serious I asked her? Yeah, I already had that doubt. I would have told you before but you know you have already been through a lot I don't want to confuse you she told me.
I let out a long sign. Do you have any feelings for him she questioned me? I don't know. I like him a lot but I am so afraid to fall in love again. What if he also broke my heart I am so scared I said rubbing my cheeks. Sheerin, sometimes you have to follow your instincts. Not all guys are the same she said. Yeah, I said hugging her. Just take it slow don't depend on him so much she said. Yes, thanks, Ayesha I said. Okay dear, I have some work I have to go now see you later she said and left the room.
I don't know whether I am taking the right decision but sometimes we have to take risk know. I called Antony to meet me at the restaurant near my house. I applied some makeup and wore into my red crop top with blue jeans. I reached there in 10 minutes he was already waiting for me. I sat opposite to him. Are you angry with me? he asked. No anto, you know how much you have changed my life. You were always been there for me I said smiling. He smiled too. I was waiting for him to ask me about my decisions but he is not asking anything. We had some food. Then we started walking. So what is the plan today he asked me. Nothing much I replied. I stood in front of him. He looked at me confusingly. Won't you have anything to ask me I asked raising my eyebrows? No, he said. sure? I asked him again. He looked down and smiled. What? I asked. Do you want me to ask you anything? he asked. Yes, I said and hugged him tightly. I LOVE YOU ANTO I said. He hugged me tightly and said I love you so much, Sheerin. Trust me I will never leave you. Thanks for accepting my proposal. You are my everything. He said and that made me so happy. I looked at him and kissed him so hard.
Thanks for reading friends:
-zehana.
