Hurt

1.7

Valerie POV

As we walked to the living room I still couldn't shake that feeling from when we were outside but I just decided to ignore it.

I had been asleep for so long that I just wanted to talk so when we walked in and sat down I started to sing a song. 

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

Make that money, fake that bunny, ache my tummy
On the fence, all the time
Paint young honey, face so sunny, ain't that funny
All my friends always lie to me
I know they're thinking

You're too mean, I don't like you, fuck you anyway
You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs
It hurts but I won't fight you
You suck anyway
You make me wanna die, right when I

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

Keep on dreaming, don't stop giving, fight those demons
Sell your soul, not your whole self
If they see you when you're sleeping, make them leave it
And I can't even see if it's all there anymore so

You're too mean, I don't like you, fuck you anyway
You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs
It hurts but I won't fight you
You suck anyway
You make me wanna die, right when I

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place [x3]
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

Being me can only mean
Feeling scared to breathe
If you leave me then I'll be afraid of everything
That makes me anxious, gives me patience, calms me down
Lets me face this, let me sleep, and when I wake up
Let me breathe

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

When I  finished I looked up to see the two boys staring at me.

"God I missed your voice." Stephen said while looking at me.

"I missed you too." I said looking into his beautiful eyes.

"Eww too much love." Nathanial said as he  acted like he was gagging 

"Aw shut up your just mad that Lillian isn't here." Stephen said with a smirk

"What I am not." Nathanial said with a fake gasp

"Yeah just admit it your home sick you miss her." Stephen said taunting him

"You guys are a mess." I said shaking my head

"But we're a hot mess." Nathanial said with a smirk

"I agree with that statement." Stephen said

"So you're telling me that you both agree that each other is hot." I said 

"Why of course.. Wait." Nathanial said

I started laughing as Stephen and Nathanial realized what I meant by this. 

Lillian *Madison* POV

When I woke up to find the note beside me I smiled. Finally I'm alone and I can continue my plan with Celeste. 

I decided that I had to at least act like I was a concerned wife so I called him and after he answered and I assured him everything was alright and that I understood why he was doing this he sounded relieved and I knew that I had him.

I got up slowly due to this little bundle of joy in my stomach. I needed this another successor. He would be very powerful. 

I walked out the room, down the stairs and into the basement to find that Celeste was already there.

"How's everything in France?"

"Very good I have someone watching them right now as I we speak."

"Good what was your latest update?"

"Well Stephen and Valerie are mates and as you know Nathanial is there but he's there to win over Valerie."

"And how do you know this?" I said with a little anger behind my voice

"Come on Lillian  we all know that he'll never be able to let her go."

I was angry and not because she was right but because I truly thought he was beginning to love me but of course love never works out in my favor.

"So when are we going back to France?" Celeste asked

"You are going to stay in Singapore until I tell you it's safe to come back."

"Mother  I'm capable of taking care of myself."

"I don't care if you were the most powerful being on the world if I say stay put until I so then you stay put!"

"Yeah sure whatever." Celeste huffed crossing her arms.

I looked at her for a second and walked closer to her.

"You know I'm not doing this to exclude you but I need you away from harm you are very precious to me." 

"I know mom."

"Ok come back in three days and don't do anything crazy in that time love."

I watched as she climbed out the basement window and left. I walked over and looked out to see a full moon.

"Nice to see you again sister.. Soon we'll be together again but I don't think you'll like this family reunion." 

With that I turned away not before seeing the stars tinkle and the moon pulse a bit as if she were trying to say something to me from her prison.

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2.2.2018

I decided to update  because I'm happy I thought I was going to fail a test in biology and I made an 80. 

Song: Afraid//The Neighborhood