depression | bang yedam

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Can you guys see it now ?

Areum's POV

Mother.

What exactly is that ? 

I grew up without a mom and out of sudden a woman appeared and claimed that she's my mom. Now she wants to bring me along with her to live with her ?

What a joke.

" Just go with your mom ! " Yedam screamed and I yanked his hand away. Why is he always butting into my issues as if i'm close to him ?

My heart started beating really quickly unconsciously.

No, no, no.

There's no way.

I ran away from him, I didn't want to face reality regarding my mom. She's partly the reason why dad's no longer here, i'm not going to be with her.

I sat by the bridge, the strong air blew past my face. Suddenly I thought of Yedam, he did indeed help me a lot through the months and i'm extremely grateful.

Just thinking about him made my heart race, I placed my hand on my heart. It's indeed beating really quickly, i'm scared.

I'm scared to fall for someone.

There's no way I would like Yedam, I mean he's just a friend and I didn't know him that well yet. He just helped me because he pities me.

I made up my mind, which is to avoid Yedam. Maybe if I avoid him, I wouldn't have to see him and I wouldn't think I like him.

That day, I didn't have anywhere to go.

They kind of sold my old house even though I didn't agree and gave my consent. I didn't want to go home with some woman who claimed to be my mom.

" Take me, back into the arms I love- "

I heard a man singing gently, I turned around and saw an old man sitting on the ground with his guitar in his hands as he is trying to earn a living.

My first instinct was to walk to him, and I did.

He looked up at me, " Thank you. " I said softly and he smiled slightly.

He reminded me of my dad who I love dearly even until today, he will never be forgotten. My dad is my hero and he will always be.

" Why are you wearing a hospital gown ? " He asked worriedly and I explained everything to him in detail, leaving nothing out.

I felt like I trust him, something tells me he will help me and lead me to a future that is filled with happiness.

He shook his head gently, " I know it's tough for you but if she's your biological mom, how worried must she be ? her daughter just left her without knowing where she is going and isn't back yet. "

" Moreover, you're unfit. If anything happens to you, how worried sick must she feel ? " At that moment, I felt guilty.

" Your dad will always be up there looking down at you, taking care of you, caring for you and completing his role as your dad. " I started tearing up.

Missing dad.

" I used to have a daughter who reminds me of you, she suffers from depression too but now, she's in a better place. " He smiled but I saw tears rolling down his cheeks as he wiped it away.

I sighed, depression killed someone.

" Hurry, return back to your mom. " He told me urgently and I did as I was told. I got back to the hospital and she hugged me worriedly.

" Are you okay ? Did you get hurt ? Do you feel sick ? Is anywhere painful- " I smiled slightly and shook my head, telling her i'm fine.

I understand that she might be my mom but I felt really foreign towards her. It felt as if, I don't know her at all.

Hi there.

Shoot.

I'm depression and i'm here.

Again.

And then bam.

There goes my emotion, going on a rollercoaster ride. Someone save me from this, I don't want to go on a rollercoaster.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks and everyone became really shocked. I broke down in tears and didn't want to talk to anyone for the rest of the day.

My head started hurting again, it makes me felt really upset and disappointed in myself. I thought that maybe I could escape from it but no.

Depression isn't a joke and I hate it when people often thinks depression is merely sadness and it's not a serious issue when people are dying from it.

I felt the need for depression to be talk about in every single school worldwide. There is always that one student who suffers from it but didn't have the courage to express it out.

" Appa, can you hear me ? " I whispered softly as I hugged my teddy that I have with me since I was really little and it's a gift from my dad.

" I met omma just now and she seemed nice for now. I'm no longer in our old house since it was sold to some random stranger without my permission. I'm sorry I couldn't keep the house. " I said.

Just thinking of my dad makes me want to burst out in tears but I tried controlling it. I didn't want depression to come and take me away too.

I used to think that way, that maybe life should just take me away but just now Yedam hopped by my new house and said something which made me want to overcome depression.

" If you can overcome depression, it means you made everyone around you proud and that includes your dad, your mom, me and yourself. "

People often thinks that kid as young as 7 can't suffer from depression but, welcome to the new world where small kids have depression too.

Every age group is able to suffer from depression and are unable to control it so I don't get why some people often criticize us for having depression.

Anyways, I told myself i'm going to make everyone around me proud and of course, myself too.

Yedam is a big part of my life since he've helped me or attempted to help me overcome depression and he is still helping me.

I'm shocked that he didn't leave but i'm glad he didn't too. If he did leave, I would probably have already taken my life away by now.

But no,

I'm slowly overcoming depression, thanks to Bang Yedam, my life savior.

13th Jan 2018

" Stars can't shine without darkness. "
- anonymous

Just believe in yourself people :D without darkness, how can stars shine ? Just like you guys, you guys are just like the shining bright stars in the sky and depression is obviously the darkness.

Currently, depression is blocking you guys from shining bright but trust me, overcoming it will result in you shining brighter than ever !!

So overcome it :D

There's always people around you that will help you overcome it and if you don't mind, I could be one of them !! even though i'm pretty busy nowadays but i'll take some time out to help you guys if you guys just message me on wattpad since i'm not using Instagram at the moment due to some personal reasons :)

I believe in you gorg people <3