Spoken Words

Thanks To You...

I stay up most nights.
Thinking of you, While trying not to think about you.
Missing you, while trying not to miss you.
 Tick tock goes the clock.
And I still find myself thinking about you.

Have you ever met someone and grown attached to them and thought "this is gonna hurt really bed when they leave.."

People think I'm lying about being hurt because they see me laughing. But actually, I laugh to keep myself from crying.

If you don't like me, please don't pretend to like me ever.

Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before I fall apart. I'm being murderd by my own mind..Thanks to you.
 You used to be my whole world until one day, you thought that I wasn't enough.. now your name doesn't make me smile anymore..

Everything hurts yet I feel nothing.. Back when you loved me, you asked "Why are you scared?" I said, "because you could leave at any moment and there wouldn't be a single thing I could do..". I am exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel.

I'm fine
Just not happy

                         Thanks to you...