Diaries of a Badass (A Princeton Mindless Behavior Love Story) [FINISHED]

Chapter 4

                                                                 Janelle's POV

I couldn't sleep in this cold September evening. Figures. I looked around my room, pondering on what I should do to keep me entertained. There on my bookshelf was my poetry/songbook journal. I know what you're thinking. What the hell is this supposedly badass girl doing writing poetry. Well to be completely honest, every badass has a weak spot or a secret that they keep, it's just gonna take you a while to break through their shell to get there. I got up to get the journal and sat back down on my bed indian style, trying to decipher my emotions.

'Hmmm....should I write a song or write a poem? Song.' I thought.

A secret nobody knows about me is that I can sing. I know I can because I often tape record myself and  I would play it back. Now I'm no Demi Lovato, I'm just good enough to carry a tune. Only one of my past friends, Rebecca, heard me sing.

With the pencil in my hand I began to write a song that I had titled "Let it Rain". It went a little something like this:

From the first day I met you

I notice your style 

Had that B-Boy swagger not once of the crowd

And you talked like you knew me

Kept coming around and I fell for ya, yeah

Then as time kept going I noticed some things

Said our love kept growing

Wanted to run away cause the situation's in the pas

Love never really last

Memories just had a hold of me

(Chorus)

Bur I had to let go of the pain

Let love rain down on me (let it rain)

Cause you helped me open up my eyes

Show me things I could never see (let it rain)

Cause we can fight and we make up

I'm staying with you only (let it rain)

Cause I need you show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

When I finished the song I was impressed, but then I questioned myself. This song that I wrote seems to be based on Jacob. Did I l-love Jacob? Or is just out of pure admiration and inspiration? Who knows, but I did know something was there between me and Jacob, I jut couldn't exactly point it out.

I looked back at my past songs that I made, one of the songs title really stood out called "I Hate love". I looked at the lyrics which were:

Tired of being in the wind

When I'm gone find love club

I've come close get a does

But it just ain't enough

Right guy, wrong time

Right time, wrong guy

What's the use

Why even try

(Bridge)

What's the rush getting getting caught up

And then it's over

Now I'm crushed and I'm crying

And there's no shoulder