Diaries of a Badass (A Princeton Mindless Behavior Love Story) [FINISHED]

Chapter 13

I woke up bright and early for our appointment to see the counselor. Not sure what was coming my way, but I'd give anything to establish a new relationship with my mom. Honestly I was pretty geeked about it after I did my hygiene routine. In the middle of doing my makeup, Princeton walked in with a bright smile that always makes my day.

"Good Morning beautiful.: Princeton greeted.

"Morning baby." I responded.

"You ready for counseling?"

"Surprisingly, yes. New beginnings right?"

"Right! Well breakfast is almost done so come downstairs." As he was about to leave he stopped. "You shouldn't cover up your face with that stuff. Your naturally beautiful."

Princeton walked out the room. I smiled to myself and hurried up to get the makeup removal products. Princeton maybe right, maybe I was naturally beautiful. If he thinks so, then I believe him.

I wiped everything off and looked at myself. It was really different, I'm so used to covering myself up and masking my skin, I forgot what I look like without it. I did a double take at myself to make sure I looked okay. This time, I looked at myself with more confidence. I was ready to show off my battle scars that I had to deal with. For the first time, I'm genuinely ready to take on my new life.

"Janelle, it's time to go! We're gonna be late!" Mom yelled.

"Coming!" I yelled back.

Quickly I rushed down the stairs to see the inviting smiles that were gonna be there for me for the rest of my life. 

"Let;s go! I'm not really hungry. I kinda have the jitters." I told them.

"You sure babe?" Princeton asked.

"Yea I'm sure." I responded.

"Maybe we can stop by Mcdonald's or something afterwards." Mom commented.

I nodded my head. Zoe, Princeton, mom and I walked outside and got in the car. I rested my head on Princeton's shoulder as we drove to the building that's gonna change my relationship with my mom. We finally arrived and all 4 of us got out the car and entered the building. Mom went straight to the information desk.

"Hi, what room is Dr. Michelle Mendez?" Mom asked the lady.

"She is in room 649 on the 3rd floor." 

"Thank you very much." Mom thanked her.

All of us followed mom to the elevator with a guy with a huge beer belly. The doors opened and all of us got inside. I couldn't help but stare at the guy, he just looked sooo disgusting. His mustache even curls, kind of like the guys named Mario and Luigi in those games. He looked straight at me and he began to cry. Not like a light cry or quiet tears spilling over. But the kind of cry that babies do if they get a whopping or get hurt. Princeton looked at him weird and gave him the 'wtf' look.

"Are you okay?" Mom asked.

He tried to say something but he kept on mumbling. So instead he just shook his head no. The elevator door opened on the 3rd floor. I walked out, but at the same time I gave him a sympathetic look.

We reached 649 and entered. Dr.Michelle Mendez was in full view.

"Come right on in." She greeted us.

We followed her into her office and told us to sit down on these very comfortable chairs.

"Alright, well I am Dr. Michelle Mendez. You must be Janelle and Alayna. Your relationship is mother and daughter. Okay so let's look in the daughter's perspective of things, shall we? I know your mom told me briefly what happened on the phone, but  I want to know what you feel." She informed.

"Wow. Where do I start?" I began to say. "Well when my mom left, I felt abandoned, unloved and unwanted. I was left with my step dad who is abusive."

"How was he abusive?" She interjected as she wrote down some notes.

"He was hitting me, that's why I have these scars. Also sexually."

"Interesting, you may continue."

"Anyway, after the first time he sexually abused me, my whole life changed, I hated the thought if love. It was like I never had it and I didn't really even want it. I was mean, I turned to selling drugs and hanging around the streets. I didn't wanna be bothered with anybody, I was mostly quiet. The only real friend I had at the time, was my stuff bear Carmel. I wrote in my diary to help myself 'cuz I can't hold all this stuff in. If I did hold this stuff in, I would turn to either cutting myself or committing suicide."

Princeton winced at the last part. Zoe stood there with wide eyes.

"Wow. This is deeper than what I thought it was gonna be. We're not gonna get into a lot of things today. This is sorta like a introduction meeting, Next week we're gonna have a LOT of consulting and coaching methods to deal with this situation," Michelle told us.

We all nodded our heads in agreement.

"Alright." She said as she got up from her chair. "We will see each other again, and it was a pleasure of meeting all of you."

She led us to her door and pointed to the direction of the elevator. We walked down the hallway and entered the elevator

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Later that night, I was sitting in my room with all smiles. Princeton was holding me from behind as I was sitting indian style on the bed. 

"I'm proud of you." Princeton said.

"Of what?" I asked.

"You. I'm happy that you and your mom are doing this counseling thing, I can see that it's really helping your life."

"It's not just the counseling Jacob. It's you too."

There was a calm, comfortable silence.

"Can you give me a minute to be alone. I'll meet you in the living room so we can cuddle and watch movies." I asked.

"Of course. I'll even pop popcorn for you babe."

I smiled. "Thank you Prince Charming."

He smiled back. "Your welcome mi Princessa."

He closed the door and I quickly got up to get my diary.

Dear Diary,

First off I would like to say thank you. I know you heard that before, but I'm really thankful to have you. You've been there since the very beginning and helped me from not killing myself. You have answered all my question, even without complaining. Of course without complaining 'cuz you can't talk, but we still have some connection somehow. It hurts for me to tell you this but, I don't need you anymore. It's time for us to be apart. I'm dealing with my problems now and if I have a question, I won't be afraid to ask somebody. It's time for me to solve my issues or my questions. Thank you soo much Diary but it'ss time for me to go.

I closed my diary with a feeling of achievement. I'm now starting my NEW healthy and successful life. And I'm gonna make every second count!

It's finished. Now I'm about to move my Book 2 of the Diaries series from MissLit to Wattpad. I hope you liked it. Please comment btw! Peace and Mindless love! -Jazzii ♥