Diaries of a Badass (A Princeton Mindless Behavior Love Story) [FINISHED]

Chapter 11

                                                           Janelle's POV

My mom embraced me in a big bear hug, She felt soo warm, and she looked exactly how I remember her by. I cried in her arms like a big baby, and she did too! It lasted like that for 10 minutes. Just me and her crying and Zoe and Princeton watching. We finally pulled away from each other with tear-stained faces. I don't know why but, mom was laughing.

"What;s funny?" I questioned.

She sniffled a little bit. "Nothing baby, nothing. I missed you soo much! Come on it, you and your friends! We have a lot of catching up to do, since I missed so much in your life." Mom answered.

We all walked in a white and red living room. Her house was VERY elegant, a lot better than the house that my step dad lives in. Mommy was always the one that liked to live big and extravagant, so this really doesn't surprise me. Zoe's face was just in awe at everything, I guess because she's not use to it since she lived in the streets most of her life. Princeton had a blank expression. You could just tell he was truing to stay strong for me and of course I love him for that. Mommy gestured for us to take a seat on the sofa, which we did and mom was just all smiles looking at us, especially me.

"Soo...Mom, I have a whole lot of question that I need answered. I've 'been left all my life with this question and I don't want to miss this opportunity. Why did you leave me with him?" I asked.

Mom heaved a big sigh. "Guess we're starting with the heavy stuff, huh? I left because I wasn't ready to be a mother. Sweetheart I was 17 when I had you and I had no idea about parenting. I was still a child myself. Then I got married with the perfect guy, but then he hit me. So I left.

"So let me get this straight mom. You left because he hit you? And you didn't even take me with you?  YOU LEFT ME WITH HIM! YOU LET HIM SEXUALLY ABUSE ME AND CALL ME A SLUT ON A DAILY BASIS!! HE BOSSES ME AROUND SAYING THAT I CAN'T BE NOTHING!!! BUT YOU WEREN'T THERE MOM, YOU WERE GONE IN THE PERFECT LIFE THAT YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW!!! IS THAT TRUE MOM!?!?!" I yelled.

Angry tears fell down my face. Princeton rubbed my thigh trying to calm me down. Sorry sweetie, but that;s not gonna work this time. This needs to come out and get answered. RIGHT. NOW.

"TELL ME MOM!! WHY MOM!? WHY!?"  I yelled.

My mom closed her eyes tight trying her best not to cry. "I-I don't know." She whispered.

That was it. "YOU DON'T KNOW!?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW!! ARE YOU EVEN GUILTY?!?" 

"Of course I regret it! I need you to calm down please Janelle! Calm down." Mom asked.

I closed my eyes and layed my head on Princeton's chest. He instantly wrapped his arms around me.

"Ms. Cortez I don't even know what possessed you to leave a child with a man that hit you. What were you thinking? A preschooler even know that." Princeton interjected.

"I thought that he would treat her differently! But I was wrong! I was wrong and I am so sorry for that! It was my mistake! We could go to counseling and work this out! I want to rebuild our mother and daughter relationship sweetheart! I really do! Come here baby." Mom spoke.

I looked up at her and departed myself from Princeton. One by one I took a step towards my mom. She held her arms out wide waiting for me. I couldn't take it anymore I ran to her! My anger just melted away, joy and happiness filled my body with a mixture of my mother's love.

"Mommy I missed you." I whispered to her.

"I missed you too. I am truly sorry sweetheart, I won't ever let this happen again." She said as we pulled apart.

"This is a new start for a new beginning." Mom said.

"Yea mom. It is." I agreed.

"Now since we got all of that heavy stuff out the way, let's talk about something light. Introduce me to your friends." Mom smiled.

I smiled widely. "Well this is Zoe. She's one of my friends that I met from the streets. Actually we're gonna help each other out get away from the streets. This is Jacob, he's m boyfriend. He's been there for me just like he promised me. I love him so much mommy. He helped me with what I was feeling and he never judged me, not once. And he had a crush on me ever since 3rd grade." I introduced.

"A boyfriend. GO AHEAD CHICA! How long have you been dating?" Mom asked.

"1 day." Princeton and I said at the same time.

"A day? And you already love him?"

"Mom this is a different type of love. This is not some puppy love that you think it is. It's much deeper than that. He's guy that changed me from my ways. Mommy he changed me for the better. I was so depressed and hateful and I didn't even wanna be bothered with love when you left. My social life came crashing down when dad sexually abused me on that day. But Jacob didn't care! He was determined to be with me mom! I was trying my hardest to push him away, but he's still here mom. With me and for me 'cuz he loves me that much and I love him too."

"Baby...you are truly in love. I can see it. When you look at him and just now when you talked about him. I am truly blessed to have him change you and I am forever grateful of you Jacob. Hopefully soon you can be my son in law." Mommy smiled.

"I hope I'll be your son in law too Ms. Cortez. But for now let's work on you and Janelle. Janelle and Zoe we should get some rest from the flight." Jacob said.

Zoe and me both nodded our heads in agreement. I'm starting to think that I should right in my diary sooner. I have so much stuff to get off my chest that I can't possibly keep in.

Mom got up and showed us our rooms. They were nice of course 'cuz of her rich mentality. Before Jacob went to his room he came by my bedside.

"You and you're mom will be alright. Just let all of this go for now and talk about it later in counseling. Have a good rest and prepare for some bonding time with your mom. You can bond with me later. I love you so much baby." He whispered while kissing me softly.

He tucked me in and gave me one more kiss before he shut the door. I smiled at him thinking about how perfect he was for me.

Peace and Mindless love! -Jazzii ♥