For You

Chapter 07

Now, it's me and Emma talking.

I don't know what's gotten into her, but it might be something crazy.

"Richard's been acting different lately."

"Lol, what? Is he gay?"

"No! Silly. He just seemed like he doesn't care about things anymore. When I told him about you going to Australia after we graduate, he didn't care anymore. It felt like you had a fight more than we did. I just don't know, I want to walk out of his life because all he ever cared about is his stupid popularity over the campus."

"I-is that so, well, it's said now! (Laughs) It will be no doubt that I'll go to Australia. Tell Richard I said thanks, by the way. I should head first, take care!"

It feels like my world is a blur, and that I can't hear or see anything, I just saw darkness. I didn't care whether Emma spoke after that, I just walked away. Then I realized I was already crying. Stupid. I shouldn't be crying in a case like that.

I should really go home. To clear things up. And to clear my mind. I got home, dressed up and went to bed. It's not yet my sleeping time, I know, still, I slept.

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No. It didn't clear things up. It just made me even more sick of it.

But, I woke up the next day. Yep, didn't wake up in the evening, I slept straight ahead!

I called Emma. Today's Friday. And my flight to Australia and be there for a week would be on Monday. So I need some girl talk first before leaving them, so they wouldn't be uncomfortable.

"Emma! ..Is Stacey there?"

"Yes, and guess what?"

"Yes, she's on her PMS. The monster's talkin'! But, could we go to the mall or something, I just needed some girl talk before I leave you for about a week."

"Oh okay, I thought about your leave's nearing, so we really need some girl moments! Wait, I'll tell Stacey. She's so busy with her boyfriend, at the same time.."

"Yeah. Let's meet after lunch then! See you!"

I dropped the call, to save the conversation for later.

After eating lunch, we met at the front porch of the mall.

"O-m-g, we'll really miss you Ella!!"

Here comes Stacey, on the phone, she was on her darkest side. What the hell happened?

"(Giggles) Let's do shopping, shall we? I'll treat you."

"Thank you Ella! Come on Stacey let's go!"

We had some shopping sesh, and after some time, we ate. That's the time I opened up to them.

"Guys, I really, really appreciate you being there for me. Always. Thank you for being there at my Richard moments, fun and everything. So, I really hope I would be ready anytime soon when I go to Australia."

"Are you saying goodbye now, Ella? No, it's just one week girl! Don't say such things like that!" -Stacey

"No, Stacey, she's right. The time is nearing. Only about five months left, and she'll be off to Australia. We'll also graduate soon." -Emma

I hate that feeling. Really. When they would accept the fact that you leave for Australia and then say such sentimental things and such heart-felt stuff that you would cry over those stupid things, hate it. I don't want to cry because I would leave someone. I think it's stupid.

"But tell me, Ella, did you break down when I told you about Richard ignoring the issue about you going to Australia?"

Oh yeah, did I? What's the answer?

..OF COURSE I DID.

"Are you really asking? It's embarrassing, you know."

"Just answer the question. Stacey's also curious you know, being your best friend and all."

What would I answer them? It won't come out from my mouth.

Speak, Ellaine! They're your best friends. No secrets, no need to be shy. Okay. This is it.

"Alright. I did. I couldn't help it, I've liked him a lot. I did break down, but I know, it wouldn't change a thing about him. It wouldn't make him like me back. I don't like it when one would like you just so he knew you liked him. I want someone who would really love me for who I am."

"Aw, Ella! I thought Richard was worth it, because your story about your childhood makes me think about fairytales that we know won't come true. But what happened was ignorance coming along. Don't worry, Ella. You'll find someone in the right time. You won't expect it, but it will really happen in time. Look at me, I also doubt that I would stay with my guy forever, because of our struggles everyday. We always fight, you know. That's why I always pray that we would stay and if not, just accept. There's still a lot of time. We're still young."

Sometimes, Stacey is really useful in these things, right? That's why I love her. And Emma. I love them.

I thought about that also. Yes, we're still young. We should do things that we are free to do. We should not frown at the time we know we should be happy. And in that, I choose to be happy. With my friends. Though, I still love him. I can't make up my mind just yet.

Thank you, Emma and Stacey. Now, I would happily go to Australia. Here I come!

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Sorry for the super late update!! Huhu. Super busy. :( I hope you would still read until the very end! I promise to update every now and then. :)