For You

Chapter 08: Day 1 in Australia

Oh god. I already miss my friends.

I'm here with my mother. It's so boring, I didn't even bring something with me. She's sound asleep. If only I could jump through this round window and go back. But I can't.

Maybe music can relieve the boredom I'm into.

"If it's love.."

What, this playlist I got can be emotional as I do?

"And we decide that it's forever, no one else could do it better"

Is there such thing as forever? How could you call humans dying, forever? But anyway, I hoped for this part to happen. We decide, and then we would become the best forever. And no one would decide to be apart from one's life.

"If it's love, then we're two birds of a feather then the rest is just whatever"

This song is just so in love. I just hope it was the same with us, but it's not.

"Love, love, got to have something to keep us together..

That's enough for me."

Why do I hope for something that I know I couldn't have? Obviously now that I knew his response.

I knew that was one of his childish games.

That I didn't take as a game. But instead I kept it.

I kept it to myself. I gave his love back.

But it was all a lie. And that it was my weakness: to be fooled with affection.

Goodness, why am I crying?

No, no. I should get to move on.

I am thinking such ridiculous things when I'm only turning 16. Day 5 in Australia, I would celebrate my sweet 16 there.

I can't wait.

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After 12 hours and so, my butt was sick with all those sitting. We landed off safely, thank goodness.

There's nothing really happening interesting lately. Just me and my mother walking around like some doofus searching for food but, in this real situation, we are searching for directions. I don't know what company my father's in. But anyways, my mother said it. The Apl Company. She said it's a company that publishes brand new phones. Wow, just wow. I could have a brand new phone anytime. I was just joking. So it really is a big company.

We came in and the manager, my father, was being called.

After several hours, at last, my father appeared. He hugged us very tight. It was all we did and we left him. We headed to our assigned hotel.

All tired, and we rested for the rest of the day. Honestly, I really missed my dad. I am so lucky I did have him. He didn't have his pride and left us, but it was for sustaining our family.

And he didn't have his pride on me. He is the only one now who unconditionally love me. And I love him for that.

And I loved Richard for that back then. For unconditionally loving me.

But, now let's accept that he is the opposite now. He won't think of me as he did before.

He was much, much different before than the way he is now.