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real life
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it was late, the sun had already set and everyone was asleep. everyone except for lucas.
his couldn't sleep, he was too busy overthinking what he had just seen.
he was on social media when he saw something, more like someone, he didn't expect. he saw his ex girlfriends face back on his timeline.
lucas was aware of elizabeth's social hiatus, and he didn't blame her. he blamed himself ever since the day they broke up.
he knew what he was doing when he said those things to her, what he didn't know was the effect it was going to take the both of them.
amybeth told him all about how elizabeth's been handling the situation and everyday he wants to just call and say sorry.
lucas watched the screen intensely. he read the caption over and over. he knew she was putting on an act for her fans.
the elizabeth lucas once knew would never have hid the truth so far deep.
'hopefully there's no hard feelings between us' that was a lie.
back when it happened, as soon as lucas said those words elizabeth hung up and immediately blocked him everywhere.
he did make attempts to contact her but it clearly wasn't what she wanted at the time and soon enough he gave up completely.
most times when he felt down he'd listen to her music and remember the times she'd tell him what her songs meant to her.
he missed her, everyday.
he sighed unlocking his phone again and going to messages.
she unblocked his number a while ago to try and clear her conscience but lucas didn't know that, so he started writing a text to what he thought was no one.
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messages
lucas
hi el. you probably still have
my number blocked but
i just wanted to say a few
things that i've tired telling
you before but couldn't
because of what i did.
i just want to say i never
really meant anything of
those things i said to you.
i did love you...god i loved
you to the point that it drove me
into thinking i wasn't enough
and that you were going to
break up with me for that guy.
i know that's stupid thinking back
on it but it's true. you were too
good for me and i think that why i
said those things because i knew
eventually one of us was going to
get hurt. i didn't want it to be you.
elizabeth im so sorry for everything
and this apology is probably all
bullshit to you because of how late
i'm saying it. i could've fully apologized
right when it happened but i was
a coward and i'm sorry.
i hope you're doing good and
i honestly wish and hope that
everything you want goes for you.
i'm sorry.
DELIVERED 2:53 AM
elizabeth
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READ 3:00 AM
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c'est la fin
but au coming at ya next ;)
- isabelle
