Friday, I'm in Love

Two

It's been two weeks since Falon slit her beautiful wrists. It's been to weeks since she stained her bathtub with her scarlet life. I'm dull; like a zombie without a purpose in life. She was my life. My mind feels gone, like it disappeared. My emotions, thoughts, just everything. It still hasn't registered that she is actually gone. Permanently.

Two Weeks Earlier.

"Falon, the sunset is almost as pretty as you," I whispered, as we lay in the middle of her homemade skatepark. No one was there, just the two of us and the setting sun.
She rolled her eyes and laughed at my super cheesy comment. "You're wrong. The sunset is definitely a lot prettier than me. But you...the sunset looks like shit compared to you." I turned my head so I could look at her. She was already staring at me intensely.

She has been doing this a lot lately. Like every second I'm with her, she's memorizing every detail of my face. It's normal I guess, but it kinda makes me feel insecure and worried. But she has no reason to break up with me. I mean, I know she loves me. A lot. Still, there's a lingering feeling that I can't seem to brush off.

Now I know that all her deep stares hid pain and things she didn't feel like she was strong enough to tell me about. It's the things I remember now, that were signs she wasn't Falon anymore. Of course now I notice. As if it matters.

I shook my head and leaned over to her; connecting our lips. The kiss was soft and reassuring. After, I laid my head on her chest, listening to the gentle beating of her heart. Falon inhaled deeply, "You'll never know how much I love you. How much you make me happy." I automatically filled her with assurance.
"That's not true...I can feel it."Her deceiving heart pulsed out unseen sadness and hopelessness. I absentmindedly traced the soft skin on her wrists.

The wrists she let the razor trace too; an hour later.

I know this was a super short chapter, mercy me. Short; but important. The next chapter will be longer and should be up tomorrow! Thanks for the patience.
-dani.