A World Without You || d+p

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"Just because your pain is understandable, doesn't mean your behavior is acceptable" -dr steve maraboli

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[Dan]

My eyes began to flutter open. God why did my neck hurt so bad? Did I fall asleep on the couch again? I couldn't really remember and that's the least of my problems, I need to get ready for school. School. New school. "Oh" my mind thought. I moved. I have a new school, I actually need to socialize, great.

I got up from the couch, an acing pain shot threw my back. I groaned, bring my hands up to shift my hair to the side a bit more. I quickly checked my phone. 5AM, already starting off late, wonderful.

After getting dressed and straightening my hair, I went downstairs to be greeted by my already awake mother.

"Daniel! You're up so early?" My mum asked, raising an eyebrow.

"It's a school day, mum," I replied, she never really had the best memory.

"Ah yes, I seemed to forget," she commented, forcing a smile towards me, it was obvious.

"You seem to forget plenty of things, mother." I said, a bit more harsher than I intended, I knew she only wanted to help.

"Watch it, I get you're not in the best state mentally but it gives you no right to talk to your mum like that, understand?" She asked, more like she was trying to convince herself than me.

"Mhm, I'm sorry." Another reason why I hated socializing was because whenever I talked, some stupid smart remark would slip out uncontrollably and I'd end up saying sorry constantly or getting in a huge amount of trouble. Either way, it ended up happening.

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"Hello Howell, I'm Pj and I'm going to be showing you around school since you're knew," The guy, Peej, said, I only smiled, knowing I'd say something stupid if I talked.

"Alright, I'd like to see how many classes we have together." That, I forgot to mention I was in year 11.

"Only two, but you do have some classes with my other friends if you'd like to met them?" Pj asked, he almost looked amused by the way I looked rather confused.

"Sure." I replied, than the question I hated the most came.

"Why are you so quit Howell?" Pj asked, not knowing what that question did to me. Anxiety building up in me as I try horribly to stay afloat, I swallow hard.

"Uh... I-I just don't seem all that i-interested in the idea, that's all." I finally got out, it was getting harder to breathe. Please don't ask me more questions. Please continue walking. Please.

"Let's go," And oh thank all Gods their are but holy hell was it a relief. My anxiety still haunted me a bit, breathing became steady moments after.

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"That's our school, any questions," Peej asked, handing me my books I needed. As we walked out of the library, I couldn't help but notice someone sitting along the building. The man turned around, making eye contact with me.

Wow. Not only did that man have the most stunning blue eyes you could get lost in for ages, his cheekbones. Damn his cheekbones were everything a goddess wished they had. I swear I stopped breathing.

"You okay there Dan?" Pj asked, hitting my shoulder slightly to get my attention.

"I-i," I couldn't get words out, it was like that man knocked the wind out of me, I mean he kinda did with his looks.

"Tongue tide over Lester huh? He gets everyone he wants, damn such a lucky man!" Peej joked, it still didn't get me out of my trance. Quickly the man sitting alone shot me a bright smile, before pushing up his glasses and walking away.

"Phil Lester, amazingphil, just gave you one of his iconic smiles before walking away, you must by magical!" Peej went on, getting louder as he spoke.

"Pj, shut it." I continued, cutting Pj from saying anything further, "What, how does that make anything different, he just smiled at me?" I asked, hoping that guy might find an interest in me.

"I mean, he only gives, gave, his girlfriend that smile. He could be into you man!" Peej practically fangirled, the girlfriend thing didn't pass my mind though.

"He has a girlfriend?"

"I said had," Pj said rather happily. Oh, oh wow. There's a chance. No. I need to stop.

"Well than, I better get going to my class." I couldn't help but look over to that guy. He seems like a bad idea.

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It was now near the end of the school day. And of course, I had a fucking class with that man. He's absolutely stunning but, I've told myself I'll start caring about school more. I don't need someone right now.

"Um, excuse me?" A voice behind me said, as quietly as he could. I turned around. Frozen. My body shut down as I looked into his blue eyes. Shit shit shit. What do I do?

"Can you- wow," He said, shifting slightly. He seemed taken back, like he lost his breath, but why?

"I-I'm sorry what?" I asked, God I bet I looked so stupid compared to his beautiful face.

"Oh uh, can you hand me that book," he replied, I was so caught up in my own little world I didn't even realize I was in front of the bookshelf.

"Oh, sure." I handed him the book, my hand brushed his for a moment and I felt at lost for words.

"I'm Phil, by the way." Phil said. It suited him.

"Dan, it's really Daniel though," I laughed slightly, causing Phil to chuckle in response.

"Well Daniel, I'll see you around?" He asked, pushing his glasses up a bit. Why did he have to look so attractive right now.

"Definitely" I mentally hit myself. Way to be laid back Dan.

"Good than." And with that, Phil was gone. I sighed, walking out of the library towards my street. This was going to be a long year.

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A/n - Hey! How was this? A bit longer than my normal books but hey? It's better lmao.
-ari