My Muted Music Love

Chapter Twenty

Chapter 20

Elizabeth

As soon as those words came out of my mouth, I immediately regretted them. Niall probably doesn't feel the same way and I don't want to pressure him into anything. He doesn't even know that I can talk! What if he expects me to talk to people now? What if he feels betrayed by the fact that I didn't tell him? He surprises me by smiling and kissing me softly.

"I love you too." He whispers before he then opens his eyes and backs away from me.

"Y-you can talk? Since when?" He asks with wide eyes.

"I've been practicing." I say in a quiet raspy voice. His face then changes into one of concern.

"Are you alright? Does it hurt to talk? Did you cough up blood again? Why didn't you tell me? I said that it wasn't a good idea." I smile and walk up to him a give him a light peck on the lips.

"I'm fine."  I say and he looks a little more relieved, but I can see that he's still concerned.

"Wait- did you say you love me?" I nod. "Like you're in love with me?" I nod again and he runs his hand through his hair and I give him a worried look. 

"I have to go." He says and gives me a kiss before running out into the rain. I bang my head against the side of the building  a few times. I knew I shouldn't of said it. Why do I have to be so stupid? I could've sworn he did love me back with the way he said it, but now I'm not so sure. I mean, why would he run away from me if he did? I think I just ruined our relationship. I let a few tears fall before I wipe them away and walk inside the orphanage.

"Elizabeth." I hear someone call my name and I turn around to see one of the nuns that help run the orphanage.

"I have something to tell you. I think you should sit down." She gestures to a chair and I walk towards it and sit down. "So I know you must of heard this a few times and I would like to apologize for the inconvenience, but there are just so many children being checked in that we have to send some of the older orphans to a different orphanage." My eyes widen as I try to prepare for what's about to come next.

"Well since you're seventeen and have moved to different orphanages before, we feel as though you can adapt to a different environment better than some of the others. So, we've decided to move you and some of the other orphans your age to another orphanage."

"Where is it?" I ask and the lady looked shocked.

"Oh! You can speak! How wonderful is God for-"

"Where is it?" I repeat and she regains her composure.

"It's in the next county over."

"A different county?" I ask feeling my eyes well up with tears.

"Yes, that's what I said." She replies seeming confused as to why I seem so sad. I nod my head and head to my room and climb into my bunk and start crying. I usually don't care when they tell me that I am going to a different orphanage, but this time is different. All the other times I didn't have Niall. I wasn't in love. What had I done to deserve such a fate?

I cry and cry and cry until I run out of tears. I am careful not to sob as I don't want to attract attention, but I guess my sniffles were loud enough as I was asked multiple times if I was okay in which I always answered with a nod. I decide not to tell Niall yet. I'm not sure how he feels about the I love you thing and I don't want to drop this on him.

I think about if there are anyways in which I would be able to stay and come up short. There isn't anything I could think of which means I will most likely have to leave Niall. The thought just brings another set of tears to my eyes and I continue to cry. Why? Why does this have to happen to me? Why when everything seems to be going right in my life does something bad have to happen?