Ride 4 me

Ch 19

Parking my car infront of the main warehouse on the Westside, I toyed with the thought of Nick and I being something serious. Nick wasn't like Damien or Deandre, they wanted power and control over the city and all connects that had a name. While Nick on the other hand he wanted a family to come home to, a support system cheering him on at his basketball games.

Part of me wanted that I desperately needed that, the feeling of a normal life. I mean don't get me wrong money was never everything to me before I moved back but now it's all I need to start over. Not having my parents humbled me in ways they never imagined it could. My mother faking her death was never meant to break me the way it did, and I completely unstood that when she came back she thought she was protecting me. I rested my forehead against my steering wheel, letting my thoughts rage in my mind. I wanted to be able to raise my future kids in a safe home nothing like the one I grew up in. I don't wanna wake up in the middle of the night in fear of some type of retaliation.

"You just gone sleep in the car or yo ass gone come in and see what yo pop's want?" Dre spoke as he tapped on my window's glass with his knuckles. I lifted my head up to give him the hint that I wanted him to go the fuck away. The sun beamed down onto his brown skin kissing every inch of his arms and face that stood out in the sunlight. Dressed in a baby blue shirt with ripped tan cargo shorts, carolina blue Jordan's. Despite the fact that his ass was one of the finest men Atlanta had to offer I kept my guard up and swung my car door open .

"You ain't gotta front like I wasn't just bending you over in the kitchen yesterday, fulfilling all of your cravings if you need more you know where I'm at that body was shaking for daddy remember that ." Dre spoke with confidence as he walked back into the warehouse.

This man must be crazy that was a one-time chance slip up Deandre knew for a fact the cookie jar was closed permanently! I know I'm always yelling never again then I find myself searching for my victoria secret lace panties some where in his bedroom, but this time was different I needed to stick to my guns and close up shop . Walking up the stairs I could hear my father negotiating a deal with a connect, I didn't recognize the person in his office so I stood out side the door. As I waited I caught Dre watching me carefully, it was as if he was looking to find answers through my body language. Realizing that strategy would be a dead end he went back to what ever he was keeping busy with at the moment.

"Rae come on in Mr.Xavier was just leaving, you and I have a few things that I need to talk to you about." When ever my father would mention we have things to talk about it was never money or drug's, it was always about who I was dating and why wouldn't I just get back with Dre.
"I know what you've been doing and you need to walk away Reign end this shit before it gets serious. You don't need anymore bullshit in your life listen try staying alone and being with Rae, love on Rae, cherish her admire yourself but baby stop dating these no grind running through their blood do boys."
My father spoke with sincerity in his voice he meant well I just wasn't here for it. Advice from a man who built his legacy on foundation of blood and bullshit was the last man on earth I needed to listen to.
" I suppose you want me to me to be with Deandre or no one at all huh? All Dre knows how to do is put him first, I want someone that can't sleep at night because he misses me! That's something Dre could careless about he literally will just find entertainment else where."I didn't mean to snap at my father but I was tired of being pushed into arm's that weren't safe for my mind ,body or let alone my god damn spirit. Storming out I found myself bumping into Dre almost losing my balance, I shook my head as I quickly made it out the building.

"That's all you ever do Rae!" Dre shouted as he followed me to my car, I stopped in my tracks to hear his bullshit before grabbing the handle of my car. "You so used to running you never stop to think about shit do you? Rae I know I fucked up believe me that's something that's keeping me up in the middle of the night. I love you and I mean that with every bone in my body, but this shit with you and Blaq gotta end before it's too late." He said as he looked over his shoulder at my father in the doorway.