BDSM 1: Damon Stavros

Chapter 18

CHAPTER 18

Time check 3:46 a.m. but still wide awake. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi mawala sa isip ko ang mga pinag usapan namin ni Damon. My brain is debating whether to believe him or not. Both sides have different views and points. Do I believe him? Kinda. Yes and no. Do I want to believe him? Seriously? I don't know. A part of me wants to believe everything he said, but at the same time I'm a bit confused because never in my entire life did I ever even think about that lifestyle. I didn't even know that something like that existed and then one day poof. Some rude, mysterious, handsome guy just bought me like a candy and asked me to be his submissive. Napahinga ako ng malalim. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.

Napatingin ako sa cellphone kong nasa bedside table ng tumunog ito. It's a message from an uknown number.

'Save this number. I'll pick you up tomorrow at 7:00 pm. Be ready.'

Hindi ko na kailangan pang hulaan kung sino to. I saved the number as Damon the Demon before replying 'ok'. Naghintay ako ng ilang minuto kung magrereply pa ito pero nang walang dumating ay pinatay ko na ang telepono bago ilagay sa bedside table.

Pagkalipas ng kalahating oras ay hindi parin ako makatulog. Pakiramdam ko'y sasabog ang utak ko sa sobrang nangyari sa iisang araw lang. Nahanap ako ni Damon matapos ang ilang araw kong pagtatago mula rito, pumunta kami ng clinic at nagpacheck up ako kahit sigurado akong wala naman akong nakakahawang sakit, nakilala ko ang pinsan ni Damon, nakasalubong ko ang mga dati kong kaclasse at ang panghuli ay ang nangyari sa opisina niya. Hindi ko maiwasang balikan ang mga pinag usapan namin kanina.

"Now that we're clear, at least I hope, I'd like us to start a new. I know our first impression towards each other is not really decent." Binuksan nito ang drawer ng lamesa niya at may kinuhang mga papeles mula rito. "As we were talking about, if you remember this is the contract I showed you last time. This is the real copy. I want you to sign it and once you do it'll finally be official. You will be permanently mine...until I say so ofcourse." Napatitig ako sa contrata. Again. Akala ko pagkatapos kong punitin yung isa hindi ko na to makikita pa. But destiny is really not on my side huh.

"What happens if I don't sign it? Anong gagawin mo?" Tanong ko dito habang nakatitig sa mga kulay abong mata niya.

"Well then, I won't force you." Sinserong ani nito habang lumalaban ng titigan.

"S-so that means...you'll let me go?" He smirked at my remark.

"I'm sorry to burst your bubble but it won't be that easy for you. You might be forgetting that I bought you. Submissive or not, you're still my responsibility. If you don't sign might as well send you to my mother's care and be a maid." So wala parin pala akong kawala.

Habang tumatagal ay hindi namamalayang nalulunod na pala ako sa malalalim niyang titig. His deep grey eyes. Para akong hinihigop papasok sa hindi malamang dimension. Napakagandang titigan ng mga ito, parang maliliit na napakaganda at mamahaling marmol. Sa hindi malamang dahilan ay napatango ako.

"Pipirma ako." Hindi man lang ito nagulat sa sinabi ko na para bang inaasanhan na nito ang magiging sagot ko samantalang ako ay kamuntikan ko ng sampalin ang bunganga ko sa mga salitan lumabas mula rito.

"Very well then." Binigyan ako nito ng ballpen. Napahinga ako ng malalim at napalunok na nakatingin sa contrata. "After you sign, you'll have nothing to worry about. Let me remind you that you have the power. You decide everything. You have a say to everything we do. Do you trust me?"

Mula sa mga papeles ay nabaling ang tingin ko sa kanya at muling nalunod sa mga mata niya. Unexpectedly I calmed down, at ang mas nakakagulat pa dun ay wala akong makapang pagdududa sa kanya. Do I trust him? No...maybe. I guess. Yes. I can't believe it. I...actually do.

"Yes." Napangiti ito sa sinabi ko. Nampucha! Sheeet makalaglag panti bes. Wafuuu. Ay! Pakshet Paris hindi ito oras para lumandi.

Pagkatapos kong pumirma ay napatitig ako sa pangalan kong nakasulat. Parang yun na lang talaga ang kulang at hinihintay ng papel para makumpleto.

"If you have any questions, you're always free to ask." Ani nito habang marahang hinahaplos ang kaliwang hita ko. It's soothing I kinda...like it.

"I have one right now."

"Tell me honey." Namula ang pisngi ko sa tawag nito sa akin. Parang kanina lang napakaseryoso nito tapos ngayon...ahmm sweet?

"A-ahmm ito lang ba yung mga rules na dapat kong sundin?"

"Of course not." He chuckle. Pakshet gwapo talaga. "Those are the basics. As you can see tho I haven't yet modified the rules you wanted to chenge last time but we'll do that eventually. Some you will know by the duration of this relationship and let me know if you don't like some rules so we could change them and lastly others will be unwritten, like you'll be doing them because it will come out naturally."

"Oh... ahmm I have another one."

"Shoot."

"W-will I be the only, you know... ahmm like are we e-exclusively for a-ahmm. Nothing never mind." Nahihiya akong napayuko at madiin na napapikit. Gosh this is embarrassing. My eyes shot open when I felt his index finger on my chin.

"Look at me." Hindi ako nakinig at nanatiling nakatungo. "Madison." May babala sa boses nito at alam kong hindi ko siya maaaring suwayin. Unti unti akong tumingin sa kanya.

"Look, if we want this to work you'll have to cooperate with me okay?" Tumango lang ako dito. "You said you trust me right?" Tumango ako ulit. "Then I want you to open up to me. Always. Never hesitate to tell me what's bothering you or to ask me questions that way I know what's the problem. I don't like liars too. So if you don't want to be punished the best thing to do is to always be honest with me. Are you okay with that?" Tumango ako. "Madison speak. Use that beautiful mouth of yours." May diin sa pagkakasabi nito.

"Y-yes." Nakatitig lang ito sa akin na parang may hinihintay. Then something popped out from my mind. "Yes s-sir."

"Good girl." My heart thumped at the complement. "Now what was your question?"

"I-I, will I be your only s-submissive." I can't believe I'm actually accepting my fate as his submissive.

"Of course sugar. The only one. Thank you for being honest" And that answer was enough for me.

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Hmmm para sa mga humihingi ng updates. Sa totoo lang muntik ko nang hindi ituloy to eh but I didn't have the courage to do so, nanghihinayang ako lalo na sa mga nag aabang ng ud dahil alam ko yung feeling ng bitin ahaha. But practically... I'm not the same as the girl i was 3 years ago anymore. Full of ideas. I just kinda lost all of them lalo na at wala naman talagang plot tong story ko. I feel so lost. Specially dahil go with the flow lang talaga ako. This story has been going for three years now and I'm really disappointed to how it turned out to be... abandoned. I just lost the will to write one day and I just stopped. I hope to get my mind back to writing, it would really be nice if i finished at least one book. Saka ko lang talaga dinadagdagan yung chapters kapag sobrang stress na ako sa school and I want to relax. I don't know when the next ud will be. I hope it's soon too :( help me