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Confusion

When you don't even know what to do with your life, you don't know where you stand. A million thoughts run through your head and there's so many things you wish to do but yet you don't know where to start or how to do them, you don't even know how to get there.

Finding your way in life. Its weird, because you know the potential you've got but you don't know if its the right time in God's will or if your just lacking... Sucks when you feel that some are trying to control your life but you don't know if you're imagining it or if its real.

The unfaithfulness of it all, its tyring and it makes you feel like something is tugging at your heart every time. Desitions that need to be made and yet you can't seem to let go of things you should and embrace the ones you keep.

I'm probably not makin any sense but I know I should let God guide me according to my Christian beliefs but It's just hard sometimes when you don't what what life will bring you.

Also, Seeing all these bad things happening around you and you can't do anything to stop it, I don't know why but it just sets heavy in my heart because I care so much. I hate seing inocent people suffer. All these people robbing and killing and doing carjackings its just too much to handle. It also feels like the world wants you to live in fear all the time. And those fears are stupid.

I just wish Evil hadn't risen so much. It really does pain me. And I trust in a God that is just and what ever he does is for the greater and I understand that. But truth is.... You don't know when ur time will really come. It hurts so much. I uderstand because I have seen it happen that everything in the bible needs to happen, it has all been written, but it doesn't make it any easier to see it happening right before your eyes. It really does suck and hurts when it says that because of others wrong doings the love of many will fade.

Sometimes it just makes you want to give up, but I know I must stand and keep going, I gotta stay courageous, I'll try my best to keep holding on and not let go.

I'm just gonna go ahead and say that I feel sad, melancholic idk what else to say. I hate this fealing.