Playas Rock: A Kirko Bangz & Chris Brown Story #Wattys2015

Chapter 18: Used To Be

'Its killin me cuz I jus got so damn close to you

And everybody callin tellin me to stay strong

And it's the reason why I always wanna be alone

You get to love a person then you turn around and they gone...

I GUESS YOUR GOIN HOME'

Kirko's P.O.V.

I was at practice running over game plans for us before our game later. I was feeling at peace because it's like as soon as I step out on the court nothing else matters. My head clears of all distractions & I can focus on nothing but the game. It helps that i'm pretty good at my game too. However, today was different.

I had this feeling every since I woke up that something wasn't right but I didn't know what. I thought it'd go away on its own but it didn't. For the moment though I just pushed it aside to focus on practicing. Practice was light though so we wouldn't tire ourselves out before the game. So I was about to go back to my dorm & take a nap when I heard someone come into the locker room.

I looked up to see Tyler walking over to me. She smiled at me, "Hey Captain", she greeted. I returned her smile, "What's good TyTy?", I responded tying my shoe but I saw her roll her eyes out the corner of my eyes. She smirked, "Came to check on you. You was torn down last night", she said. I sighed, "Don't start", I mumbled standing up & grabbing my bag.

I led us out the locker room to the gym to leave. She didn't say anything until we was in the gym. "You took your shirt off & started singing "Dance Like A Stripper". If it wasn't for your boys grabbing your drunk ass off the stage you probably would've stripped ass naked", she said. I groaned, "Damn, let it go", I mumbled.

"I'm 'bout to hit the club & dance like a stripper", she sang & started stroking. I chuckled, "Stop, you don't look right", I told her. She laughed, "Then I looked just like you last night. Nigga, you tried to roll me up", she teased. I smirked, "Shiiid, like you didn't like it?", I teased back. She smirked back, "No, I loved it! What woman wouldn't want a free roll up from a drunk off the ass dude. I mean bitch must be crazy not to", she responded sarcastically.

I rolled my eyes, "You know you loved it. You probably had wet dreams about me after it", I responded. She giggled, "Not on your life playa. Anyways, I need them notes back I let you borrow", she said. I nodded, "Walk with me to mine then because i'll be damned if I bring them to you halfway across campus", I responded. She nodded, "Cool with me but hurry yo' ass up I gotta go to class in a bit", she said walking passed me. I just raised a brow & followed her to my dorm.

When we got to my dorm I saw my cousin standing by the door on his phone. He hung up when me & Tyler approached him. "Yo' Kirk we need to talk", he said. I was about to ask him is we could do it later but the look on his face told me it couldn't wait. I sighed unlocking the door before turning to Tyler.

"Can you go put my bag up for me & wait for me in my room? I won't be long", I told her. She stared at my cousin for a few seconds before nodding & taking my back into my room. I waited until I heard my door close before redirecting my attention to him. He was looking down at the ground like he couldn't bare to look at me or someshit. "Ok, what's up?", I asked.

He shook his head glancing up at me before looking back down & folding his arms across his chest. He sighed, "Kirk sit down mayne", he said. I raised a brow, "Nah, i'm-", he cut me off. "Sit the fuck down!", he snapped glaring at me. I glared back, "May-", he cut me off again.

"Mayne, Kirk sit down please before I tell you, please?", he sighed. I wanted to argue back but I just sat down like he said. We just stared at each other for a few seconds before his eyes started watering. 'Ok, what the fucks going on?', I thought. "She's gone Kirk", he mumbled as tears started rolling down his face.

Although he mumbled it I heard him loud & clear. She. She's gone. As soon as he said 'she' I knew he meant our aunt but I was in denial. "Mayne wha-", he cut me off. "He killed her & himself after. She's gone Kirk. I'm so sorry", he said, voice pained.

I swallowed hard before standing up with a blank face. "Thanks for telling me. I'm tired mayne & I got a game in a few hours so i'm gone take a nap", I told him. He nodded wiping his face with his shirt before we headed to the door. Once at the door he hugged me & left. I broke as soon as I closed the door.

I couldn't nor did I want to stop the tears. It hurt so much mayne. That was my aunt. She was like my mom to me & we were so close. I can't believe she's gone. That shit hit me like a tidal wave.

I grabbed the nearest thing to me & threw it against the wall. I don't know what it was but I guess it was something glass from the way it shattered. I just kept picking up shit & throwing it until I had nothing else at my fingertips to throw. Then I started punching the wall & the whole time I was crying. I heard a voice calling out my name.

It was like I was in a trance but whoever it was broke me out of it. I stopped putting one last hole in the wall before falling to my knees crying. I felt arms go around my shoulders & someone hugging me. "It's ok Kirk. Shh, calm down", they whispered in my ear. I looked up to see Tyler & she just smiled sadly at me hugging me tighter.

"I-she's gone. I-I can't be-she can't be", I stuttered. She didn't say anything just held me. She didn't go to the rest of her classes & I missed the game. She held me for the rest of the day & spent the night with me. People came to check on me, more like see why I missed the game, & blew up my phone but I ignored them all.

I didn't want to be bothered. I just wanted to be left alone but Tyler wouldn't leave me. Whenever someone came knocked at the door she'd tell them I was sick. When my roommate came back & started flipping shit she went handled him for me before coming right back to my side. As much as I wanted to be left alone I was grateful that she stayed with me.

«I know his aunt passing was old but I felt like putting it in the story. I had wrote this happening in another story was writing a while back but I never did anything with it so bam! Here it is. Vote & thanks! Anyways, deuces young padawans!»