Sometimes being alone can be good. But realizing it, isn't fun. You can tell that you're alone when your friends are off without you. And you just think maybe it's meant to be that way. Maybe people just don't like being your friend. Maybe they don't like you for you. Those kinds of things get in my head when I'm alone and I just shut down. I stop talking. I just make things easier for them by not trying too force myself into their conversations. But sometimes when I realize it. They forget all about me. It's like I don't exist. Or maybe they do remember but I'm not important. I'm just the loser friend that they always forget about. They remember me when I decide to show my face or say something. I know for a fact best friends talk to you naturally not when you have to make them talk to you. But the truth is being alone and forgotten really hurts. I just want to cry. Not being included. Forgotten. It hurts like a dozen knives going into your back. Sometimes I just want it all to end.
