I'm sorry //adopted by pete wentz//

Face down

Not all chapters will have song lyrics or song names.
The first few chapters will probably drag on a little. Sorry if I missed any grammer, spelling mistakes or repeat things. Let's get on with
the story
This first chapter will definitely be a little cringy but please stay with me

No point of view
Phoenix Elizabeth Evans is a brunette/ dirty blonde 13 year old girl who is small and abnormally skinny she is beat and abused physically, emotionally, and mentally. Her parents buy her a ticket to who knows where. however, little did she know she meant her new forever family on the flight as she sits next to a world known bassist.

Phoenix  Elizabeth Evans

I rush to get home as soon as possible I'm already late and don't want my punismemt to be any worse then it already is. See you wouldn't think running a few minutes late from school or getting a high 'B', which might I add was the highest grade in the class,  would result in much punishment. And it wouldn't in most families but its different for me. My so called parents never wanted me in the first place so any 'excuse' the punish me they will take.
I don't mean a simple slap on the head, no electronics, and no leaving the house. I mean brutal hits and slaps,  something that makes my incredibly pale skin purple in places, whatever can make me drip blood and whimper in pain. Anything and everything they can hurt me with they'll use.
I get home to an eerily (that's the word right) silence. The old wooden door creeks as I open it and makes me curse under my breath because it may make me known. I walk in quietly expecting someone yelling at me and a bottle being thrown at me, but nothing comes. I sigh and take in a breath muttering in a semi loud normal voice "I'm home".
I here my mother squeal in joy? And come into the main room
"Pack your bags Pheonix" she let's out
"What.. Why where are we going.. For how long" I mutter quickly hoping not to get backlash from saying 'what'.
"Oh honey" she says in a menacing voice.
"We're not going anywhere... Its where you are going. To answer the question I don't know nor do I care your father and I bought you the cheapest ticket to.. Anywhere really. Go pack your bags and say goodbye to your brothers and your so called friends. As you won't be coming back to us. Also don't speak to me like that after all I am your mother. " after that she walks away but not before she slaps me hard, her rings tearing my flesh open with little beads of blood pouring out.
"Also once your done come down so we can have a little... Fun.... For old times sake" I hear her call out. I know what that means.
"Yes ma'am" I quickly call out knowing it'll be worse if I don't.
I guess I should start packing seeing as I really don't have a say in the matter. I'm only thirteen, soon fourteen, and they're sending me away with no where to go, no where to stay, where anything could happen. I guess I'm old enough to fly alone I'll just say I'm going to visit family if anyone ask anything.
I don't know how to feel its like that everything shut down and I just feel numb. Empty.
I go up stairs to my plain room and start packing. Though I'm treated like actual shit, a simple way to put it, they made sure I had enough clothing, to make them look well and like good parents, enough makeup to cover up everything along with bracelets, a cheap lap top for school purposes, and a phone so they could yell at me anytime,anywhere. I never got much food I just make it for them, not that I want to eat any way. No amount of makeup and clothes will ever make me pretty or look good in anyway I have come to know this and am told it everyday but my parents and the general people at school.
I roll up all my clothes as small as they will go and put them in leaving a pair of pajamas and a pair of clothes out for tonight and tomorrow. That and my accessories take up one suitcase. I put all my make up, leaving out bits for tomorrow, in another along with my collection of my favorite books inside there is still room left so I put in a few of my sketchbooks and art supplies in it. That leaves just enough room for my childhood stuffed animal and my blanket that my brothers both gave to me. I'll miss them, they were always good to me and never hurt me. The oldest taught me how to stitch myself up and how to heal my wounds quickly and the other taught me my love for music. Also, I put my picture album with mostly pictures of my brothers and I but with a few before mom and dad went 'crazy' and started hurting me, and my first aid kit that had anything I need with it. Lastly, before I forget, I put my life's saving in there, i never spent much of my money just incase something ever happened good thing since this is happening, some was for college but now I'll probably need it all to survive. I'll fit my everything that's in my bathroom that I'll need in the two of the bags tonight after I use it. So soaps, feminine products, my mamy different medications, and my self harm tools, you know blades and lighter and stuff... yeah.
(A/n wtf is wrong with me that sounds so awkward I could have put it in another way)
Then I move to my carry on stuff I'll put my phone, charger, and headphones in, in the morning now I put a few pencils, a small sketch book, a regular book, my laptop and charger, but most importantly I put my precious ukulele in its hard case and that hanging out of my bag.
I lean that against my old, rickety bed and text my few friends to meet me at the park down the street as I have bad news.
~* fast forwards to the park*~
We all meet by the old oak tree that was unofficially named "ours" after sending so many years sitting under it and in it. We're all here, we meaning myself, amber, Rachel, and Anna we have a few other 'friends' but it didn't seem right to invite them as we don't talk much . I look at these girls with tears in my eyes they have been my everything since I could remember, we've gone through everything together, they have help me so much, they are basically the only people I talk to besides my 'family' and the occasional teacher. They see my tears and the new cut across my face I couldn't bother to cover, and know its bad. Simultaneously we all sit down. I decide to just say it and not wait or I know it'll hurt more.
"I- I'm moving-- well th-th-they are 'giving' me up . " I manage to stutter out. They all go into shock.
"WHAT! NO! they can't do that you can't leave m-us" Anna, the outgoing one of the group shouts first woth tears about to fall. Anna and I have been through alot together and are so close when together around our friends there is no way to stop us, we're partners, we think at the same level and can practically read each others minds. Together we are a sarcastic and sassy bunch who pretend to be invincible though we're really not, we're each others wall can go through anything together and have, I'm closest to her and amber. People say Anna and I are twins 
The next thing I know is I'm pulled into a huge hug of crying teens, I can imagine anyone looking right now would think were crazy but I don't care all I care about is these four girls infront of me. After a few minutes I said "this is not the end we'll talk as much as possible, we can Skype, I will see you again if that's the last thing i do.
"I know but until then remembered us and every-everything we've done I we love you with everything we have stay safe" amber sniffles and tightly hugs my fragile figure. We've been through alot with eachother and act like the dumbest people together but never stop laughing no matter through guy (her)  troubles bullying and all of that I love her and these girls with everything I wouldn't be able to froget them in millions of years so that's what I said.
"I love you girls more then anything I could never froget you in a million years" right after that is said I'm pulled to Rachel in the tightest hug she could muster.
"I love you, you were my first friend and you make my memories so happy I'm always a call away no matter what" she whispers to me.
I love them so much they put up with my emoness and all my shit.
"This is not good bye this is see you again my lovelies we're all only a call away stay safe and remember me as k will be back one day. Tell the others tell anyone you want. In the end I'll do it all again your all my best friends or sisters and I couldn't ask for anyone better. Thanks for the memories they were great. see you next time I love you" ( a/n american beauty/American psycho will not be out yet) we all share one last hug and part our ways knowing if we stay back any longer it will make it worse. Now to say by to my brothers it won't be as bad, sure I'll miss them and they taught me things but we were never really close like I am to those girls. I'll go stop by there apartment as its on my way home-well my old home.
~* to the apartment*~
I knock on the door three times showing its me I hear a faint 'come in pheonix' so I do so I don't hesitate to go to the living room turn off the TV and look at them with tears kn my eyes once more. Ugh to many emotions for one day make it stop.
I don't skip a beat and say.
"I'm moving, well being sent away I'm here to say goodbye and I love you"
The both get up with out a word and hug me. Scott the oldest then said
"We love you kiddo don't froget that keep drawing, wrighting, and singing. Do what makes you happy call to tell us where you are and that you are safe, check in often. Find a good family please I'm sorry there's nothing we can do." I nod and I promise him. Carter then comes up and hugs me and kisses my head
"Don't let anyone hurt you ever again please find a safe and loving family I feel it in my heart that you will, keep doing everything you love, keep the music playing and the pencil moving call as often as possible. I will see you again. I love you so much." I look at them now crying saying thank you. I'm them handed to hoodies, ashirt and cologne, they both use the same type.
"Incase you ever need us were one call away and if you miss us here's these" Scott said.
"I should be off before it gets late. I love you both to the moon and back I'll miss you so much. Take care of the girls for me please. This is not goodbye just see you later" I kiss there cheeks and walk away before it gets worse again.
Trigger warning talking about abuse
I get home waiting for a beating. I already know its going to be bad. As soon as I walk through the door I get hit with a glass bottle in the stomach and fall to the ground. If would've been my head but they want to make sure no one ask questions tomorrow so they can get rid of me. After hours of suffering and them yelling at me about how ugly, fat, dumb, and useless I am I finally had enough I'm leaving tomorrow any ways so why not.
Abuse warning over
"I'm sorry I came home late.  I'm sorry I'm not my brothers. I'm sorry I don't get all the right grades. I'm sorry I'm not smart enough. I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough. I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment. I'm sorry that apparently do nothing right. I'm sorry I'm a mistake. I'm sorry that I'm ugly. I'm sorry I'm so fucked up. I'm sorry I was a mistake. I'm sorry I'm not good an good enough daughter. I'm so damn sorry I exist, that I was born. I'm sorry for every fucking thing." I yell loudly with force. Then as they walk away I pull myself up.

I make it upstairs and then pass out.
Trigger warning self harm
Its 9:30 when I awake I got to the bathroom and reach into my cabinet thinking tonights a blade night. I don't usually cut my wrist sometimes I do just not often that's very noticeable, too bad I didn't know that at first as now I have several deep scars now I never cut deep there. Instead, I cut my thighs, hips and lower stomach. Burnings a little hit of a different story I don't like using fire so I don't I just use other hot materials.
I sit down and take the cold silver metal in between my fingers and squeeze my eyes shut and cut my thighs a few times not a lot and not deep just enough to feel it.
Trigger warning over
I go in the shower clean myself up, then bandage my legs. And re bandage a few cuts on my arms that opened during the abuse, take my insomnia pills, leaving depression and anxiety pills on the counter for tomorrow, pack the rest of the bottles, the blades, lighter, hair irons, and my soaps and feminine products change into pajamas and fall into a restless sleep thinking of what the plane ticket in my bag has in store for me.
~* authors note *~
So... Do you like it? How was it?
Sorry if it drags on a bot the first few chapters will be that way so the story can devolpe. Stay safe and healthy, don't do anything bad to yourself please I'm here of you ever need me. So long and goodnight(or morning but let me have my mcr references) lovelies.
*~* cailyn