I'm sorry //adopted by pete wentz//

Have you ever want to disappear?

IM SO SORRY THIS IS A FILLER IVE BEEN CAUGHT UP WITH SCHOOL AND JUST LIFE IN GENERAL PLEASE FORGIVE ME  AND GIVE ME IDEAS ABBOUT WHAT TO WRITE!!!

~*later that day*~

Pete wentz 

We sit around the dinner table eating the meal Meagan bought and cooked,  listening to Saint babble on about some story. It feels nice having a home cooked meal with family, I just wish Bronx could be here too. Phoenix is just pushing her food around nibbling now and then, watching Saint tell his story, giggling every now and then. I'm worried about her, she needs to eat, she already got a small amount on her plate to begin with. I just have to hope its nothing.

*later because I have no fucking clue what else to write*

Its after dinner, which Phoenix insisted cleaning up for,  and we had already put Saint to bed. Nix went to shower and meagan and I are talking over plans for introducing Phoenix to the rest of the bands.

"Just invite them all over Saturday for a 'meeting' and make it a surprise for both. I'll distract Phe all day." Meagan states like is obviously. I nod and text everyone. They all agree and its done with.

Phoenix Elizabeth Wentz

Its after dinner and I'm currently pacing my room. Its monday so the messages from kids at my old school aren't so...  Pleasant.

Xxx-xxx-xxxx
Oh you weren't here today. Thays great hopefully your gone for good, if not make it that way.

Yyy-yyy-yyyy
stupid bitch probably killed yourself. Hey you did good for once.

Ggg-ggg-gggg
Thank God your fucking emo self is probably dead. If youe not take a hint.

(A/n I honestly hate writing this it's so cringey and horrible I'm so sorry)

Atleast I won't have to deal with them face to face anymore.  But that doesn't stop me from the overwhelming wave of sadness and anxiety that comes over me.  I try to distract myself. I walk over to my desk and open up the website I do schooling on. Might as well do something useful.

~*  three hours later * ~

Theres a knock on the door as I work out a quadratic equation. The concept is easy but some equations juat go on to long.

"come in" I mumble, hearing the door open.

"What are you doing?" Pete questions coming up behind me.

"School. Qudractics specifically" I state  continuing working.

"Well stop because first of all its 9:00 and secondly why are you already doing school?" He states obviously confused on why I would be doing it.

There was a few seconds of confused silence before I speak.  "... Because its required by law.. " I speak obviously. He walks over and closes my laptop, it saves by itself,  and spins my chair facing him.

"You get to spend the whole day with me tomorrow at the studio, get some rest." He says happily pulling me up. I nod and do as I'm told going to bed.
"Good night nix" he states whispering as he kisses my forehead and walks out turning off the lights.

"Goodnight" I quietly speak hearing the door shut behind him.  I stare at the ceiling thinking about how much my life has changed in just a few days. How I'm a caring couples child and don't have to be worried about being beaten. All I have to worry about is covering old and new scars, and that they won't send me back. Turning to my phone I put on soft music closing my eyes as I hope that my life will get better and be worth living, that I'll learn to be comfortable and free, and most importantly to be happy. 

*morning*

I awake with another nightmare but this one not too traumatizing. I also slept longer then I did yesterday, which is good. Its 9:30 but I'm usually up so much earlier its surprising how comfortable I feel here. My body used to subconsciously wake me up early so I didn't have to wake up to pain from my parents. Somehow my subconscious knows I'm safe here and that Pete and Meagan will not hurt me. I roll out of my oh so comfortable bed and head over to my closet humming some tune. I change and make my way over to the bathroom brushing the birds nest that is my hair. I stop and contemplate myself in the mirror. My cheekbones stick out and my dark under eyes stand out even more against my sickly pale skin. Scars, cuts, and bruises stand out on every surface of skin that shows. My long, dead, blondish brown hair goes to around my waist and sits there natty as ever. My clothes are baggy, more then they would be if I was normal sized. All I see is an ugly, small, depressed girl trying to make it through each day. 

I grab make up and go in on my face trying to go light but covering up any cut, bruise, or scar that is visible. I can't let them know. At least not yet. I clean up my mess and look into the mirror one more time. Sighing I turn out the light and head downstairs, trying to remember where to go. I somehow find my way to the kitchen just as Pete seemed to be heading out. 

"Good morning, I was just about to come and get you." he says backing back into the kitchen. I slightly smile and nod in response. 
"eat" he points to the cereal and coffee on the table. I sigh to myself. I knew I would have too and there's no way I can  get out of it. I make my way over and start eating trying not to think about it and trying to ignore my inner voice yelling at me.

" Saint is at daycare and Meagan is at a meeting so, as I said last night, its you and me today, well and the guys at the studio. That's cool with you right?" he says finishing his coffee.

I swallow and nod. " of course it is" I smile. I finished my cereal, clean up, and we were out the door to the studio.

~*authors note*~

I FEEL SO UNBELIEVINGLY BAD FOR NOT UPDATING IN FOREVER!!! .... BUT OMG WE ARE ALMOST AT A THOUSAND READS LAST TIME I UPDATED WE WERE BARELY AT 500 LIKE WOWOW GUYS THANKS SOOOO MUCH. but seriously I'm so sorry loves, how are you, how have you been. I started school like five weeks ago its kinda fun my bestfriend is in all of my classes but my bestfriend who I'm emo with isn't in any sadly. I went to Boston to visit family and saw panic! which was fucking amazing. Did any of you get to see panic! live on the pftw tour? ... or what concerts have you been to/ want to go too I am curious. My birthday was on Wednesday so that was fun, My friends and I almost defeated one of the hardest escape rooms in the US so that was fun. okay ill stop rambling now lol. Please interact with me I'm lonely. So long and good night my loves.

~Cailyn <3