Choices and Mistakes

4.

Liam’s POV

 

                It’s been a week since I’ve spoken to Sophia. I’ve tried texting, I tried calling, but she has yet to respond. I’ve sat in my room, going out a couple of times to eat, shower, or go to the bathroom. The boys believe that I haven’t been drinking, but I’ve gone through at least three full bottles of vodka a day. I go through my Instagram, and see pictures fans have tagged of me, I see pictures tagged of Danielle and I, Tom and I, the boys and I, and even Sophia and I. Feeling alone, I dial a number that I haven’t called in a long while.

 

                “Hello, Liam? What’s wrong is there something going on?” I hear Danielle’s voice ask worriedly. I close my eyes for a second, “Y—yes, yes there is something wrong…” I slur slowly.

 

                “What is it, are you okay?” She asks once again. I sigh, “N—no, I’m not okay. I—I miss you.” I say. Danielle pauses for a second, “Are you drunk?” She says louder.

 

                “Maybe…Danielle, I miss you…” I say once again. She pauses once again, “Liam you can’t do this to me.” She says.

 

                “Do what? I—I can’t miss you? You think I’m lying?” I say in a hurt voice.

 

                “I didn’t say that Liam, I don’t think you’re lying, because some days I miss you too. But…” She says, but stops.

 

                “But what?” I ask wanting to know what she has to say.

 

                “But you can’t keep on toying with my heart. I have feelings too, I know what happened between you and Sophia.” She says.

 

                “It was a st—stupid choice Danielle, y—you know I’m not that kind of guy.” I say in one breath

 

                “B—but you are Liam. Before we split the second time, I knew you were texting her. She started falling for you, and you fell for her. And made up some lame excuse for us to break up.” I hear Danielle say, I can tell she was crying.

 

                “I’m not some rebound girl you can just call up for a quick hook-up, then break my heart once again. You’re a good guy Liam and you deserve to be happy, but so do I. For the longest while, I thought I didn’t deserve that because I wasn’t good enough for you, but I realized I have to stop feeling sorry for myself.” She confesses.

 

                “D—did I really make you feel that way? That you weren’t…that you weren’t good enough for me?” I ask as I suddenly sober up.

 

                “I—I don’t know…” She says quietly.

 

                “Danielle, don’t you dare lie to me.” I say sternly. She sniffles, “Yes…I’ve felt that way half way through our relationship, the second time.” She cries.