Fixing My Heart ➣ Sam Pottorff

Chapter 12

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Song Of Chapter "Stay With Me," by Sam Smith

Gabriela:

This was the first time in a while have been up  and doing things, yes i have taken showers in my depression which relaxed me even more. Today was Sam's birthday event, which after everyone begging me to go, i finally let lose and said I'd go, but only for the fans, the o2lers how Jc calls them. i took a shower, setting my curling iron up on Connor's mirror that was leaning against a wall. I curled every piece of my hair to my enjoyment, putting in hair spray before getting up and doing my makeup.

wow, putting on that makeup made me feel insecure about myself yet when i didn't have it on i felt very closed and more insecure. beauty lies beneath everything they said, they also said being a girl was easy.

lifes a lie ha.

i finished what i thought all  i needed to put on my face, going through my suitcase that hasn't been open since like a month ago and picked out nice ripped black and dark blue jeans along with my jack Daniels crop top. i placed a white daisy flower crown around my curls, fixing my bands before going through my purse, finding my smaller purse.

wow, I'm really weird, i have two purses in one. sue me.

i placed my wallet, ear buds, camera, and license in the purse, grabbing my phone and taking a mirror selfie. which can i say i looked pretty in, putting the caption

"sorry i haven't been on lovelies, been going through a rough time but i  back for good now. thank you all for the support. xoxo, Gabriela ♡✖♡"

putting it on both Instagram and twitter before closing out both apps. i took a deep breathe, opening the door and stepping foot out. i walked down the stairs carefully, walking to the kitchen where everyone was not surprisingly at.

Everyone as in all of the boys, Alexa, Andrea, Jenn, Rebecca, Teala, Sawyer,jack,Anthony, Andrew, and not shocking acacia.

they all gasped when they saw me, me just standing their awkwardly.

"you gonna hug me *clicks tongue* or nah?"

everyone laughed and formed a group hug which Sawyer had taken a great shot in fact of all of us, except acacia who was rolling her eyes at me.

i missed everyone, i missed my old life.

we all  grew apart, except i noticed Sam had a great gaze on me, which i had ignored.  i felt lifeless without his powerful and protecting arms around me, me kinda wanting them back  around my waist. i walked to Connor, hugging him from behind while laying my head on his back, he didn't do anything, since he knew it was me. Me and Connor have become really really close, especially since he was there when not even jc was. 

i let my arms fall from Connor, going to the kitchen to grab a bottle of water. "Can we talk?" i turned and saw Sam. "There's nothing to talk about," i said opening my water and drinking some. "Gabriela there's so much we need to talk about," "Between us there's nothing, go fuck around with acacia," "you know its not like that," "damn well its that, there's nothing else of why we had broken up, so there." i stopped talking to him and he fell quiet, along with everyone else. "I'm just. i gotta go bye." i said turning to everyone and leaving the house.

I really don't know where I'm going, but I'll find somewhere. i kept walking till i found myself at the turning point of Los Angeles. It was beautiful, seeing all the cars pass beneath my feet. It was peaceful and i loved it alot. I'm thinking of keeping everything lowkey again, i don't want the boys knowing where i am. I called one of my old friends Taylor, asking her if i can go back to Florida with her. "Of Course! I missed you so much boo!" "Ha i missed you too. And i dunno i think its best for me to go back to Florida for a while," I said, trying my best not to sound weak.

"Alrite when are you gonna leave California?" "Today, I'll look at the booking dates." "Okay give me a call before you leave, seen ya soon. byeeeee," i hung up, grabbing my bag from the floor.   also went on Instagram, taking a picture of the view and placing those white borders around it. The caption saying ,

"If you all didn't know yet. Me and Sam aren't together. We just thought it would be better if we weren't together, no one cheated or anything like that so don't start making rumors please. I also like to say I'm leaving California today, i don't know how long it will be but i know its for the best, also not because of me and Sam, right now I'm gonna try finding what will make me happiest. So i think moving back to Florida is best, i love you all very very much, thank you for everything, and never ever give up. I kinda need a hero, Nightingale~Demi Lovato , goodbye all," 

I posted the picture on Instagram, walking back to my house and packing my things.

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"Baby girl please don't cry or else you'll make me cry," Angelieh had tears in her eyes, about to fall. I don't want to leave her trust me but its for the best. I hugged her tightly, for a good 10 minutes before we parted. I wiped her tears with my thumb, giving her a small kiss on her cheek. "I'll be back baby girl, don't you worry.," She nodded, kissing my cheek and holding my hand. I hugged my tia & tio goodbye, well i shouldn't say goodbye because that means forever. Okay a bye hug. I hugged them both tightly, thanking them for taking care of me for almost a year. they nodded kissing me on either cheek. Angelieh wouldn't let go of my finger, as she held on tightly.

"Baby girl i promise I'll be back, ill call you everyday i promise," She nodded crying on my shoulder, a few tears falling from my eyes. I walked out of the house, getting into the taxi and waving one last bye.

Let's see what Florida leaves me at.

The taxi car pulled into the airport, me getting down. I paid the man before leaving to get inside. After getting checked, i waited quietly for the plane to say "Now Boarding," I couldn't help but hear this squeaky little sound, like if someone is walking. I turned around and yet all the boys except Sam were there. They all had tears in their eyes, me running to Jc and hugging him. I let go and watched as a few tears fell from the 5 of their eyes. "Why do you have to go," Connor asked, having a pouty face. "Its for the best, I'll be back, i don't know when but I'll be back," i said, hugging him very tightly, giving him a kiss on his cheek. I then hugged Ricky,  Kian, & Trevor, giving them all kisses on their cheeks. Last but certainly not least, i hugged Jc. Very very tightly. I didn't want to let go, i barely found out he was my brother and I'm saying goodbye..

It breaks my heart, it truly does.

"Now Boarding Flight 420 From Los Angeles to Miami, Florida Now Boarding,"

"That's me," i said, wiping my tears. They all had Teddy bears, me hugging them all tightly, asking a guy to take a picture of us. "I promise i won't forget any of you," I said, pinky promising them all.

"Last Call Flight 420 From Los Angeles to Miami, Florida," i hugged them all one last time, taking the Teddy bears and going. I waved goodbye, watching them all wave back, bringing tears to my eyes. "Those are your best friends?" the flight lady who checked my ticket and Passport asked. "More like my brothers, i don't want to leave them but its for the best." I said, her nodding and handing the ticket and passport back to me.

I waved bye one last time, them waving back with red eyes.

i love them all so much, i really hope they know that.

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mwahahaha i made Gabriela move >;) the next chapters are gonna be gooooooddd lol Vote for thid chapter please! tanks /.\ lol

xoxo,

sincerely yours truly