Who Am I?

The Past~

        I'm Jen, just a not average girl that goes through things like problems just like you do!  I'm not perfect or an "ideal" woman at all. I'm okay with that.  I've changed a lot when you have looked at my now gone and pure past.

       When I was younger, I was happy and free like most.  I just miss those times where you can make mistakes and run wild without the judgement because you were so young.  The ability to run wild and free without judgement is gone now.  That does not mean you can't run wild and free, but just be ready for the backlash.

       I remember in second grade I thought this dude was cute so I kissed his desk (lmao why, little Jen ,why).  I still cringe to this day (hopefully he doesn't remember he does go to my school rn lmao).  I'm 100.000000000000% sure that I wouldn't have the courage to do that today.  Actually if I did have the courage I still would not do it, lmao.  Looking back I was way less insecure to what it came to what I say and do.

       In third grade I started to change, and not in the good way.  I have became shy and insecure.  I could not open up to many people and only had a select few that I wasn't really ready with.   Accept for my one bestfriend I met I kindergarten that I'm still really good friends with :33.  I've been told "you were out and about when you were younger, why so quiet now?"  That questions hits me really hard like what happened to me.

       I don't really like going into sad things really and I want this book to be something others and I could laugh about.  I did not whatsoever get comments about my weight when I was younger but I do now.  I've heard adult say you're still very young your wait isn't much a problem, but when it comes to me....  I don't like talking about my weight because it just gives me all sort of problems for myself to talk about.  I also don't think weight says how pretty you are.  LET OUR THICC GIRLS SHINE :333!!!!!!!!!  Also I hate when people bring out my bigness (I prefer thick(c) or curvy or chubby), like if I'm trying to do something them I'm doing something.  I'm not going to skip meals or starve myself, it just doesn't work.

If I were to change m past I would, but I would also keep somethings the same.  I really don't like the problems you get when growing up.  Growing up sucks, I'm still vey young and I fell like I'm experiencing more problems than I should.  I like to be extra and weird around my friends so all this sentimental stuff is weird for me to share and stuff.  More memes coming soon! Don't worry!

(I know this was all over the place, but I will add more in depth and better details in the near future.)