There are two things that I go to whenever I'm sad. They calm me down, and help me settle down and break down. As I do these things, it is easier to cry and try to understand myself. I am not ashamed of saying that I cry sometimes. To be honest I don't really want to be seen as weak, and I always put others before myself, I rather deal with my problems with myself and not put worry on other people. Not like they care anyways... But that is why I feel these moments where I can break down are special because I don't do it a lot...
One thing I go to is music. Emotional songs help me because it reminds me of hardships everyone goes through and that really helps. I'll just listen to those songs and 7th ink about life. I think about how it's okay to be sad, and that it is okay to cry. Music also reminds me of my life, and life that I want to live. I want to be able to Rise Up, I want to be able to catch a grenade for somebody. I want to be able to love myself. When I say lives that I want to live, I don't mean the ones who talk about money of constant lovers. I am talking about those who talk about their hardships. I am talking about those who try to help others through their music. And those who talk about success.
Listening to music reminds me that all people go through these things. I like how those people have enough courage to share their experiences towards other. Recently I found out a star saved a fan from killing herself just by a cover, and to me that shows how powerful music can be. I feel like listening to music can take me out of an all time low.
Music is just a break from all the hardships life brings, and I am glad for that. I can tune out the reality for some time that forget about my pathetic life. I just get trashier and trashier each day. To be honest I don't mind being trash to anything. I do admit when it comes to things I am a fan of, I get on full fangirl mode, but hey, I don't really care.
Like no one knows this stuff but myself, but I decide to write it on here, wow. Did anyone catch my references? Anyways this is part one of two or three.
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Roman pour AdolescentsJen, she's all over the place, not perfect in anyway has suffered with herself, friends, and body, she's had a drastic change then from she was when she was little, and this is her being her weird self and dealing with all the struggles of life. (I'...
