Worthless Beauty L.S *Under Massive Editing*

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Warning : chapter contains mature stuff.

Chapter seven

After the small moment Zayn was starring at us with wide eyes but I didn't care, I just wanted harry to be okay. If he wasnt okay then I wouldn't be okay.

He stayed in my arms and I gave zayn a pleading look as to say not to say anything. I think he understood because he was nodding his head and making kissy faces.

"Lets get you to bed." I whispered in his ear. He clung to me as I got him to my bed and when I laid him down he just kept his grasp on me.

"Stay." He whimpered. I unlatched his arms from around my neck and say down on the bed. I stroked his hair and gave a small smile.

"Okay, just let me tell Zayn to go home." He nodded and I kissed forehead. As I walked out the door Zayn was putting on his jacket.

"I got to get going, I have an interview in the morning."

"Really?" I said.

"Yeah."

"Well good luck mate." He nodded and headed towards the door.

"Louis?" He said stepping out.

"Hmm." I hummed in response.

"Take care of the lad will ya?" I nodded.

"Always." He closed the door behind him and I locked it afterwards. I went back into the room with Harry to see him starring up at the ceiling, he looked dead.

Then I panicked because his chest wasnt rising. "Harry?" I ran over to him and started looking around to see if he had overdosed or anything but I didn't see an empty container.

Then he blinked and let out a shaky breath. "Bloody hell Harry, you fucking scared me." I pulled him onto my lap and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry I was just holding my breath" He said. I layed us down, his head on my chest. I kissed his head millions of times before I heard his soft snores.

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As the days went on Harry spoke less and less and during sessions he didnt speak it all, just stared at me.

And in the night he would curl into a ball and lay his head on my chest. Most nights he'd cry his self to sleep and I would whisper sweet nothing's into his ear but I doubt he ever listened to a word I was saying- he just kept repeating 'you left me, you promised you wouldn't.'

When it came to food, he pushed It away and I had to force him to eat only to see him throw it up a couple of minutes later.

Sometimes I'd even slip in a sleeping pill in his drink so he'd sleep instantly instead of having to go through the whole process of crying. I hated seeing Harry cry it just made me sad.

In the mornings when he would get ready for school he would stare at himself in the mirror and frown, hed poke at his stomach and cheeks.

He still gives me kisses, one before he leaves for school, one after, and one at bed time. Honestly I don't know how much longer he can take being in his dead like state, I know he's going to break soon and I just hope I'm there when it happens. I don't want him to do something stupid because honestly... I love him. I love him and I don't care if its wrong.

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There was six days before my birthday. Harry was out of school for a week and a half. And his mum was going to be back on the twenty second and since he's been out he hasn't said a single word. I'm scared to leave him alone because of work but it's just a risk I have to take. Harry isn't the only person I have to help, though he's the most important one at the moment.

I opened the door to the flat and stepped inside immediately smelling a burnt smell. I looked over to the kitchen and there harry was a fork in hand. He was burning himself. I hurried over and grabbed it and threw it. "Baby." I said he was starring at me but his eye were dead and I could tell he wasnt focused on me. "Harry." I said more sternly but his gaze remained the same.

I began to cry. "Please harry talk to me, I miss your voice." I shook him but he remained silent. "Please." I pleaded.

I let him go and turned off the stove. I dragged him to the lounge and sat him down on the couch. I straddled him and put my arms around his neck. Slowly but surely I started to lean in, then my lips were against his unmoving ones. I pressed harder hoping for a reaction but when I didn't get one I pulled back and rested my head against his. "Please Harry, I can't stand to see you like this, it hurts. It hurts so much. Please come back to me I love you so much." The words had slipped and quite frankly I didn't care, he deserved to know I loved him.

I tried to kiss him again this time he was clutching onto the back of my shirt and trying to pull me closer. Our lips moving sloppily against the others. "I love you." I said hoping he'd believe me.

"No you don't." He whispered.

"Harry I love you." I repeated giving him a rough kiss.

"No you don't." He said yet again.

"I FUCKING LOVE YOU!" I yelled not caring if the neighbours could hear. I ran my hands down his sides to the hem of his shirt, I pulled it off and slowly kissed down his body. I was going to show him I loved him.

"Louis." He breathed out shakily.

"I'm going to prove to you that I love you, Harry." After that he didnt say anything else just let me undress him slowly.

I was about to lay him down on the couch but I didn't want our first time to be on a mangy old thing. I carried him to our bedroom. Cause that's what it was it was our bedroom.

I layed him down on the bed and took off my shirt, showing all my insecurities. Though I doubt he was looking at them his eyes were closed -which means if he ever did see them id have to explain. His hands were on his bare stomach scratching at it roughly.

I took off the rest and climbed onto the bed, taking hold of his hands. He didnt open his eyes and I was okay with that. Though I wish he would open them to see I was being serious about loving him.

I kissed his inner thighs then slowly moved up, as I reached his member he grabbed my face and pulled me up. "Kiss me not my-" he didnt even get to finish before i was kissing his lips. The kiss was filled with so much love I think we could have shared it with someone else.

I pulled away and kissed his neck, then his just below his ear. "Love you." I said before putting a finger in him to stretch him out. He squealed and opened his eyes. They were shining. For the first time.

I liked how they looked, I wish they were like that all the time. I stuck in another finger and he squirmed underneath me but I kept him still with a kiss. Then there was the third, he was hot and bothered now I could tell by with the way he would push down on my fingers.

I pulled my fingers out of his hole and aligned myself up. I counted to three in my head and entered. He whimpered and moaned at the same time. "I love you so much, baby." I repeated - with the occasional moan- over and over into his ear while I thrusted in and out of him.

He pulled me down and began to kiss me and I kissed back, and since I was now leaning over him my thrusts were deeper causing Harry to moan into my mouth, which I found absoulty hot and beautiful at the same time so I decided to go even deeper. It was an excellent choice seeing as how i hit his bundle of nerves and Harry was yelling out my name.

"Do you believe me now?" I whispered. He didnt say anything just breathed heavily into my ear.

With one last moan from Harry I was releasing inside of him and he was releasing on both of us, but I didn't mind because ... I loved him.

I pulled out and collapsed ontop of him, to tired to even roll over, but what caused me to roll over was his quite whisper which said, "I believe you."

His breathing was becoming steady and his hands were on his stomach drumming lightly on it. I sat up and pulled the blankets up to our chest and layed back down. I pulled him close and kissed his temple. With one last I love you we both fell asleep -and I could have sworn he smiled.

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Louis gonna get introuble oooo.
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