Well I've done something I DID NOT mean to do...and it's bad for me...I got feelings...more like they were thrown at me and knocked me out...this person I know, my big time crush (let's call her Ash...also Ash is kinda depressed and it hurts my pour heart) I've had a crush on her for a while now and I've been doing amazing at keeping it secret but...my feelings for Ash increase each time I talk to her. Ash knows I'm trans and supports me 100% and it's great...but I'm pretty sure she wouldn't like to date me for numerous reasons. Ash makes me feel the same feeling that I have when I see a beautiful sunrise, calm, happy, and slightly stunned, because Ash is stunning. She's so cool. Ash tells the best jokes and just makes you smile any time you're near her. Today we were talking about the Valentine's dance coming next month and she said "Whoo! Going to a dance single just to listen to crappy pop music and fail at doing the Macarena!"
And I said something stupid..."Want to hang out? Be my strictly platonic date?" And I giggled a little .... pretty sure no one actually knew what platonic meant...so it was awkward until I awkwardly explained...so I have a dumb idea that will ruin our friendship because why the f@#& not!
Idea: I have like 1000 little note cards and envelopes...because I never throw anything away... and why not write Ash little letters like: Hey, hope you are feeling okay and I hope you've ate today. Eating is important, and don't worry I won't write you a sappy love poem because that's kinda weird. From, your secret admirer
P.s. I hate the term "secret admirer" but yeah.
Okay maybe not exactly like that but you get the jist...idk I decided to make an actual entry thing instead of
"Today was okay and yeah that's pretty much it"
Also can't wait for my friends to grill me about who it is....idk just wanted to write my feelings down.
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Humoridk random stuff from my day because why not...(okay, it started out like that...but now it's just memes and shit.)
