I don't want to see
what you see in me. I know
that I will cry.
Don't want to hold on
to my wildest dreams -
not as pretty as they seem.
I fall -
you climb.
I lose what once was mine
My stomach turns
at their love.
My soul is burned
by magic.
Lose my mind in the abyss
that I built myself.
I'm not right
and you're not wrong
as I slave to your caring kiss.
Filled with love
and filled with hate.
A crimson, tortured, gentle fate.
I lose
when I see the real me.
Hide. When the horror that I am
set free.
A river flows
from bloodshot eyes. Lost
the last flicker of life.
I shout. Out of jealously.
Not caring if they stare at me.
I run
like the coward I am.
Chasing the impossible.
Death and destruction
in my wake. Family
forgotten. Consumed
with rage.
Save me. I regret.
Love me. I want you.
Hate me. Please don't.
Help me.
Leave me be.
